the sun, the stars, and us

Park HyeJin. 20. Singer. Aquarius. Galaxy Entertainment. as the last rays of sun slipped away you told me i was iridescent...

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💬 iMESSAGE ⇄ open.

cj: to answer ur question: no

cj: i know this text back is about.. 2 weeks late, but all that matters is that i actually texted back, right? and that i'm still alive!! ..right??

jade: why not?

jade: wait, what were we talking about again? unnie you should really start answering your texts

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jade shook her head, smiling at the innocence of her friend. although both her and kimi belonged to one of the more older groups at galaxy, there were still lot of things about korea’s society that kimi had to learn. jade understood that one mistake can turn a once beloved idol into public enemy. and that was the last thing jade wanted for her friend, or any of her label mates. “ending up on the front cover of dispatch drunk, especially after a big party like this, could get you in big trouble. believe me, it’s better to stay away from any scandals.” jade hadn’t meant to sound so serious, but after living in korean society for so long she knew how terrifying the public can be. “but…” jade said with a smile, “since this is a party, and you can’t party without a drink, know that i’ll totally have your back if you decide that you want to get wasted.” 

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starllight:

“i would be a mess if i got drunk,” she giggles with a shake of her head. “i mean, people think i’m a little eccentric now, it’s nothing compared to when i drink. i got drunk once and i still very much regret it. i kept talking to the wall and telling it i was in love with it! i know my fans love my quirky side, but that might be pushing it, right?”

jade laughed, recalling her own memories of seeing her friends drunk. “maybe just a little, but you never know with some fans. they could be into that.” she joked, slightly nudging her on the shoulders.  “i know i would love to see it.” 

[pkxhj]

jade was E X H A U S T E D. after spending hours of smiling and chit chatting with guests and the press, all jade wanted to do was to go home. normally, jade wouldn’t have minded the party. in fact she was one of the few people who actually enjoyed attending the company gala, but this year... she just wasn’t feeling it. maybe it was the rambunctious atmosphere that surrounded the party or maybe it was the fact that aquarius’ comeback was coming out soon and jade was still s t r u g g l e i n g with the dance, but whatever it was jade just couldn’t seem to bring herself to have fun - nor did she try to convince herself to. it wasn’t like she was trying to be a party pooper, she just had a lot of things on her mind. her group’s comeback being one of those things. jade was not the greatest dancer, she often got by on the choreography because they were easy to follow, but this time jade was struggling... even more than she usually does. but, she knew that complaining and worrying wouldn’t help her with her problem. she just wished that this party could E N D already so that she could get back to the studio and practice. taking a sip of her water, jade tried to keep her smile from faltering. the last thing she needed was the press taking a bad picture of her and then seeing articles about her the next morning. “ughhh.” she groaned. this was the one thing jade HATED about being an idol. she was never free to express herself. what am i going to do? she thought, returning to her problem. then suddenly, like a lightbulb in her head, she remembered minjun. he was a friend, and was also one of the best dancers in the company. without a second thought, jade moved across the room and walked up beside him. “i need a favour.” @amovrcux

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I wish I could see that. 

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ofckimiko:

kimiko giggles as she leans on her best friend, cheeks slightly pink from the amount of champagne that she has had tonight. she’s probably close to her limit for the night, but she trusts jade to take care of her if need be. “jaaaaade, you don’t like alcohol?” she pouts, taking another sip form her flute of champagne. “it always gives me the giggles and makes me feel really light and bouncy!” she giggles again, stumbling slightly in her tall heels. she’s a short girl, so the company nearly always tells her to wear heels when she goes out. tonight is no exception, the five inch stilettos making the japanese girl’s legs stand out against her stark black dress. “maybe you need a mixer?”

jade slightly stumbled as she felt the weight of her best friend’s body leaning on her. she could smell the alcohol on her breath and jade had to stop herself from laughing too hard. she loved kimi, really, she was her best friend and they did almost everything together, including debuting in the same group together. but they were the exact opposites when it came to socializing. “no thanks, i’m good i don’t need a mixer. but you...” jade reached out her hand, smiling, as she tried to take the champagne glass out of the girl’s hand, “should probably slow down with these before you end up on the cover of dispatch tomorrow morning.” 

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starllight:

star looked over at the other, happy she was able to run into another happy soul. of course, a quick burst of laughter comes to play as the bitter alcohol quickly laces the other’s tastebuds. “you’re guess is as good as mine. i think it’s mostly for looks, maybe?” she takes the glass from the other to take a quick sip, the same scrunching of her face showcasing before handing it back to the girl. “yes, definitely for looks only.” 

jade let out a laugh as she watched friend’s face scrunch at the taste of the alcohol. she was never a big fan herself anyways, but jade was glad to know that she wasn’t the only one. “oh it’s definitely only for the looks and to get drunk, because there is no way someone could actually enjoy drinking this for the taste.” 

