shi/hir, 18. autistic and mentally/neurologically disordered traumaendo system. previously known as riotmarrow/worldwidenoises. do not send dono asks. do not post us to fakedisordercringe or systemscringe. zionists, radqueers, sys/shipcourse do not interact, we don't like you.
we're 夢の岸 / the shore of dreams, otherwise known as the in-betweeners, summer kakigori, amongst other names. we are a teenaged plural system of indeterminate number, and this is our blog. what's it about? nothing. just like seinfeld! click read more to find out more. warning, we overshare. a lot. read through the full thing to find the thin ice and dni lists respectively. and do not send us donation asks, especially if you're anonymous. we don't know which ones are real, and which ones are not.
we (raz/lain, shi/hir pronouns) are white, mesosex, and collectively queer + oriented aroace & genderqueer. also eighteen years old. don't be weird to us.
we are also taken, so please don't flirt with us romantically!!
we're medically diagnosed and/or recognized for: autism, adhd, anxiety, major depressive disorder, dysthymic disorder, ptsd, disruptive mood dysregulation disorder (a precursor to bipolar in most cases), unspecified dissociative disorder, and mild asthma. we also suspect to have idiopathic hypersomnia, hpd, and some narcissistic traits — all with extensive research.
in short, we're fucked.
the part who will front the most & post the most is calypso. i'm also the one writing this right now. although, i'm looking for different names for myself. i use shi/hir and hy/hymn pronouns. i'm a gender non-conforming boygirl, as well as aroacespec and velaurian and objectum and fictorose, just to add more to the fire.
i'm the one who has the out-system boyfriends... and the one who takes the brunt of our disorders. thanks chat
i'm very autistic about my interests! i love things such as: psychonauts (special interest of 3 years), dandy's world, vocaloid (including utsu-p, pinocchio-p, and the post-traumatic manifesto) (the latter being the theme of this account!), object shows, roblox, pokémon, and more! chances are if you've heard of something somewhat popular yet niche, i've been in the fandom or at least heard of it. share me your playlists! i love playlists, and have around 30+.
there are things i don't like though. obviously.
vivziepop, dream smp, true crime community, and alfred's playhouse fandoms are on thin ice.
and for people i don't want to interact at all,
i don't want these groups to interact with my posts or blog at all: zionists, pro contact for nonconsensual paraphilias (rape, beastiality, minors, etc.), radqueers, anti non-traumagenic systems, and anti-inclus. anti-inclus for me includes terfs (and by extension, radical feminists. y'all's ideology is full of bigotry whether you like it or not), and people who are against contradictory or "weird" labels. my blog is not for you! i will block you if i see you in my notifications. as someone who is queer, not fully traumagenic, a victim of countless horrible things, & more, i don't feel safe around you guys.
while im here i should post this before i forget .. this is the He. traumatic leg injury and all. mega bear trap and whatever... hes very inspired by 1960s mens fashion and has a wardrobe dedicated solely to that
i’m not entirely sure how to talk about this. this is a fraught subject that deserves to be discussed by someone both tactful and astute, and i don’t know if i’m that person. but this is another post regarding my boundaries, and i cannot continue to disrespect myself by letting it go unsaid.
this morning i discovered that there are some people in the “radqueer” community displaying my characters on their pages and engaging with my content. i can’t control who likes my art, and i recognize this. i can’t prevent anyone from enjoying my work. but if these people have any understanding of basic human decency, i need them to know that i do not wish to be associated with them in any form, nor do i want my work to be promoted through them. please stop using my characters as your blog themes if you are a “radqueer”. please do not reference my music anywhere on your blog.
i feel so confused and tormented that these people have listened to Chocolate-Box Girl and somehow think their actions are exempted from the critiques expressed through the song. to be fair, many of these people are children, so i understand that media literacy may not be their most fully-formed skill. but, if i really need to restate it, the whole point of the song is how communities like these should not be fostered. you are not participating in a counterculture by saying children can consent. you are reinforcing our preexisting, pedophilic society at large. you’re playing into someone else’s hands, and you’re going to feel like an idiot when you get older. i’m not saying this from a place of judgment. i’m saying this as someone who has looked down these internet rabbit holes before and has seen how these people turn out. they end up permanently isolated due to their actions, jobless, unwilling or unable to seek help, perpetually miserable in a masturbatory way, and/or in prison. you do not want to align yourself with these people. you do not want to be known forever as the person who wanted to fuck dogs or the person who thinks the age of consent is stupid or the white person who “identified” as black.
my advice is to find another subculture. it’s not too late to jump ship. dedicate your energy to something productive and worthwhile. you could be spending your time reading or watching movies or sewing or baking or birding or doing literally anything else you want to do. if you want to make a permanent mistake, give yourself a stick-n-poke tattoo. give yourself a piercing. do something impulsive that won’t permanently ruin your reputation. you can be better than this. you’re going to fall out of love with this community eventually, it’s best to just rip the bandaid off now.
if you choose to continue to identify as “radqueer”, do not involve yourself with me or my art in any way. i do not like you. you don’t understand me or my work. leave me alone.
i don't care what people write in fiction (as long as it isn't stuff of real-life existing children), but radqueers cross a line that i feel shouldn't be crossed. i don't know why there's such a huge spike in people identifying as radqueer lately
doodles of that one oc i have. heres some info about him if you're interested ^_^
his name is sylviane, but he also goes by syl, sylvie, and/or sylvia! his pronouns are he/him and so far, in terms of "woke stuff" (trademark symbol) i've only ever really determined that hes either polyamorous or ambiamorous? umm. he's also moroccan and french.
becaus e i tend to project onto my ocs (i have yet to find someone who doesn't), he has tourette's syndrome and generalised anxiety disorder. some of his tics include whistling, bird noises (i think this would be an interesting one), and head bowing. :P
coughs....... kaz how to........ how do you...... cough..................... how do you deal with............ ough.......................... brain............................... coughs
a piece for my ib art course regarding dysphoria, dysmorphia, and disconnect from one's own body. can be interpreted in a plural sense, as was the original intention, but i'm open to seeing it interpreted in other ways (if you do, please tell me — i'd love to know).
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