I'm going Under

I'm known as the goddess of chaos, strife, and starting a war. You can call me Eris. Daughter to the king and queen of Olympus.

[magicatmidnight-deactivated2014]

"My family history is just as dodgy, Eris… for years while some have called me goddess others have called me titaness. It is not you I doubt, but what would happen if the wrong reaction came about." She brought Eris’ hands that covered her own to her lips and kissed them soft and delicate. "I know you would never abandon me, even if, gods forbid, we ever broke apart our friendship. We were bound through Salem and if that doesn’t prove your words… then our survival through this illness will."

[downpour-ofchaos]

Eris dramatically leaned over and made a show of sniffing Hecate's shoulder. "Mmm, you smell like a goddess. And is that a hint of lilac?" Eris knew she was strange. But more importantly, Hecate knew it as well. "We'll get through this, Cate. And honestly... there's no one else I'd rather have by my side during it." Eris leaned forward and captured Hecate's lips into a deep kiss. 

[downpour-ofchaos]

"Probably." Eris replied glumly. "Are you going to carry me?"

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"If I get turned into a pig or something by your beau, I’m never forgiving you." He teased before getting up, lifting Eris into his arms gently.

[downpour-ofchaos]

"She might." Eris said weakly. As soon as she was safely in Hermes' arms, she felt herself ease into unconsciousness. 

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"You should probably get back to bed then."

[downpour-ofchaos]

"Probably." Eris replied glumly. "Are you going to carry me?"

[magicatmidnight-deactivated2014]

"History tells me that I have a lot to fear of your family, especially your parents, Eri! You may be worth it, but part of me is still worried what’ll happen if I upset you."

[downpour-ofchaos]

"I know my family history is dodgy, Cate. But even if I were upset with you, I would never subject you to their wrath. And should they be angry with you, I'd never let them hurt you. Between you and I," Eris took her hands, smiling. "We're not a force to be reckoned with."

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"Cause having Athena being the world's biggest daddy's girl wasn't enough for him?" He teased before perking a brow, "... Emotionally or you physically can't feel anything?"

[downpour-ofchaos]

Eris sighed. "Both."

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"Eris, Eris, Eris… Your mother would have banished you ages ago if she didn’t love you. And you’re just giving me more proof that you’re loved. If she didn’t love you, or found your talents undesirable, you wouldn’t be here talking to me now. Don’t believe me, ask Heph, or Priapus. They can tell you just what happens when you’re not loved.

[downpour-ofchaos]

"Father wouldn't let her. He wanted another goddess of war on his side." Eris let out a soft hum, laughing again. "I can't feel anything."

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"No, no, no, no, no. Trust me from someone who knows all about tolerance, the way your family looks at you is with love. They tolerate me. Hell, they hate me more often than not, but put up with me cause I’m pretty necessary." He explained, smiling warmly at her, "You? You’re loved. Trust me on that. I’m psychic."

[downpour-ofchaos]

"If they truly love me... then there is no point trying for it anymore. The real issue would be me. Maybe I'm just too selfish to realize it? I'm not getting enough love? Who knows. I've always been the problem. Hephaestus may have been banished, but I know they hated keeping me. If they could, they'd have gotten rid of me. And never brought me back because unlike Heph, my talents are not desirable."

Eris knew she was being whiney, but at the moment she didn't care. Someone should know how she felt. She owed it to herself to be free of such a burden.

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"You? Come’on, dear Eris. You can’t really tell me you don’t think you’re loved. You’re part of the elitist family, and you’ve got Hecate. You’re very loved. Not to mention you’ve got awesome friends like me. And as for how I can be so sure- I’m psychic, duh."

[downpour-ofchaos]

"I never felt loved. Not by my mother, or my father. Not even by Ares. I still have a lot of doubts about all of them. It was like... I had to work for my love, and if I did something wrong, I lost it. And that's not love. That's tolerance. That's all they did... tolerate me. I was stupid to think my mother..." Eris trailed off, seemingly overwhelmed by what she was saying.

