𝖌𝖔𝖑𝖉𝖊𝖓 𝖎𝖉𝖔𝖑

[doraik]

THE GOLDEN BOY HAS FALLEN ⸻ INDEPENDENT,   MUTUAL   EXCLUSIVE   AND   SELECTIVE   BLOG   FOR DO RA-IK FROM IDOL I AND OTHER MIXED MEDIA ABOUT THE LIFE OF IDOLS. BASED ON THE SHOW AND HEADCANONS AND MIXED LORE. WRITTEN AND CURATED BY CALI. GMT+3.

CARRD. PROMO. GRAPHICS. HEADCANONS.

PSA: his carrd is TBA. please note that do ra-ik shows clear signs of anxiety, high functioning depression, anxiety and panic attacks as well instances of suic*dal ideation. the show also touches on the heavy subjects of murder and being falsely accused and the heavy pressure idols are under. i will not shy away from this aspect as it's part of his characterization.

note: do ra-ik is a 3rd generation idol, debuting in 2013 with his band golden boys, and are known for using instruments, though they do dance on occassions.

[calisverse]

Idol I (2025). EP12.

Kim Jae-Young as Do Ra-Ik

give it up for the extras in this scene:

[doraik]

sena was so funny that her confidence that raik didn't commit was a crime comes from having seen his terrible acting in a k-drama and going "no way he can lie like this" when he is sobbing.

[doraik]

the way that going solo was never in raik's mind, you know? that was the company. and the moment they think he is failure (mind you he was still in the top 10 , i think it was 6th) they were comparing him to a new boy act and saying his star power can never compare to that of a group. he wanted to do music with his group and they kept pushing that, and undoubtly creating animosity between him and jaehee specially who felt sidelined by the company . the staff thought of raik as a diva when he was asking for the bare minimum of you know,when you go toa venue to perform, why are the clothes not ready, microphone issues, and so on and so forth. it's truly sadly a realty that 30+ idols like raik is, are seen as worn out of yesterdays' product simply because of age and thus, overworked.

this man barely knew himself and was self medicating to keep going but god knows where that would had ended up if wooseoung had not found him passed out in the bathroom from exhaustion and his pills.

[calisverse]

Idol I (2025) + Do Ra-ik's mental health and kpop fandom culture.

Violent Fans: Ra-ik is pulled and thrown to the ground by a "fan". Entitlement: A fan grows upset and demands to be given his phone number, ending in throwing a paper at him, causing an injury. Mobbing: Intense, often harassing, group behaviors by obsessive fans. Clipping: Refers to fans cutting up long videos into short,clips, in this context, to portay him in a bad light, putting actions and thoughts into him. Sasaengs: Obsessive fans, particularly within the K-pop industry, who engage in stalking and other behaviors that severely violate the privacy of idols, actors, and other public figures.

From two episodes so far, Do Ra-ik seems to display many real and raw mental health issues related to his life as an idol: High-functioning depression , identity disturbance (or loss of identity), clearly anxiety and panic attack, abuse of stupefied substances like alcohol , dissociation and hallucinations (flashbacks and auditory memories ).

[doraik]

THE GOLD BOYS !

during their comeback tour to celebrate their career and tribute to their beloved former member, wooseoung.

[amerah-7]

[doraik]

hey this is a sad reminder that raik was scouted and put in the industry at the age of 10.

[doraik]

@bulsoitan asked: “it could’ve been a lot worse .”

"I   made   you   follow   me   here.   Sorry   about   that."   He   didn't   really   made   anyone   do   anything.   His   first   public   appearance   at   a   fan   signing   after   the   trial   and   the   investigation   had   not   been   the   best.   Goldie   Entertainment   wanted   to   do   a   final   rounds   of   it   before   changing   companies,   so   Raik   said   he   would   do   it,   because   he   is   now   the   hyung   of   the   group   and   that   is   what   Wooseong   would   had   wanted;   for   him   taking   care   of   the   group.   He   just   didn't   counted   on   his   anxiety   to   act   up   in   front   of   the   people   backstage.  

