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This is not meant for everyone. It may trigger some. Everything from work 2 school 2 debate 2 life.

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Click here to support Getting my car back by Jalisa Jackson

My car was towed while in someone else's possession a couple days ago. They nor I have the money to get it out. In need $600 to get it out of impound. The longer its there the more I will owe.

Need help ASAP. Please share

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When pain is your life what is life worth #lupus

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I have lupus and have been recently diagnosed with degenerative disk disease. Walking is hard and will continue to get harder. That was a tough blow but I want to prepare for this. I want to be as mobile as possible and with a motorized wheelchair I believe I can. But who knew wheelchairs were so...

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Almost the less than $400

[heyatleastitsnotcancer]

Do you have any followers with lupus? I have some questions about it. I may have it

Hey Lupus followers, sound off and help jewelsydelle out! :P

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I have lupus and have been recently diagnosed with degenerative disk disease. Walking is hard and will continue to get harder. That was a tough blow but I want to prepare for this. I want to be as mobile as possible and with a motorized wheelchair I believe I can. But who knew wheelchairs were so...

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Click here to support Motorized Wheelchair Needed by Jalisa Jackson

I have lupus and have been recently diagnosed with degenerative disk disease. Walking is hard and will continue to get harder. That was a tough blow but I want to prepare for this. I want to be as mobile as possible and with a motorized wheelchair I believe I can. But who knew wheelchairs were so...

Any and all help is appreciated!!! Please share even if you can’t donate!!

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Help with conference

I am trying to get to this conference to speak on disability in debate to be on the panel. I don't have the funds for it and my school is unable to help me with it. If you can donate anything I would appreciate it. Unique Link will match any donation made by midnight on Thursday. If for some reason I don't get enough to go I will donate whatever money is there to DKC - which inspired me to do debate in high school - even if you can't donate please share https://www.gofundme.com/ru72q7n8

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It hurts so much. My body aches my hand can't bend walking feels like dull torture. This pleurisy is being evil. And I'm tired for no reason. #lupus #lupusproblems #chronicpain

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[getoutoftherobotxaviii]

I’ll wait.. it doesn’t change.

[certifiedproblemchild]

"What's a Period?"

….Uterus wants baby.

Person doesn’t have baby.

Uterus wants revenge

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medicating

I am in a lot of pain. My knees feel like they are on fire every time I move them. But I’m not sure anymore if I am medicating (oxycodone/hydrocodone) to deal with physical pain or to numb the rest of me from dealing with the pain. The meds put me in a heavy,quiet, dark place - it’s comforting like being under water. I can’t tell if this is me becoming dependent on these meds - needing the spaced feeling.... but if it is and I should stop what do I do about the pain that I am in???

#lupus #lupusproblems #chronic illness #chronic pain

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Burden on the brain

Last night a friend mention the he and other friends including my best friend have had convos about how whenever I call or txt I need something so they sometimes ignore me. I wasn't aware I am such a burden on them. I should be able to detect that considering Malaika but I didn't. Buts it's not even their fault because I'm lonely at home I call them to bring me things so they will hang out. I feel (know) that if I don't need something they won't come. But that's manipulative as fuck and I shouldn't be doing that. They obviously don't want to hang out with me. The boys will txt June and each other to hang and I'm never included. That should have told me they just don't want me around and I was trying to force it. I am a burden. I can't walk all the time and I'm in pain all the time and that comes up every time we do hang out cause they ask questions. Instead of hanging out they end up assigning suicide watch and forcing one of them to spend the whole day with me in shifts... Which is even worse. Only being with me cause you're scared the pain is gonna get the better of me. Not because they want me around rather they don't want to feel responsible if I do kill myself. I'm done with being/feeling like a burden to people. I have a disability that I'm am going to have to learn how to handle by myself. So no more asking for help. No more asking for people to hang out with me on bad days. No more. #lupus #lupusproblems #icant

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Apparently even drug companies count today as a holiday...flm #lupus #lupusproblems

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I hat prednisone

Why is it of all the pills I take prednisone is the one that get caught up and I have to have the after taste???! Shit is nasty! #lupus #lupusproblems

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#icant

I've stopped making appts with professors and advisors bc every time I do I get a flare and have to cancel. Now I just cross my fingers and hope they are in their offices on my good days. #lupus #lupusproblems #chronic illness

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some days like today i cry every few minutes fro no other reason than I’m tired. i’m tired of my body trying to kill me. i’m tired of being over weight and taking meds that make me even more so. I'm tired of pain that won’t allow me to get out of bed. I'm tired of being able to move but pain radiating all over. I'm sick of not being able to breathe without pain. I'm just tired. and I can’t always be positive or have a good outlook. And I hate when people not dealing with this are just like “you’ll be fine just think positive”.... thinking positive is not going to stop the pain. #lupusproblems #lupus #chronicpain