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"If you’re trying to say you deserve dying for being a bad person, then I could give you a very long list of people who deserve to go way before you." He nodded, poking her cheek playfully, "And trust me on this- you’re totally not gonna die."

[downpour-ofchaos]

"I just wanted to be loved." Eris said, her smile wavering. "How can you be sure?" she sounded more curious than anything.

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"Nope. You’re not dying, you’re just not healthy. You’ll be fine once Lee and Apoo figure out what’s wrong with you guys and cure you up. And if Hecate can help, we all know she’ll figure it out." He nodded, nudging her slightly, "If you wanna get back to bed, just lemme know."

[downpour-ofchaos]

"I denied it too... but there's no point anymore, denying it. I understand now why Nyx kept to herself. She didn't want anyone feeling this helpless over her. Watching her die. She did the right thing." Eris laughed softly, her eyes closed. "Perhaps my death will redeem me. I've been a shitty person, huh?"

[trickinabox-deactivated20140527]

"Nope. You’re right. Batman was shot by a giant alien. If you want, I can arrange for you to go out that way." Hermes teased, appearing next to her on the ground, "Need some help getting up, or do you wanna just lay down here staring up at the stars, Mrs. Hecate." He joked, grinning over at her playfully, fully aware of Eris’ relationship with Hecate.

[downpour-ofchaos]

Eris nodded, letting Hermes know that he was allowed to arrange that. "I can't move." Eris said blankly, smiling up at the sky. Mrs. Hecate. What a strange concept that was. She finally had the guts to tell Hecate how she felt. Now it was almost pointless. "I'm dying." she whispered to the sky. It was almost like she was just realizing it.

[downpour-ofchaos]

Eris hadn't meant to, but she found herself laying outside her house, the grass cold underneath her skin. She'd collapsed upon walking back, unable to carry her own weight. And after she'd fallen, Eris had just stayed there, her eyes partly closed. "This isn't how Batman dies." Eris muttered weakly to herself, a soft laugh escaping from her lips.

[downpour-ofchaos]

Chaos {Hera & Eris past para}

[hermajestyhera-deactivated20140]

Hera had never exactly had the best of examples as to what being a parents was to look like, and she was sure none of the parents she had ever known had to deal with this. She didn’t know what to do about this, and she couldn’t exactly go to Zeus with it, at least not right now. She was still furious with him, and she was certain he was angry with her as well.

The situation was beyond being salvageable, of that much she was sure, so she didn’t even bother trying to comfort Eris anymore. Nothing she said would comfort her, and truthfully, there was nothing she could think to say. Instead, she simply shook her head, at a loss for words as Eris backed away and then mumbled an apology. She couldn’t tell her not to be sorry, because well, this was something worth being sorry for. Glancing at the sky, though, she had her answer as to what to do, though she knew it wasn’t exactly a good one.

"Go to bed," she said softly. "We’ll figure out an alternative tomorrow." 

[downpour-ofchaos]

Without another word, Eris ran off. Instead of going to her room, she kept running. She'd done this before, so being in the middle of Olympus at night wasn't so fearful. It was less scary than her home. Eris found the small alcove of bushes in one of the gardens and crawled in. 

In the alcove were two things; a picture Eris had drawn of her family and a dagger stolen from her elder brother. She'd stay there tonight, maybe longer, until she could calm down. Surely her mother would forget the incident and not bring it up. They wouldn't notice her absence and then when she went back, maybe things could be normal for a little while. 

As chaotic as Eris was, she held more dearly onto one of the more positive traits she had. Hope. 

[downpour-ofchaos]

Chaos {Hera & Eris past para}

[hermajestyhera-deactivated20140]

She was about to send her daughter off to bed when the girl stood, wobbling as she did so. Again, she frowned, wondering if she ought to send her somewhere to get checked thoroughly, but then again, she was well enough to stand. She decided that she would keep an eye on Eris tomorrow and decide then.

All this was distracting, so she didn’t exactly catch what Eris said at first. She only heard the bit about practicing so she nodded simply, figuring that it was acceptable enough. What would be more than acceptable was the day she mastered her powers and got herself under control.