He   managed   to   hold   on   through   the   meetings   but   once   he   was   backstage,   he   had   struggle   to   focus   anywhere,   eyes   lost,   the   sensation   of   the   room   being   too   small   and   too   big   at   the   same   time   and   that   ringing   on   his   ear.   Jay   had   helped   him   get   the   bottle   with   his   prescription   pills   for   emergencies   ,   and   now   he   was   finally   calmer,   focusing   on   the   cold   drip   of   water   from   the   bottle   he   was   holding   against   his   face.

  "Not   exactly   my   best   moment   out   there.   I'm   okay   now.   You   can   leave   if   you   are   busy."   He   breathes   through   once   more   and   but   remains   seated   on   the   floor   where   he   had   been   keeping   himself.   It   felt   nice   there,   so   he   just   keeps   himself   close   to   the   cold   which   seems   to   be   focusing   him   at   the   moment.   And   while   unexpected,   the   other's   presence   was   also   a   welcoming   feel.   "Did   it   break   the   illusion   of   idols   to   you?"   it's   half   a   jest,   but   the   man   simply   rest   against   the   wall.   "God,   I   don't   smoke   but   I   feel   like   I   need   one."

[doraik]

@florietiae asked: a list of casual yet intimate interactions. [ LISTEN ] sender is listening to receiver talk and picks up an object that belongs to receiver to fidget with. / from jinu.

Raik   is   not   sure   what   exactly   he   is   rambling   about.   He   thinks   it's   about   the   upcoming   album   and   tour   now   that   the   band   was   out   of   Goldie   Entertainment   and   his   name   has   been   cleared,   the   days   seem   a   little   brighter   than   before.   Or   maybe   it's   the   alcohol   (   he   did   promise   to   cut   it   out   for   a   while,   considering   he   is   still   on   his   meds,   and   the   nightmares   haven't   really   stopped   ).   It's   just   easy   to   let   himself   ramble   around   Jinu   when   it's   just   usually   difficult   for   him   to   do   that   with   other   people.   Wooseong   was   the   one   person   he   had   in   his   life   that   had   let   him   open   up   like   this   and   never   judge   him   in   return.  

Wooseong   was   dead   now,   the   scent   of   metal   was   still   lingering   in   his   apartment   or   perhaps   that   was   just   all   in   his   head.   But   it   felt   nice   to   be   able   to   talk   like   this   with   someone   else.   Attention   is   drawn   to   Jinu   the   moment   he   catches   him   fidgeting.   Eyes   lock   to   the   object.   Raik   is   known   to   use   many   bracelets,   even   out   of   the   idol   life   and   off   stages.   "Sorry.   I   haven't   realised   how   much   I   been   rambling   about."   He   speaks   up   finally,   before   he   simply   focuses   on   Jinu's   hand   and   how   they   play   with   one   of   the   bracelets.   "Did   I   bored   you   too   much?   Sorry."

[doraik]

raik is best boyfriend to his fangirl girlfriend because he gives her access to unique photocards (literally her photos of him)

[calisverse]

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My commissions are open and they are cheaper than before for the duration of january for the new year. I am trying to gain some money now that my two jobs are basically leaving me on hiatus without pay until they know for sure they can take me again, and i got to pay my meds for my ankle injury (torn ligament so i'm doing psychical therapy still, the ten sessions i was told is around 12000 pesos uruguayos which equals to 307 USD) and also my depression is back so i got to pay the medication (25 USD ggive or take) and mandatory psychiatrist and psychology visit (i have to go two times a week, which is around 2000 pesos uruguayos, equals to 51 USD each session). And some of you know that I'm also moving to another place by myself at the end of january, and my expenses round up to around 180 USD.

I offer my payhip store for blog packs premade or the commissions! I usually take 2-3 days to do the commissions or less as I can't do a lot due to my injury and I stay at home. If you don't need graphics but you can collaborate, then consider donating to paypal or through ko-fi. it truly helps me a lot. 

[doraik]

Wrong blog but man I miss jason todd

[the-mother-of-lions]

his big, terrified eyes and kicked puppy demeanor have captivated me

[the-mother-of-lions]

IDOL I | UN:ENDING

bonus

[sunjaesol]

— IDOL I (EP.12)

[calisverse]

Idol I (2025). EP 12.

Kim Jae-Young as Do Ra-Ik