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ofyura:

she’d been trailing jade for some time now. yura was never one for parties - they were loud, crowded, and uncomfortable. she didn’t think she could ever get used to going to them, much preferring to opt for the comfort of her room, but this one was deemed mandatory by the company. go figure. knowing full well that this wasn’t jade’s scene at all - nor was it yura’s, to be honest , she was awed at how well her friend was handling it. she laughed at the other’s reaction, bringing her own glass up to her lips. “people don’t really drink for the taste. and anyone who says they do is lying. want me to get some water for you instead?”

“yes please. that would be greatly appreciated.” jade said, smiling at her friend. she had never seen the appeal of alcohol, even if it was just to get drunk. she never understood why anybody would want to do that, but then again she had never much experience with it anyways. jade had always been too busy either working, practicing or studying to do those kinds of things. unlike most trainees who had at least some sort of income to help pay for their lessons, jade had to work part time jobs just to get by. it wasn’t easy and there were days where she wished that her family were richer, but more than anything jade was glad to have experience that kind of struggle. it’s what got her to where she is and if it weren’t for that hardship in her life, she probably wouldn’t have met yura or became great friends with her. and that, to jade, was something she could never imagine. she was grateful for her, in more ways than one. “oh i’m sure they don’t, considering this taste’s awful and yet more than half the people at this party are already drunk.” she paused, thinking for a moment, a sly smile suddenly appearing on her lips, “but you know i hear tequila and vodka are good, you think i should give those a try?” 

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jfckai:

Kai may have sprouted up over the last few years to look more like an adult, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t still a bit of a child at heart, and when it came to things like this he was especially l o s t.  He glanced at the other when she approached and let out a relieved sigh. “Yes please, I don’t know what I’m doing.” 

jade let out a small giggle and took the bow tie in his hands. she had enough experience with some of her friends at galaxy to know that bow ties were not the most comfortable things to wear, so knowing how to retie them was a job she had learned how to do. but knowing how to tie them and doing it well... those were two completely different things. “just so you know, this might actually come out a lot uglier than it was before.” 

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ofchana:

      by this time of the night, she would have had her fill of conversation already. she should have been able to find at least one person who she could exchange meaningful words with—but no. no such luck tonight. oh, well. she shouldn’t be surprised, really, she thinks to herself as a cynical scoff emits from her lips. ready to move towards the bathroom in what may be the hundredth time in the span of an hour, her ears catch onto the passing words of a girl behind her. “ simply. quietly. ” haneul emphasizes the last word, turning to give the other a glare over her shoulder, although stopping when she realizes the identity of the voice. “ oh ! jade. ” her body twists around fully now, her plain expression softening just the slightest, practically undetectable to the untrained eye. but she knew jade would understand. “ you’ve never… drank before ? ” her voice tilts upward, a weak attempt to lighten the snarkiness of her past words.

jade had been lost in her thoughts when she heard the voice speak to her. the L O U D music and chit chatter that surrounded her had pretty much blocked anything else from being heard and jade was slightly taken aback. quickly looking up from her drink, a sudden smile formed on her lips as she recognized the familiar face. “unnie!” despite feeling a little embarrassed at being caught, jade was more than happy to see her. “no i’ve... never really tried it before.” jade sheepishly admitted.

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ofwooz:

it wasn’t a panic attack. he knew that much. he’d experienced that all too much when he was younger. but for a fleeting moment he wished it was, at least he knew how to handle that. the presence in the room didn’t help matters —– instead of seeing who it was, he simply focused on their shoes. strappy, obviously that of a small lady, with how teetering the hell was, to him anyway. “stop apologising. i hate sorry. why are you here anyway?”

“I’m sor --” jade stopped herself before letting out another apology. “i didn’t mean to -- i mean i was just --” she stuttered. jade didn’t know why she was having such a hard time trying to explain herself. it wasn’t like he was someone to be scared of. taking a few breaths, jade composed herself before she said, “what i was trying to say was that i came here because i needed some air... but i guess someone already beat me to it.” muttering the last part. knowing that she was probably going to get kicked out soon, jade let herself inside the room, uninvited, and casually leaned against the wall. she only needed a few minutes anyways to catch her breath and c o m p o s e herself before heading back out to the party. “so...” she started, curiosity getting the better of her, “why are you here?”  

