END IS WHERE WE BEGIN @dontforgetthebull - Tumblr Blog

sometimes I wonder if there are still people here in Tumblr, similar to how I wonder if there are still people who care about me. Here I am again, sitting alone in my dark living room, blasting off sad music in my airpods - mainly to conceal the sounds of people enjoying outside. it’s actually pride weekend, if not for corona. but everyone still managed to do something - travel, house party, dinner with friends. yet here I am alone - without anyone.

i don’t know how much more i can handle

I want to believe that there is still someone out there for me. Sometime, I tend to believe that maybe it has come and past. That the love of my life was someone I screwed over or screwed me over. A missed chance. A departed flight. I still want to believe though. But it’s taking a lot of me.

When I was in third grade, my teacher asked me, in front of the class, what do I want to be when I grow up? I wasn’t able to answer or maybe I made something up.

I look where I am now and I remember this memory. I still don’t have an answer to this question.

To me, it was never a matter of what or where I wanna be. I wanted to be with someone who can love me for me.

7 years ago, I attempted saying goodbye to this blog. A few failed ones here and there. But eventually, I left with an uncertainty of coming back. To be honest, this blog has been buried with the past I tried to forget. Never has it crossed my mind in years. But tonight, I am here. Writing this post to no one.

Things have changed for certain. The 27 year old me now is not the same young guy who came to find himself in the comfort of this space. Or so I thought.

I won’t promise anything. Maybe I will keep writing here, maybe I will disappear like before.

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