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she changed like the moon, sometimes little more than a ghost, barely there a remnant of what she truly was, and sometimes, she shone so bright she took my breath away dazzling with a fervour unmatched.

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the bustling atmosphere and loud voices of the party had surrounded jade as she walked through the crowds of people and paparazzi that were stationed at every corner of the room. she had on her BRIGHTEST smile waving at the cameras, greeting everyone she knew and those she had just met. every now and then jade stood with important guests chit chatting away, still smiling and nodding her head even though she had lost the topic of conversation ages ago. she had never been a big party goer herself, preferring to be in the music room practicing or in her room reading, but the gala was an event that was special to her company and if spending a few extra hours in the noise made the people around her happy then she was glad to spend it. making her way through the crowd, jade swiped a tall glass from a passing waiter and took a small sip of the champagne, scrunching her face at the bitter taste of the alcohol. “this taste’s awful, how do people drink this stuff?” 

“  WELL, THEY HAVE NO CHOICE, IT’S THEIR ONLY CHANCE TO ENDURE... THIS.” she forced her lips to a smile, her hand resting on a table, slightly trembling. since the event had begun, the odd feeling as if someone was squeezing her lungs, trying to knock out her breath had accompanied her. her lids were heavy and her legs threatened to give in at any moment, causing her to take hold on anything that would prevent her from collapsing. and though the world was spinning and twisting her sight, she had no choice but to endure. the thought alone that someone would post another comment about her calling her lazy and selfish for not attending some event for already the forth time, rattled her bones with fear. this time everything had to be perfect  and she didn’t care if she would pass out after that, as long as she would get through the rest of the night “ but ” she stopped, squeezing her eyes shut and opening them again, to get rid off the blurriness before she continued speaking  “ you shouldn’t drink anyway. people are watching. ”

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AS ALWAYS i’m super late and i’m sorry ! idek how to begin this post so i will just introduce myself. my name is jessica but you can call me jessy or idk ? this precious peanut is doyeon, someone i will put through a lot stuff because i love angst and making my muses suffer. i’m still working on my plot and connection page, so for the moment i have nothing. but i’m always open for everything ( especially angst, someone please stop me) so throw some random idea at me and the chance is  99,99% that i’ll like it ! anyway please click this little heart button if you want to plot and i will annoy you in your ims. oh and under the cut you will find some stuff about doyeon. she’s a new muse so pls bear with me !!!

trigger warning: eating disorder

this is han doyeon, visual of aquarius and lowkey tired of this role

so since she was young she had dreamed of becoming a singer. she was that girl who’d always annoy her friends by forcing them to have a band etc.

so when she was discovered by someone from galaxy entertainment she was over the moon, however when she auditioned the company wanted her to become a model and ofc she didn’t want it. still, she agreed to become a model ( for a little while) because her family was struggling financially and she needed money.

so she did some modelling for some time but she convinced the company ( after like 100 attempts) to train her to become an idol and her vocal skills. she wanted to be known for her talent and not just for her looks.

yet the company decided to make her the visual of the group and again she was only limited to her looks. she wouldn’t have been that bothered but she also got like only one line at every song and was always told to act “pretty” and stuff. (she didn’t)

the thing about doyeon’s personality is that she is kind of an open book and her feelings are very obvious when you look at her. so after growing tired of puting on that act, fans noticed that doyeon always looked bored on varitey shows etc. and soon people began attacking her for her “bad attitude”

doyeon is also like the biggest perfectionist you will encounter and she gets hurt very easily. and even if she had been an idol for already 3 years she still can’t handle reading mean comments about her.

at first she was attacked for her “attitude problems”” but soon people would criticise her for her looks etc, of course she could’ve ignored it but we’re talking about han doyeon so she started starving herself to the point where she would collapse and right now she’s still struggling with her mental health, constantly trying to be more perfect.

personality-wise doyeon is very soft-hearted and always wishes the best for people, she’s a little bit of a people pleaser and always tries to impress her family to that extend that she pushes herself too much. she gets easily bored of things and as mentioned before you can see it if she’s annoyed. also she loves art and somehow uses it as a kind of therapy and to calm down. she likes watching people and getting inspired by them therefore she might be that weird person who is constantly creeping people out by staring at them, although she is just needing some inspiration.and idk what else to say i’m still trying to figure her out !!!

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—  * ☾ ·˚  we are dead stars; looking back up at the sky ┊MUSINGS, —  * ☾ ·˚ girl as a honeycomb; sickly sweet; riddled with empty space┊INTERACTIONS, —  * ☾ ·˚  she would have swallowed the sun to make you warm enough ┊MEMES, —  * ☾ ·˚ the heavy smell of flower petals stroked the walls of my lungs ┊MIRROR, —  * ☾ ·˚ there was always something deadly lurking in anything I wanted; anything I loved ┊OOC, —  * ☾ ·˚ and I crave the balm of beautiful and soft things ┊TEXT, —  * ☾ ·˚ she is a daydreamer and a night thinker ┊ANSWERED, —  * ☾ ·˚ you were born with a knife in your heart ┊CLOSET,

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