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@douzheng
dòuzhēng: struggle, to fight for, battle, to strive for combat. / / / / / Independent Blade of Honkai Star Rail. Very private and very selective. Highly headcanon based for the time being until more is released about our dear Bladie. As observed by LYNX. No minors. Triggering content may apply. [ carrd / art credit ]
At least he was aware of the fact t hat Dan Heng was NOT his predecessor. They shared a few things in common but that was it. Dan Heng was a Nameless. His past life a revered High Elder who turned criminal according to those who hated him.
❝ So long as YOU are aware that you are chasing a dead man and I am different, then that's fine by me. ❞
Blade was a man who, despite his snippets of memory, was a mystery to him. How had he known Imbibitor Lunae? And why was he trying to constantly kill him? All these questions buzzed through his mind. But it was better to quell them and continue on than to open whatever wounds the man had for his predecessor.
❝ My friends are my family. I must get going then. ❞
Dan Heng started to walk away from the man who still looked like a drowned rat as he made his way to the starskiff that had taken him to this platform. The next place to go was Scalegorge Waterscape. It was there that he'd meet his friends again.
Though he worried that they would not recognize him for he looked nothing like the normal Dan Heng they knew and traveled with.
❝ I hope they aren't angry with me for keeping this a secret, ❞ he said more to himself than to Blade.
As the dragon continued to speak, a steady frown began to form. He was honestly quite tired of this. Yes, he'd made his fair share of mistakes by chasing a ghost the way he had... but did it really require this much attitude from the other? He was holding himself back. He was trying to fight the Mara raging inside of him for the sake of the other's wellbeing and the wellbeing of his friends. Because, despite what people might think, there was still an echo of his former self that remained. He was still... human. At least... deep down under all this curse. He was trying to be anyways.
A bubble of anger made its way to the surface as he snapped without thought. "You need not remind me that you have a life to run back to." He hissed out before pulling back a bit. "Run back to them and leave the past in the past..." He shook his head and sighed, trying to combat those emotions swirling and tempting the Mara within him. Do not lose control. Not here. Not now.
"I..." Blade paused and closed his eyes. Flashes of a life that no longer existed spun around him briefly before fading back into the recesses of his mind. Again he shook his head. "Nothing... I... --apologize... for my outburst...." He turned away then. "I should go..."
So I made a wheel of decisions and the wheel decided I'm writing and then I threw my muses on there and Blade won so he's grumbling rn. Guess I'm working on replies here!
This song will never not be good to me.
Dan Heng glowered. This man was such a little shit. He didn't know how Blade knew him or his past life. But however it was, Dan Heng's patience was wearing thin. Especially when that smirk appeared.
While he was tempted to shoot the man before him into the air and then force him into the water, he thought of a better way. Using the cloudhymn magic that pulled at him like the waves of the ocean itself, Dan Heng blasted a large wave that covered the undying man in massive amount of water.
❝ That was warning. ❞ he told him sharply.
Dan Heng gritted his teeth. ❝ I'm not him. Why can't you understand that?! Why can't you understand that's not how Vidyadhara reincarnation works!? I am not Imbibitor Lunae. And I don't want the title or the position. I never have. ❞
He sighed and turned to face the sea. ❝ Rescue my friends. See an end to this conflict. Then leave. I have no desire to return to the Shackling Prison for breaking my exile edict. ❞
It shouldn't have been a shock, this action. After all, he had been the one to taunt and test the dragon's patience. However, he still hadn't expected him to actually take action against him. At least.... not like this.
He'd been quick to brace himself against the wave so he wouldn't be swept away into the sea. Once it had passed, he let out a breath, coughing slightly before shaking his head.
"How mature of you..." The Stellaron Hunter frowned, looking like a wet dog as his hair fell into his face now. With a sigh, he pulled off his soaked coat and began to wring it out. "Be glad I am not in the mood to fight today. Otherwise that would have been an invitation for such." He shook his head, eyes closing at the dragon's angry outburst. "I am aware of who you are. The beast inside of me may think otherwise, but I am aware...."
When his coat was drained of water, he pulled it back on and sighed once more. "Do what you must. I have no plans to interfere. I have completed my mission. There is no more reason for me to step in."
you ever just wake up and think about a ship and just.... kjlfdghhkdsg. yeah that's me tonight.
look at this little bean. he is soft and deserves love.
@etherealguard said: “ what do you see when you look into my eyes? ”
It was certainly unexpected. He hadn't expected this sort of question, let alone for the man to even dare to speak to him. They'd spent so much time as enemies, one chasing and one running, that a conversation seemed... out of place. Though, given the things they'd been through recently and the truths that had come to light, he supposed he should have expected something like this.
What was he supposed to say? Or, the question should be, what did he really see? Really, it varied from time to time. When the mara was at it's peak, he saw his enemy. The man from his past. The one who he'd long considered a friend. A companion. A partner and teammate. The one who he'd coaxed into unforgivable actions. The one he'd relied on time and time again to keep him safe. His ally and his greatest downfall. The reason for his suffering.
