I've Been So Lost In My Mind...

Becky. 22. England. Recovering from Severe/Extreme Anorexia, Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder, Self Harm, Depression, OCD. Always happy to receive questions, anon or not. Keep smiling my lovelies!

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[onemorecoffee123-deactivated202]

My manager told me to “just think happy thoughts” in response to my PTSD and depression 😑

[slaughterkeys]

[cillianmurphy]

I AM ABSOLUTELY LOSING MY MIND AFTER READING THIS PLEASE READ IT

[anxietyproblem]

[thegoodvybe]

[monachopsis-people]

[brokenfrombirth]

[amargedom]

“Sometimes even to live is an act of courage.”

— Seneca (via amargedom)

[thegoodvybe]

[donotrocktheboat]

[amargedom]

“Hear me, hear my silence.”

— Clarice Lispector, in Água Viva (via amargedom)

[the-moon-whisperer]

[donotrocktheboat]

A return.

Having not posted on this account for years, I have turned back to it. On May 26th, I attempted to end my life by jumping from a carpark. I survived. I have a broken spine and heel. I feel numb. I feel devastated. I cannot live in the clutches of these illnesses anymore. I cannot and will not. I planned this for weeks. I shouldn’t be here. There is no way out.

[rory-has-bpd]

all days are the same. i don’t feel alive anymore.

[achel-ois]

You are allowed to grieve the years you lost to mental illness. You’re allowed to be mad that it happened to you. You’re allowed to pine after the person you might have been had it been different. But don’t let that get in the way of your growing into your new self and following a wholly new path for your life.

[ghostcashew]

food isn’t something you have to earn. eating isn’t something you have to deserve. food is fuel and energy and survival. be nice to yourself. give yourself permission to eat. it’ll be okay. 💜

[annabelleroses]