* GORE / DRAWN

ind. & sel. horror oc / triggering themes present / written by gabbi.

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I know I’ve been super dead but I’m all out of muse atm :( however, I was wondering if anyone here is good with iconing/screencapping who could maybe help me icon this specific kdrama?? pretty pls??

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I know I’ve been super dead but I’m all out of muse atm :( however, I was wondering if anyone here is good with iconing/screencapping who could maybe help me icon this specific kdrama?? pretty pls??

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PLOTTED STARTER: @mvrdergoth​

Julian wasn’t trying to be nosy, hadn’t exactly intended on catching a glimpse of the girl’s art. But what he did see had impressed him. It was similar to the subjects he often liked to draw and her style was interesting to him. He isn’t exactly an expert in the art of striking up conversation, but still he tries. Because if anything can make Julian come out of his shell even a little bit, it’s art. He clears his throat, leans ever so slightly. ❝Hey, so not to be weird---but I really like what you’re working on.❞

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I’m gonna name julian’s best friend who gets murdered in his bio owen ! ✌️

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I changed my mind, I’m going with caleb now so pls disregard the other name in the one (1) thread I’ve officially mentioned him in ! 

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HEADCANON. ( more like the mun’s rambling )

One thing to know about Julian is that he is actually kind of a soft person. At times Julian can come off colder and meaner than he maybe means to, he isn’t very sociable and hasn’t had many people he’s close with. He tends to keep people at arms length because he’s always sort of preferred to be alone. 

But as time goes on he starts to feel more and more lonely, because now the isolation he’s built for himself has become even more of a fortress than ever. Because now he fears that no one will care about him or want to be around him when they learn of what goes on inside his mind.

On the outside Julian may appear dark and brooding, or even intimidating to some degree. But in reality he’s just a sad boy, with a shit ton of anxiety and self loathing. 

He leans towards being quieter and more soft spoken, with his downfall often being his bluntness and lack of filter. When he does get to know someone and becomes close with them, he tends to become more playful and open. His humor is a bit dry and morbid at times but Julian is a genuinely NICE and kind person. Whether or not he is always a GOOD person is something he often struggles with. But he tries, he really does.

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beth from scream: resurrection – controlled by brooke. est. july 2019

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PLOTTED STARTER: @revenantmercy​ !

GROUP THERAPY. A suggestion courtesy of Julian’s parents. And not one he’d ever really considered. He didn’t want to open up, scared that someone---anyone might see him for what he was. Or rather, what he was AFRAID he was. 

His parents had seen a lot of his artwork, had always smiled through their questions and concerns. The breaking point seemed to be when his father found drawings of Owen in Julian’s apartment. Particularly the ones Julian had drawn after his nightmares, dreams where his mind seemed intent on replaying that night over. Sometimes it got so bad that drawing what he had seen was the only way to get it out of his head. Drawing his friend’s death.

His parents insisted, practically BEGGED for him to see someone. To get help. This somehow came to be the only compromise, Julian simply didn’t want them to worry anymore.

He’s sitting awkwardly across from a stranger, during a lunch break from the sessions. He’s good at silence and she seemed nice enough, but it still felt awkward. And with his nerves getting the better of him---as well as his lack of a filter, he finds himself breaking the silence. ❝So,❞ he starts, ❝what made you decide to come? ❞ It couldn’t hurt to ask, right? 

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I’m gonna name julian’s best friend who gets murdered in his bio owen ! ✌️

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@saewooboiis is trying to make me have an emotional breakdown by spamming with young k on discord.........and it’s working jkldsfgh

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@saewooboiis said: ‵ you are such a soft and messy thing. nobody knows how to take care of you. ′ (jaebin)

❝---I don’t need to be taken care of,❞ he says, even says it like he believes it. He’s always been good at being alone, even if the ache of loneliness crept in from time to time. It was simply easier than opening up, than letting the darkness bleed through. He was soft and messy, but most of all he was BROKEN. ❝You say these things like you REALLY know me, you don’t know me.❞  

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* – starter for gabbi.

❝ okay, i might actually be impressed. honestly, i didn’t think you had it in you. ❞

❝ but – don’t take that the wrong way. we’re still not friends,  ❞ she spoke as her darken eyes examined the bloodstained figure positioned in front of the pair. ❝ – this was strictly for educational purposes. sometimes the best way to know how something works, is to just try it for yourself. ❞

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He’s scared. Giving into the thoughts that had eaten at him for so long had felt GOOD. However, that did little to stop the pang of guilt building in his chest. He sees the blood on his hands and he almost feels sick, feels his throat tighten. ❝Oh god. I---I shouldn’t have done that.❞ He looks at her, looks at the bloodied body; he’s become the monster he’d always feared he would. ❝I fucked up, shit---I just royally fucked up.❞

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I’m torn cuz I want a new oc but like---do I want a sweet, soft gal or an assholish guy??

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OPEN: anyone / any gender ! PLOT: basically Julian has a big ol crush and just wants some of that sweet, sweet intimacy ( though probably not sexual. )

❝—Kiss me,❞ he can feel the other’s breath fanning his face, can feel his heart aching in his chest. He wants to feel something other than lonely, wants to feel close to someone; close to them. Right now they look beautiful and he feels as though maybe, just maybe—he could finally let someone in for the first time in years. ❝Please? ❞

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@drawsgore liked for a starter from frank.

“Is that supposed to be me?” More specifically them, The Legion. It’s amusing really, a hand touches Julian’s shoulder gently before he ruffles the other’s hair. “You know I’m shorter than that right?”

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Julian shrugs, ❝it’s just a rough sketch,❞ he says. And he desperately hopes that Frank doesn’t notice the way his cheeks are now heating up, mildly embarrassed and just a tad bit flustered. ❝Why? Did you wanna pose next time for accuracy? ❞ The words are paired with a grin, ❝then you could hang it on your wall, like a royal portrait or whatever.❞   

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OPEN: anyone / any gender ! PLOT: basically Julian has a big ol crush and just wants some of that sweet, sweet intimacy ( though probably not sexual. )

❝---Kiss me,❞ he can feel the other’s breath fanning his face, can feel his heart aching in his chest. He wants to feel something other than lonely, wants to feel close to someone; close to them. Right now they look beautiful and he feels as though maybe, just maybe---he could finally let someone in for the first time in years. ❝Please? ❞

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hc + blood

headcanon + blood:

Julian really likes blood, it’s simply interesting to him. A lot of things he draws/paints tend to be very bloody and gory. He likes the way it looks, it’s a morbid fascination---but one he can’t really help himself with. Whenever he does have his more violent thoughts or even borderline ‘fantasies’, it usually involves a lot of blood.