But this was no longer Dan Feng... and he knew that. The man he'd known in his past life was not the man before him now. In his moments of clarity, such as this one, he could see that. Could see the differences even when there were too many similarities. In the form he'd returned to on the Luofu, those eyes were almost identical to his former self. But now... now he could only see a frightened boy still running from his pursuer.
What have I become? Why have I become the monster in children's nightmares? The thought provoked a sigh as he kept his arms crossed over his chest, his eyes closing for a moment.
"A memory.... I suppose." He said, crimson hues drifting off for a moment before returning to Dan Heng's cold blue ones. "A distant one. One not worth chasing..." He paused for a moment, shaking his head as he pushed himself upright and turned. "But behind that... you are simply who you are. And I see that you are not the same as him. Even if I want you to be..."
I love this old man so much.
@douzheng asked: reverse kisses for the Bladie
kisses meme | always accepting
True Random Number Generator Min: 1 Max: 20 Result: 6
(6) a kiss to the knuckles
Yinyue walked over to the swordsmith's working area. He was hard at work forging a new divine blade, a new weapon. Either for himself or for someone else. He wasn't going to lie. It had been hard to watch Yingxing lose Baiheng.
They'd been the second best set partners in their group. And to watch Yinxing lose it like that… the Abomination of Abundance had to be stopped. And soon. That way Baiheng's death wouldn't have been in vain.
He stopped the man as he worked; overworking the metal a little too much. He drew the hand that had held the hammer and pressed a kiss to Yingxing's knuckles. And then he pulled him into a hug. A long one, a tight one.
❝ I promise you won't lose anymore friends. I'm here for you, Yingxing. ❞
Work had always been a good source of distraction for him. At least... usually it was. He was trying his hardest to keep his mind off the events of the last week. About the events that had taken place. But try as he might, his mind could only continue to return to one thought;
It's not fair.
Why did it have to be her?
And the moment that thought came circling back, he was down again. His eyes burning from tears and his heart aching with pain. She wasn't supposed to go before him. He was the short life species here. He was supposed to be the first to go. But... of course she would do this. She would do anything to protect him. To keep him safe. Even if it meant sacrificing herself. He'd been little more than a child when they'd met and now... now he was old. He was tired. He should have been the one to die... not her. It wasn't FAIR.
He hadn't even heard the door open. Nor had he heard those ghostly footsteps from behind as he continued to work through the tears. Bang. Bang. Bang. The hammer continued to slam down against the metal. Over and over again as anger and pain manifested themselves through the physical action he was taking. It should have been me. It should have been me not her. It's not fair.
A sob choked from him, followed by a slight gasp as the hand came down to stop his actions. His eyes darted to the side and before he could even fight it, he was being embraced and a kiss placed upon his knuckles.
He wanted to fight. He wanted to pull away and continue to let out his anger and frustration. But the second those arms were around him, the whole world seemed to crumble. It was just THEM. No one else. And in that moment, he couldn't help but break.
Without a word, Yingxing turned, his head tiredly falling against the dragon's shoulder as he began to let out those sobs. It was a lie. He knew that. One by one, they would all fade away. And who would be left? Ah... his pain will be the worst. Because when I'm gone... and they are gone... then he will be truly alone.
A soft whimper fell at the thought as his arms raised to return the embrace at last. "Please don't leave..." He murmured, his body finally feeling the exhaustion settling in now that he was here. He sighed. "Can you... take me home?"
He knew NOW. But it hadn't been something he had been in the know at the time. All he wanted to do was go to his friends, to his found family. He'd been so worried about them. The dragon felt his tail twitch in an irriated manner.
❝ Don't think for one second I won't throw you into the water, Blade. You're safe from my fangs only because there's a larger crisis. ❞
These people kept seeing Yinyue. And he wasn't Yinyue. No one outside of his Express family would see him for him. This was why he changed his appearance on the second ship when he had first gotten exiled so many years ago.
❝ And for the record, I didn't change my appearance so I could hide from you. I changed my appearance so I wouldn't look like HIM. ❞
He could already feel his blood beginning to boil the longer he stood there listening to the man's words. Disrespectful little... Still, somehow, he maintained his composure. His arms stayed crossed, but a small smirk did appear.
"Do it... if you think you must..." He tempted, staying completely still for the moment as if waiting for the dragon to act. He knew when to call bluffs. As he'd said, after all, he was safe because of the larger plan at play here. Still.... even Yingxing had known better than to test that resolve. Even if he was no longer his former self, the ferocity was still very much there. If Blade messed around too much, he really would be in for pain. Then again, it wasn't like it would do anything in the end.
"It doesn't matter much anymore, now does it? The truth has come to light in the end about who you are." He paused for a moment, a notion of curiosity taking him by surprise. "What are your plans from here?"
sobs. I'm so normal about him. my precious son.
He sees RED.
Dan Heng sees nothing except red from the blaring red lights of the alarm to the bleeding bodies on the floor, and the crimson stripes scattered throughout the ceiling. He shuts his eyes, controls his breathing, and regains focus on his center. A goal- he has a goal now: survive and if necessary, escape.