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doycon:

“  WELL, THEY HAVE NO CHOICE, IT’S THEIR ONLY CHANCE TO ENDURE… THIS.” she forced her lips to a smile, her hand resting on a table, slightly trembling. since the event had begun, the odd feeling as if someone was squeezing her lungs, trying to knock out her breath had accompanied her. her lids were heavy and her legs threatened to give in at any moment, causing her to take hold on anything that would prevent her from collapsing. and though the world was spinning and twisting her sight, she had no choice but to endure. the thought alone that someone would post another comment about her calling her lazy and selfish for not attending some event for already the forth time, rattled her bones with fear. this time everything had to be perfect  and she didn’t care if she would pass out after that, as long as she would get through the rest of the night “ but ” she stopped, squeezing her eyes shut and opening them again, to get rid off the blurriness before she continued speaking  “ you shouldn’t drink anyway. people are watching. ”

"they're always watching.” jade exclaimed, turning to face the girl beside her and smiling at the familiar face. jade isn’t really one to complain. for the most part, she had enjoyed the gala. and while it was T I R I N G to always be smiling and chit chatting, jade knew that she couldn’t complain. it was part of her job and the sooner she came into terms of her position and what it entailed, the quicker she learned how to handle herself. she didn’t have to like it (and she really didn’t) but she did have to learn how endure it. and learn she did. after years of going to events and parties and posing for pictures for the press jade had formed a routine and stuck by it. walking over towards the table jade set her glass down, “but what can we do?” she shrugged. it’s not like they had much of a CHOICE anyways. she took a glance at doyeon, suddenly frowning in concern. jade placed her hand on the girls shoulder,  “hey are you feeling alright?” 

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jvnsoos:

“that’s exactly why i don’t drink it.” jinsoo couldn’t help but laugh at the look on the girl’s face, looking down at his own glass of champagne. “i mostly just carry this around for decoration. just so people won’t think i’m uptight or anything. and when no one’s looking, i just casually pour a little bit into one of the potted plants that’s littering this place. you should try it, trust me. no one will ever know, and it won’t hurt the plants. i’ve been doing it for years.” ever since he had come of age and had been allowed to drink, he’d been doing that. it was easier for him, and he preferred not to drink. not only did he not like the taste, he didn’t like the affect that alcohol had on his body. 

jade had never been the type of person to drink either. she didn’t like the b i t t e r taste and she saw enough of her friends drunk that she never wanted to try it. but something about this gala and the way that she felt the E Y E S of the cameras and people follow her whenever she moved, compelled her to pick up the tall glass, but now she was seriously REGRETTING it.  “good to know.” she said, turning towards the voice. jade looked at him curiously, a small smile plastered on her lips. “i guess i’ll have to try that one tonight.” 

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ofwooz:

HE WAS MEANT TO BE GOOD AT THIS, or at least, that’s what he’d convinced himself of over the years. he’d played along all too many times, smiled at the right people, and avoided the ones to steer clear of. and yet, he finds his breathing laboured and in dire need of a quick moment alone. he hadn’t meant to leave mid conversation, nor had he meant to be rude about it, but feet carried him off all too quickly, so much so that he didn’t get a chance to excuse himself properly. nestled in a small room a corridor down from the main room of the gala, perched upon a box, crown of auburn hair between his hands, all wooseok needed was quiet. the door handle clicking, foot steps nearing, he doesn’t dare to glance at whomever it might be. “can’t you see this room is occupied? just… leave.”

jade felt like she was SUFFOCATING. the smell of perfume, sweat and alcohol all mixed together and covered the room and jade felt as if she couldn’t b r e a t h e. she was pretty much done with the night anyways. all she WANTED to do was sit somewhere quiet with no cameras flashing in her face, or someone trying to randomly talk to her about something she had no interest in whatsoever. normally, jade would’ve been fine. she knew how to handle herself and usually didn’t mind the crowds and the cameras but tonight, she just wasn’t feeling it. she needed to find a way O U T and before she knew it her feet were moving. walking down the corridor jade made her way towards a small room, not realizing the room had already been occupied. “i’m sorry. i’m sorry.” 

[pkxhj]

the bustling atmosphere and loud voices of the party had surrounded jade as she walked through the crowds of people and paparazzi that were stationed at every corner of the room. she had on her BRIGHTEST smile waving at the cameras, greeting everyone she knew and those she had just met. every now and then jade stood with important guests chit chatting away, still smiling and nodding her head even though she had lost the topic of conversation ages ago. she had never been a big party goer herself, preferring to be in the music room practicing or in her room reading, but the gala was an event that was special to her company and if spending a few extra hours in the noise made the people around her happy then she was glad to spend it. making her way through the crowd, jade swiped a tall glass from a passing waiter and took a small sip of the champagne, scrunching her face at the bitter taste of the alcohol. “this taste’s awful, how do people drink this stuff?”