[dontbehappier]

after he broke my heart

he came back and asked

can i walk all over you?

i blindly said yes

as long as i had him

was what i constantly reminded myself

i

[dontbehappier]

every poem

consists of me missing you

and so I wonder

does every day you spend

consist of missing me?

i.a.

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your eyes would smile

at every little thing I’d say

and now there’s nothing.

no emotion

or expression

just eyes.

I

[dontbehappier]

i would say i love you

because i am certain i feel that way about you

yet i am unable to deliver the words

out of my mouth

perhaps i am frightened of your reciprocation

or perhaps i’m frightened i may be mislead

that i don’t love you

and it’s all just infatuation.

i

[dontbehappier]

what if i’m in love with the idea of you

the person i envisioned in my head

the one i created scenarios about

what if you are the complete opposite

and i go in head first

carrying my ruptured heart

but the way i feel about you is transparent

the butterflies i get

the looks we exchange

the shared eye gaze

i hate that i’m frightened

but i want to be wary

there is no wrong in that

i

[dontbehappier]

i miss you

i miss us

and how we used to be

i wish we could go back

to that day

where we just laughed and talked

with no realisation that the sun had set

i wish we were the same

and oh how i wish

i could see you again

i

[dontbehappier]

i’m sat here missing you

while you’re probably with her

and have no thought in mind

of me.

i

[dontbehappier]

i hate you

for getting my hopes up.

i hate myself

for letting me think

that you felt the same way.

because of all the laughs

we had.

all the talks,

just for you to act like

i was no one to you.

i

[dontbehappier]

i

[dontbehappier]

i hope when you go back

to our place

you’ll realise

i won’t be there anymore.

i hope you miss me,

and yearn for my presence

like i do for yours.

i

[dontbehappier]

[dontbehappier]

[dontbehappier]

your name

belongs to an entire chapter

in my book.

but mine in yours,

is just on one page.

- i

[dontbehappier]

i

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i

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I find it difficult to cry at times.

But when I’m retracing our memories,

it becomes easy to.

- I

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I remember when I met you.

My favourite song on repeat

in my head.

Maybe it was a sign

that you were going to become

my favourite person.

- I