watching Pursuit of Jade has been...i don't know what word to use to describe it. i want to say "cathartic" but I'm not sure if I would be using the word properly if I say that lol.
when I made that post after finishing watching Pursuit of Jade, I said it's been a really long time since I liked an OST so much I searched it up before I finished watching the drama. I said something to a similar effect after watching The Legend of Shen Li. I said that it has one of the best cdrama albums I've heard in a while.
but the truth is...the only thing that hasn't been happening in a while (read: years) is me watching cdramas lol. my drama-watching hobby in general has fallen off. it fell off a couple years ago. i have slowly started to pick it up again in the past year or two but i have mainly been watching kdramas. and while i do enjoy kdramas i think cdramas, they kind of have a bigger piece of my heart. and when i say cdrama, i mean guzhuangs, specifically. and i haven't been watching much of it in recent years.
i think the whole thing just started to fall off midway through 2021. from 2022 up til 2025 i watched a total of 7 guzhuangs (10 cdramas). which is an average of about 1.75 guzhuangs (2.5 cdramas) per year lol. maybe these numbers are not too bad? i don't know actually, but compared to my stats from previous years, it's kinda a drastic fall. or at least a noticeable decline.
and you know, so much has changed in these past couple of years that i haven't been watching cdramas. for one, the episode counts have dropped. A LOT. and i used to complain about how the plots are so draggy with way more episodes than they need. but now i kinda miss the large number of episodes lol. it really feels like things changed up while i was gone. but also all this is making me feel like maybe I don't know cdramas as much I think i do. because i was active for almost as long as or slightly lesser amount of time i've been inactive? i don't even know what to think anymore.
binge-ing PoJ took me right back to the good old days. Especially since the last time i remember binge watching like that was when i was watching The Story of Ming Lan, which, if you follow this blog, you will know is basically my no. 1 all time favourite drama ever. and that was like 7 years ago?? finishing PoJ really put me back into the mood of wanting to watch more guzhuangs. and I have since started another one.
i have really become out of touch with the drama world. when i talk to my friends about dramas, i basically have zero idea who or what they are talking about. even names of actors and actresses, i have no idea who they are. in the c-drama world i'm kind of still stuck at the Yang Mi, Yang Yang, Dilraba, Luo Yun Xi etc. phase even though so many more new names have popped up and come to the forefront since then. and even though i have been watching more korean dramas, i still am unfamiliar with the names of korean actors and actresses too. literally not a single name comes to mind. not even the popular ones.
even though i run a drama blog, i don't actually follow a single other drama blog on tumblr lol. at least not before. i only followed one or two blogs that posted icons of kdrama characters. but even those blogs have gone inactive. and so because of that i was even more isolated from the drama world, became even more out of touch with it lol. i don't really know what's going on.
i don't really know why i'm writing all of this on here. i try not to get personal on here. but trying to reclaim this part of my life, my world, is a work in progress. i think it didn't help that before my drama-watching tanked completely, i was already taking a break from guzhuangs because the last few i watched were just so horribly bad i couldn't take it anymore lol. but yeah, then life happened and it just kinda stopped completely. i know saying i binged 10 episodes a day just sounds like i'm wasting my time lol but i don't know, i just missed that. i think i deserve that. after years of not doing that lol.