Opening his eyes, Dan Heng is determined as he checks the bodies for signs of life. He shakes his head finding that no one had survived. Unfortunately, the Anti-Matter Legion forces appearing do not give him time to grieve the fallen. Dan Heng grips Cloud-Piercer tightly before he leaps forward and swings his spear at the nearest foe.
Dodge. Stab. Side-Step. There!
Watching the last of his enemies disappear into nothingness, Dan Heng pulls his spear back. He pants softly and wipes the sweat dripping down his cheek. Normally, he wasn’t this out of breath after a fight, but something is very wrong here.
With every step he takes, the bracer on his wrist grows warmer to the point it became unbearingly hot.
But Dan Heng refuses to remove it from his person.
With every step he takes, the gut-wrenching feeling grows stronger- warning him to run away in the opposite direction.
But Dan Heng refuses to run away.
At the next corner, Dan Heng sees nothing but darkness.
He remembers that the alarms don’t reach this part of the ship. The sirens become distant, muted by the sound of steam hissing through broken pipes. The hairs on the back of his neck stand, beads of cold sweat forming on his skin. In total darkness, Dan Heng knows someone is here, and whoever it is…
A dot of red lights up in the darkness like a flickering candlelight. They’re dangerous, Dan Heng thinks as he slips into a defensive stance.
They're just as bound now as they've always have been. They both know it. They both FEEL it. The sensation of being so close to one another yet further than two people could be. It's not him. But it feels like him. There's a shred of rational thought that seems to creep up as he makes his way closer, following the taste of that familiar energy in the air.
"Is that you...?" He lets the question linger. It's not directed towards anyone near him. Not at the man he's chasing down, no, instead it's directed inwardly. He's calling towards that shred of sanity still clinging to him. The voice of rationality still nestled deep within. Yingxing...stop hiding now.
Suddenly he's distracted. Too distracted to keep pulling at those strings of his former self. He can feel how close he is to his target. That aura that settles around him is almost palpable. If he stood still for long enough, would it engulf him? Would the dragon within coil itself around that threatening body to protect its master?
"Let's find out... shall we?" His lips curl into a grin as he steps forward and lifts his sword. "Show yourself boy... I know you're here..."
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“ what am i supposed to do when i can’t even trust my own mind? ” “ i have to believe death is the end. because all that waits for me in the afterlife is a debt of sin i don’t think could ever be paid off. ” “ what do you see when you look into my eyes? ” “ it doesn’t always have to be you, you know? your shoulders aren’t the only ones that can bear the weight of the world. ” “ i don’t think hearts break. shattered things can only be broken once. but torn things can be mended again and again until it’s all scars and stitching. ” “ i can’t remember what it’s like to be truly wanted. ” “ every time you look at me i feel invisible. ” “ loneliness is a slow and cruel poison. ” “ i’m afraid that if i let you see every side of me, you should shrink back in fear or disgust. ” “ for once in your life, what is it that you want. ” “ i’ve been wrapped in my sorrow for so long, i’m afraid i’ll feel too cold without it. ” “ i just want to see you smile again. ” “ can’t you stop running for one second? ” “ i’ll be here. when you’re ready to talk. ” “ being strong doesn’t mean never asking for help or admitting you’re in pain. ” “ don’t shut me out. please. ” “ don’t look at me like that. ” “ the world isn’t made up of heroes and monsters. just broken people balancing between the two. ” “ i just wanted to do something good for once. ” “ why can’t you tell me what’s wrong? ” “ just trust me. please. ” “ why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of? ” “ you’re so worried about losing me/them you’re missing everything in front of you. ” “ i’m not leaving you. ” “ you’re not alone. i’m here. ” “ you see everyone so clearly except yourself. ” “ don’t you understand? i love you. and nothing you’ve done, no matter how much of a monster you think you are, is gonna change that. ” “ i find broken things interesting. maybe that’s why i like you so much. ” “ i want to be whatever it is you think i am. ” “ you see the good in everything. that’s why i like it when you look at me. ” “ i’ll still be here when you wake. ” “ i promise i’ll never hurt you again. ” “ as long as i have you, the rest doesn’t matter. ” “ what did they do to you? ” “ i’m not sure i should leave you alone. ” “ i won’t hate you. i know you think that’s what you deserve but it’s not. ” “ i want to love the parts of you that you hate. ” “ i’m scared of what you’re becoming. ” “ i’m sorry, i’m not what you think i am. ” “ you’ll always have a home with me. ” “ what happened to you? ” “ i thought i’d never see you again. ” “ you’re such a fucking coward. ” “ i envy anyone who has the privilege of being loved by you. ” “ you scared me. ” “ please, don’t ever give up on me. ” “ i’m not giving up on you. not ever. ” “ i know you love me. but it’s not the way i want to be loved. ”
Blade is 100% a cat person. I know the second he saw his little kitty version, the corner of his lips just curled a little and Silver Wolf knew he thought it was cute. But yes, please give this man a cat.
Give this a like if we had a thread before that you'd like me to continue !! I have some stuff in drafts and I want to gauge if I should continue on those or not. If you'd like me to drop previous threads and start something new, then feel free to tell me.
?????????? I was at 17 pity since Blade. I was not expecting this...
