I’ve been waffling between submitting this and not, and now Survival’s here so my irritation has caused me to waffle over the line and post it.
Several months ago I was given a warning for a topic I made on the forums. The punishment was the warning and that my thread was entirely deleted. I made a Ticket to inquire about the validity of the punishment (please no side-lining of what the topic was about and whether or not I deserved it, kthx, because I’ll have to argue that I didn’t, and this will just get really side-tracked) and was rebuked. Then Keith took over and added another punishment:
“… your forum privileges have been revoked by me.”
I asked for how long, because the tone sure sounded like forever. Reply:
“It’s forever. You’ve broken our community guidelines enough times on and off-site that we just aren’t interested in having you communicate with other users.”
Keywords to note here: “and off-site.”
Considering that before this I had exactly one warning (for a PM I sent clumsily attempting to befriend someone, you may remember that debacle but if not again pls no side-line thx), then having only two warnings - and only ONE of them on the forums - really do not equate to having broken community guidelines “enough times” to merit a forever forum ban. So obviously really what he’s saying is that he reads the Subeta Speaks blog and that’s entirely what he’s punishing me for. Off-site behavior. Entirely.
So, apart from the brief lapse-in-judgment I made above to get that second warning, I don’t post on the Subeta Forums. The only thing I do there is gift-a-person-above threads, because I know my tendency to get in arguments and get banned. Thus I limited to venting my frustrations here (something I would have never done at all if someone hadn’t attempted to humiliate me here in the first place) and don’t even visit the Subeta forums if I can help it. I’ve tried to follow Subeta rules rigidly since my first unfair warning and, well… the punishment came anyway.
I found this odd, really, because Keith has always held himself carefully aloof from this blog and never joined in on any side of the crap that comes out of this blog. You know he reads it, and yet he’s never once commented on any argument, nor any post of mine or about me, as if he values his objectivity and keeps himself above this blog on purpose, recognizing himself as an authority figure who should do just that. Realizing he was objective was what made me give away my Subeta name when asked, because I knew nothing would come of linking the two accounts. And yet… here’s the opposite. Here’s him admitting that it’s my off-site behavior that’s gotten me punished.
Unexpected. But still, thinking I might have a chance appealing to that objectivity, I wrote a big long thing on the Ticket saying that if Keith was going to take my actions on other sites into consideration while allowing me Subeta privileges, then perhaps he should consider other factors.
I… well, I’m not gonna post it here. It’s super-long and quite possibly boring, but the essence is that in general I am a good friend and I help people. (Well, people and animals. Mostly animals.) Yes, I argue on Tumblr, but I’m not friggin’ Stalin, is the point of my big long thingamajig. If you want to punish me simply for being a bad person, consider that I’m not. That was the argument.
I received no reply and that was the end of that, I guess. So I’ve lost forum privileges forever for getting in arguments on a site that has no affiliation with Subeta. Sigh.
Of course, many of you hate me and are probably happy to see me punished for something that has no relation to what I’ve done to piss you off, simply for the sake of that sweet, sweet justice. But even you must agree, in your heart of hearts, that this is unrelated and thus not justice. If I cursed out a priest, would it be right that the power company shut off my lights because they witnessed it? I don’t think so.
So while I don’t expect a leaflet campaign or a boycott of CSC purchasing until my Forum privileges are reinstated, I hope we can all at least agree that this is unfair, because unfairness sticks in my craw. Banning from this Tumblr or all Tumblrs for arguments I’ve had here? Fine. But from Subeta? Oooh it grinds my gears, unfairness does, even when it happens to enemies that I want to see suffer.
Anyway, the purpose of this post is twofold:
One: To complain. Survival is upon us, and being banned from the forums means I cannot participate. I have a nice cache of candy hearts, luckily, but this still annoys me because they are finite and I may not be so lucky in the next event to have a store of currency from last year. I want to complain and I am complaining. Boooo waaah!!
Two: A warning to the rest of you. I used to look upon anonymous posters, who post anonymously things like “Fuck Keith and his stupid staff they suck” as, well, a bunch of pathetic cowards. Who cares if you’re criticizing the staff, it’s not a Subeta site so just do it outright you jackwagons! Now that I myself have suffered on Subeta for what I’ve done here, well I guess what I’m saying is… holy shit they were right. The paranoid cowards were right!! GOD SAVE US ALL.
And taking that into account, I’m a little concerned I might be outright frozen for this post. It’s not breaking any rules, but, well… you see how little that matters. <.<
I’m also feeling really fucking sick and anxious posting this, and losing the resolve even as I type, because while as usual I expect it to go over so that people see my side and sympathize I’m starting to imagine that all I’m going to get is a slew of “suits-you-right"s. Oh jesus fuck what am I doing, don’t click Submit…