you can't perceive me

hey. my name is rory and i'm an alien with multiple mental illnesses. i write my feelings out. this blog is pro self-dx. |

[rory-has-bpd]

hmmmmmmmmmm time to ingest substances or die

[rory-has-bpd]

take me kill me eat me destroy me i don't care anymore

leave me be let me rot let me decay i have expired

[rory-has-bpd]

hell yeah brother i wanna obliterate myself in every way imaginable

[rory-has-bpd]

finally a few days where i was feeling a bit more chill. probably won't last long but nice to have it even for a short while

[rory-has-bpd]

things are getting even more horrible! take me out now thx

[rory-has-bpd]

hope i'm not gonna wake up tomorrow

[rory-has-bpd]

every second existing feels like slowly ripping my own skin off

[rory-has-bpd]

wow what a torturous start of the day

[rory-has-bpd]

like im 99.99% sure that they're not into me and it won't work out so now im just literally torturing myself like it fucking hurts to think about im fucking tweaking out idk what to do with myself PLEASE MAKE THIS STOP

[rory-has-bpd]

not liking anyone was peaceful. let me go back to that PLEASE

[rory-has-bpd]

there's so much shit that's making me anxious lately and now on top of that i have to like someone??? No. Please Stop. I HATE THIS I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS

[rory-has-bpd]

tweaking so bad that im back here bc i need a safe place to rant that nobody i know irl knows about

[rory-has-bpd]

how come i felt so good a few hours ago and now im so defeated and and done

[rory-has-bpd]

no matter how i feel, good or bad, there's always this void somewhere inside me that never gets filled and i have no idea what to even do to make it go away. it's like there's always something missing, and always will be

[rory-has-bpd]

not sure if i'm getting sick or not

[rory-has-bpd]

may have overcaffeinated myself with the cold brews oops

[rory-has-bpd]

they way i wanna be left alone but also don't want people to leave me