it’s lowkey rlly lazy but inneed to get back into my editing grind somehow BUT since it’s summer i will hopefully lock back in and reread gone again !!! yippeeeee
GUYS GIRL!SAM LESBIAN SASTRID FIC i couldn’t be happier about finding this i need to catch up on my rereading so i can write my own eventually if you see this wordsurge you are my hero
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
maybe this will be her in my au where the FAYZ never happens and they grow up to be adults... This is the style I assigned her in my head, very 2000s, iconic, a bit emo.
i’ve pretty much decided that most of why drake is the way he is is because of his stepfather. (tw rant, talks of abuse although cmon, this is drake we’re talking about.)
its more than alluded to that the man was abusive and as a victim of childhood abuse myself, i know personally the psychological damage trauma such as parental abuse can do to a child. i’ve kind of come to the conclusion that drake’s sadism is a mix of trauma mirroring, a trauma response and a fascination with pain all stemming from the same perpetrator.
he’s been abused by somebody who’s meant to be in a parental guidance figure role and that person did nothing but hurt him, likely confusing his developing brain into correlating affection and violence, and it seems his mother didn’t do much to stop it, likely being a victim herself, maybe even worse than drake is. his father was either not in the picture or only in the picture somewhat, as his parents were divorced and his father died at some point before the fayz.
he’s likely correlated being touched in any way to violence in the same way i did (actually likely the same way caine did as well, having a lack of warmth or affection leading to him becoming overly cold but that’s an analysis for another day) which causes him to 1) revere any kind of physical touching himself and 2) not know how to physically touch other people in a way that isn’t violent. children are very sensitive to matters like this and remember EVERYTHING, so being abused by someone that he’s told is supposed to love him is what caused him to confuse the two, not knowing the difference and deciding it’s the same thing.
there’s also a chance that his stepfather is responsible for the way he views women, as using context clues we can assume his mother is likely also a victim and men who beat women don’t tend to respect them very much, leading to him instilling those same values into drake. there’s a high likelihood that he’s given him a false sense of masculinity that is easily threatened and hinges on the violence he’s taught him, which we’ve seen people like diana and astrid threaten simply by being non submissive women that exist as their own entities and question the men around them, something drake has likely been taught is wrong.
he’s conflated any kind of positive emotion as weak which would lead said emotions to be tinged with anger and violence, which probably also led to the way he acts around people he actually likes, but i digress.
he doesn’t want to be put back in a position where he’s the one being hurt, so he perpetuates that violence onto others before anyone can do it to him. this mixed w the fascination for pain he already has which is likely ALSO a result of said trauma, its created a dangerous concoction of trauma and anger issues, which left untreated for a certain period of time caused him to lash out and for his mental state to deteriorate over time. this coupled w the gaiaphage’s involvement is what left him incredibly unstable.
if someone had intervened MUCH earlier, there’s a possibly that drake could have actually been saved.
Diana Ladris Chibi!! she is perhaps one of my favorite characters, I'm always curious what will she is up to next, she's so sneaky. Anyways, this is her pre FAYZ, I wanted her to keep her mischievous, taunting persona before all the trauma lol. I am looking forward to making keychains out of these designs so be on the lookout for those soon!
This is just my little headcanon to be honest, I know my design may go against Grant's physical description of Drake, for example, the fact that his hair is short and ''sandy colored'', but does anyone else feel like long haired Drake just resonates? that and with a dirty blonde shade rather than light blonde. I also just picture him having moles/ freckles, again, not much sense into this just what I picture honestly.
random gone headcanons that have popped into my unhinged little brain, part 13
hey there yall apologies for my unintended extended absence i got really fixated on ever after high for a minute there and it began living in my brain so here’s an extra long headcanons post to make up for it 🫶🏻
astrid took archery as a kid. her parents forced her into a bunch of extra curriculars and she threw a tantrum that she didn’t choose any of them herself so they let her choose one and she chose archery. she ended up dropping it after pete was born in order to take care of him but later picked it back up and started rehoning her skills when the fayz started, not liking being forced to have sam protect her and wanting to protect herself.
drake has acute ocd. he’s very particular w numbers; everything has to be done in equal numbers. he counts his steps, how many times he does things, how things are organised, colours have to match, he wipes things down excessively, everything in his area has to be exponentially neat, he’s very much not a fan of messes he crashes the fuck out when things are out of place, he’d even count to make sure he shoots someone an equal amount of times 😭 as the series goes on he starts getting messier and less organised to showcase the gaiaphage taking more and more control of his brain and him being less himself, less methodical
i don’t think i’ve ever actually talked about this but in my head the reason elwood and dahra broke up is bc elwood felt like he wasn’t doing enough to help people. obviously without the hospital everyone would have died very early on but he felt like he wasn’t doing enough to prevent people from needing the hospital in the first place. dahra disagreed. elwood didn’t like being cooped up in a basement all the time so they argued about it a lot, leading to their split.
also, i feel like elwood is a very touchy individual and dahra sort of isn’t, not past the average amount whereas elwood needs some kind of contact practically at all times and it got too much for her after a while.
while we’re on the topic of elwood ive decided he’s a foil to lance. they were both sports geeks before the fayz and were also friends, and both kept their heads down for most of the beginning of the fayz until elwood decided he wasn’t doing enough and joined edilio’s army, and lance pivoted in the opposite direction. i feel like elwood is what lance wants to be but he wants to be him while also being a bigot, which was never gonna work so he resents him.
elwood and dahra were popular before the fayz. it says elwood was the star athlete which leads me to believe HE’S popular, and dahra being his girlfriend would likely make her popular by extension.
lana has bipolar. she was diagnosed and on medication prior to the fayz but obviously it ran out eventually and started using the drinking to self medicate. she can go from being super productive and helpful and even somewhat friendly (by lana standards) to borderline suicidal and struggling to leave her hotel room. she can tend to be really extreme on both the manic and depressive ends of the spectrum.
mary absolutely HATES sam bc she’s a mean lesbian who has feelings for astrid and decided he’s not good enough for her. is astrid’s secret weapon in an argument, she will deadass threaten to sick mary on him like she’s a feral dog and i love this about her
i don’t like the characterisation that mary’s this cutesy soft spoken mother figure just bc she runs a daycare that girl is a BITCH and she runs that shit like the navy. she’s the only person sam’s scared of besides drake bc somehow this 5 foot tall ginger lesbian is able to put him in the ground without powers and they both know it
some of the pets i’ve concluded the fayz crew have/had : diana’s mom had a cat when diana was younger, sam had a fish that died when tom was left to watch it, brianna’s parents got her a dog to help her deal w her twin sisters birth, one of astrid’s elderly neighbours died and she took in their cat, drake had a lizard that he was incredibly serious about i’m talking that lizard was his SOULMATE, frederico’s family had one of those ugly crusty white dogs, mary and john had a golden retriever, anna and emma had a bird, caines parents get him a new pet every time he tries to get their attention so he has a whole petting zoo at his disposal
