Maybe I’m just asking too much…I just feel like I keep failing at every turn when I all I wanna do is get things right. I don’t understand why I can’t just get the job I’m trying to get. Get and keep the 1 woman I’ve been in love with and marry her. I don’t think I’ve ever loved anyone the way I love her. All I wanna do her make her happy beyond all reason,love her the way she deserves to be loved. But once again I just fail. I feel like it’s always me. I’m not a jealous person and I don’t tend to compare my self to other around me but it’s hard sometimes when you see other ppl actually getting places and being happy when that’s all I really want for myself. It’s hard to not to wonder when will it finally be my time to actually be happy. I feel like don’t even get to smile for too long cause something always goes left for me. I just wanna be happy with the love of my life and successful in my career. I’m tired of feeling like I’m struggling or constantly having to fight and earn. When will things just flow freely toward me. Don’t I deserve to be happy too?
