Hey hi cool, I'm gonna pop back into hiatus right after this, but I just
I'm so so tired of being ghosted. So fucking tired. It happens to me so often that the only conclusion I can come to is that I MUST have done something wrong. What else could it be, it's not like they told me why?
Was I too much? Too little? Is it because I'm autistic and weird? Did you find "better" people?
I just
I've never gotten closure. Not once. No explanation, no apology, not a word. And if there is even a WHIFF of communication, it's always some vague non-explanation that just leaves me more confused and hurt.
I feel so isolated as it is. I'm so sick and exhausted, interacting takes so much energy, but damnit I try, yknow?
But every time this happens, more and more, I'm led to feel like maybe I'm just that impossible to deal with.
It hurts even more when you were so loyal to them, remembered their birthdays and were there for them when they were down, and then they throw it back in your face like you were just some kind of emotional sugar daddy.
I'm so tired. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know why I try.
Please, tell me what I did wrong.

















