head full of poison & heart full of doubt

[doubtfulheart]

HEARTFE1T -

IND. SEL. & PRIVATE multimuse blog. featuring original characters as well as muses taken from multiple fandoms and re-designed and crafted per my heart's desires. re-established by kenna in march of 2023.

links: MUSES | PROMO | MEMES | OPENS | STARTER CALLS

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other main rp blog: @melodyplucked other blogs: (sideblogs) @sheactress , @mimistjames

guidelines:

i'm kenna, i'm 25, i use she/her pronouns, and i'm currently residing in the eastern timezone. as it turns out, i may remain here for some time.

my blog is mutuals only! (exceptions for like- oc open starter kind of things can be made) i'm not trying to have a lot of rp partners just- ones that i genuinely want to write with so... y'know. you get me. my other priority is also ricky's blog i do want to mention, so fluctuating muse will impact what's going on here or isn't.

forgot this wasn't listed on here- this blog is 18+. not for content necessarily just- because i am. this is for everyone's sake. do not lie about your age i beg of you...

psd credit: much of it's mine, some more recently, especially some edits (june 2024) is from pinkinnards!

if i follow you i want to write with you! memes are usually the easiest way to start

i am stuck with the new beta editor. please use this / x-kit rewritten for our threads if possible.

follow typical rp etiquette please! so no godmodding, don't reblog my threads if it's not with you, that usual sort of thing.

triggers will be tagged as 'trigger tw', 'trigger //' or 'trigger mention tw' people in this vein will usually be tagged with 'person name //'. please let me know if i miss something, i'd be happy to tag it for you! nsft content (while relatively uncommon) is tagged 'nsft' and 'nsfw //'

my muses are all 18+ by default. i've spent a lot of time with a lot of these muses and they've grown with me, though this blog is not chronological.

disclaimer: i am not and am not affiliated with the source media for any of my canon muses or their faceclaims, etc. i do not own them, i am simply writing my own take on their stories and where the future could take them. i also take full credit for my original characters and headcanons / character study, that sort of thing.

affiliated with: @inspotlight / @chrryblsssm (and all of hales' blogs), @canclled (and all of pluto's blogs)

[sabrinagifs]

A NONSENSE CHRISTMAS WITH SABRINA CARPENTER

[elegant-painn-deactivated202603]

[doubtfulheart]

iiiii do not want to go to the office tomorrow rip. ig at least it’s friday

[chrryblsssm]

❝   it's   stunning.   ❞   she   agrees,   pulling   her   cardigan   tighter   around   her   body   as   she   looks   out   the   window.   she   loved   the   city   in   the   winter,   even   if   she   was   a   california   girl   through   and   through—always   chasing   sunshine.   it   was   nice   to   be   able   to   enjoy   the   snow   for   a   week   or   two   before   she   got   tired   of   it   and   needed   to   get   back   to   a   beach.   ❝   i   could   not   imagine   being   up   there,   in   the   snow,   freezing   cold,   and   having   to   perform.   i   mean,   i   already   don't   have   any   interest   in   being   a   performer,   but   that   would   probably   do   me   in   if   i   did   try   to   do   something   like   that.   ❞   eyes   light   up   at   the   mention   of   her   dress;   now   that's   what   sisi   is   most   interested   in.   ❝   no,   oh   my   gosh!   i   need   to   see   the   dress.   ❞   sierra   had   a   brief   few   months   where   she'd   considered   being   a   personal   stylist,   but   the   allure   of   managing   talent   was   too   enticing   to   her.

[doubtfulheart]

    ❝    right? like there's a thrill that comes from a live performance but i don't know how far adrenaline can take you compared to hypothermia-    ❞    she laughs, shivering at the mere thought.    ❝    i'm excited to be up there though- it's got to be one of the coolest things ever.    ❞    she's sung her share of national anthems, some on some big broadcasts, but this is the christmas parade. that's huge.    ❝    i'm sure you'd kill it if you had the desire.    ❞    ashley rose smiles. sierra's just not that girl, and she appreciates that about her sometimes.    ❝    you know i love a sparkly costume. loveshackfancy did it custom for me with my stylist.    ❞    she hums, rushing over to where it's been left hanging in the dress bag in the closet, and unzipping the pink fabric to unveil the shimmery ice blue dress.