Then, she actually realized the rest of what she had said, and stared at her blankly, completely horrified. What sort of child… what sort of anybody did something like that? She was aware that their family was less than perfect and she hadn’t been the perfect parent, but in that moment, she couldn’t help but wonder what it was they had done so wrong, that Eris would do something like that. “Don’t do that again,” she said firmly making sure she had Eris’s attention as she said so. “Ever again. Find another way to practice.”

[downpour-ofchaos]

Eris didn't understand why her mother was looking at her like that. It sent fear-- pure fear-- throughout her body. She took a couple steps back. "But... but mother, I don't know how else! I don't want to ruin anything valuable."

She covered her face, tears stinging her eyes. No, she'd continue her practice. She'd do it without her mother's knowledge. Why had she said anything in the first place? Eris would just have to continue in privacy until she could show her mother just how good she was. 

A few more steps back and Eris was pressed against something hard. She didn't focus on it much, but it annoyed her that it was in her way. She wanted to disappear. She had to disappear. "I'm sorry." she whispered. Eris needed her mother to leave. She felt so sad, and scared, and she didn't want anything else happening. She couldn't handle seeing her mother angry-- not now. 

[downpour-ofchaos]

Chaos {Hera & Eris past para}

[hermajestyhera-deactivated20140]

She tried to smile as Eris ‘fixed’ the statue, but honestly, it wasn’t exactly an impressive attempt, not after all that she had seen created. She supposed it was an admirable attempt considering her age.

She said nothing as Eris spoke at first, eyes following all the cracks, wondering if the statue would even stay together. She would have someone come and fix it, or she would have it replaced. That was just a matter of course. Then, she nodded silently, her face neither approving nor disapproving, but instead completely neutral. “I see,” she commented softly.

[downpour-ofchaos]

Eris nodded at her mother's comment. She took things rather extremely, and she felt herself deflate. She'd never be good enough, but she'd still try. One day her mother would be proud of her. One day. 

The young goddess stood up, wobbling slightly before stabilizing herself. "I'll practice more." she promised, nodding her head, her blonde curls bouncing. "I won't break anything else. I practice on myself, so I don't make a mess. I'll control it." 

In her eyes, 'practicing' on herself was simply just an easy way to learn control. In reality, it was self-inflicting injuries of any sort, then trying to fix it. The scars left over on her skin didn't seem anywhere near as scary as the cracks she'd left in the statue. 

[asclepius-the-medicineman]

Yes. well perhaps I’ll tell him that you said so. 

*Lee nods glumly* If you wish, but by focusing on Mel, it will help you.  I will not let anyone die. I promise. 

[downpour-ofchaos]

"I've lived many more years than Melinoe. She deserves more time. And I know she's had it much worse. I'm doing... alright."

[downpour-ofchaos]

Chaos {Hera & Eris past para}

[hermajestyhera-deactivated20140]

She kissed the top of Eris’s head in a gesture of comfort, hoping to reassure her daughter. It wasn’t the first time she had questioned her choice as to what she had done with Hephaestus, but never had she questioned it more, not because she regretted her choice, but because she couldn’t tell Eris with complete confidence that she would never do something like that. “No, sweetheart. We won’t do that,” she said, reassuringly. 

She shook her head a bit, before she continued. ”You’ll have to,” she commented quietly. There wasn’t a lack of pity in her voice, but she couldn’t pretend that Eris the situation as it was, was okay. Eris would have to learn to control herself. There was no way around it. “I don’t think there’s any other option.”

[downpour-ofchaos]

"I'll fix it, mommy." Eris promised, shifting so that she could touch the statue. She wasn't aware of how weak she was, seeing how she was only a child and didn't quite know the limits or extent of her powers. She grabbed onto the statue and closed her eyes, whimpering in pain as she forced herself to forget about her chaos and fix the statue. Cracks were still visible, but it was decently intact. 

"I've been practicing." she said, trying to hide the cracks, afraid that her mother wouldn't be okay with the flaws. "I try to fix things... I've been working on it, mommy, see?"