[userlindley]

TAYLOR JEWEL 3.06, Last Name

[kaceyrps]

NATALIE ALYN LIND on INSTAGRAM

[doubtfulheart]

open.

valerie "val" prescott, 24ish, broadway dancer/actress girly living in new york what did she see? up to you.

    ❝    yeah no. i'm out of here-    ❞    

[doubtfulheart]

open.

muse: tessa jensen, 21ish, rockstar's daughter | ceilings by lizzie mcalpine

    ❝    one of those nights where it feels so short, then he's driving me home, and i don't want to leave but i have to go    ❞    

[doubtfulheart]

open.

muse: tessa jensen, 21ish rockstar's daughter | hey girly by jenna davis

    ❝    the last thing i ever wanted was to be somebody's someone else    ❞    

[carpenter-sab]

Sabrina Carpenter on Saturday Night Live

[doubtfulheart]

i am in officially The Best Mood because the doctor this morning basically thinks that i am most likely fine or pretty darn close to it !!!

he was very politely calling the other doctors involved in this stupid basically 😭😭😭 but this is why you see a specialist.

i’m gonna be getting an mri and another more specialized ultrasound to Check some things but !!! your girl is NOT DYING. OFFICIALLY.

if it is the one thing he theorizes i could have i don’t love the idea of having to go off some of my meds or take blood thinners but !!! eeee

[doubtfulheart]

i get to go see the liver doctor todayyyyyyyy. tbh i feel like i'm probably not going to Learn Anything today just find out what kind of next imaging i need but ... it's PROGRESS.

i Also so far don't have a killer migraine this morning (to be fair they have been going like nothing in the morning to bad by afternoon but ... we're crossing our fingers. especially since i have to spend a half an hour in an uber ...

[dcomgifs]

[doubtfulheart]

i took a restorative yoga class which apparently involves very little of what i would call true exercise but i feel very peaceful and for probably separate reasons now extremely hungry so i am going to figure out how i’m rectifying that issue and then i’m going to Attempt to do some writing if my head doesn’t go back on the offensive

[plutoshub]

it does feel nice to be, well, letting her emotions out like this and to be not doing it alone. however, as always, there's her mother's voice in her head - you look a mess right now, addison. pull it together. this isn't how a proper young lady presents herself. which is ironic really, when missy is part of the reason for the tear tracks on addison’s face. she lets out a sigh of her own, staring up at the ceiling before looking across to cadence with a watery smile. "definitely would be so much easier. i think i'd take that over this in a heartbeat."

[doubtfulheart]

( @flshnbne )

there's nothing like a good cry, honestly. it does her good, to let it out. maybe she's selfish to let herself feel this bad in front of someone else. that voice in her head probably belongs to her mother though.    ❝    there's probably some prolific literary quote that puts it better, but no man can hurt me like my mother can    ❞    whether she means to or not, it's not the point.    ❝    i love my mother- but there's only so much i can take.    ❞    and there's only so much penny sinclair could take too. she's just gotten really good at hiding it.

[chrryblsssm]

❝   i   definitely   won't   be   ordering   an   old   fashioned.   ❞   he   says   with   a   shake   of   his   head.   ❝   but,   no,   i   don't   really   do   this.   i   was   in   a   relationship   for   almost   three   years.   ❞   he   shrugs,   picking   up   his   own   drink   and   taking   a   sip.   he   liked   monogamy;   he   liked   pouring   all   his   energy   and   care   into   one   person.   going   out   with   valerie   was   exciting,   but   it   was   also   nervewracking.   he   was   into   her,   but   nervous   she   isn't   looking   for   something   serious.

[doubtfulheart]

    ❝    you can't imagine how glad i am to hear that    ❞    she giggles, teasing as she looks at him over the rim of her glass.    ❝    like- a real relationship after nina?    ❞    she confirms. it's not to downplay what he may have felt about the princess, but from all she's heard...    ❝    i'm not some new york party girl, if that's what you're worried about ej.    ❞    she thinks she'd have a right to, with the sheer small number of weeks they've known each other, but she's not going out with anyone else at the moment. though maybe that's the nature of her atmosphere in a new country too.    ❝    i like relationships. i dated the same guy most of college then saw him off to law school in the fall-    ❞    there's no crazy story there, they just knew it would be over after she left in the morning. they were starting new lives. valerie never pictured herself in this kind of a new life though.    ❝    i'm 24 years old and i don't know that i'm ready to be someone's wife right now, but i'm not afraid of being with someone seriously.    ❞