summery: The BAU is assigned an urgent case in Vegas and as much as you try to concentrate on it, a certain officer is getting under your nerves and into Spencer's pants
genre: mystery/triller, comfort, a bit of fluff
tropes/tags: jealousy AU, BAU!reader, mutual pinning? but they be blind
cw: dead bodies, murder, blood, child abuse, someone trying to steal your man
word count: 8.2k
a/n: hi guys! phew this is a loooong one! It took me a while to finish writing and editing it on top of work which was lowkey kicking my butt for a while. I hope you guys like it as much as I liked writing it <3 Comments and suggestions are appreciated!!
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"Sarah Anderson, 24, was reported missing for a week before found in an alley in Las Vegas last month with multiple stab wounds to her body and half her hair pulled off while the other half was braided. Selina Wall, 26, was also reported missing for a week before being found two weeks ago with multiple stab wounds and this time with her hair shaved and same the other half braided. Ellie Peters, 21, was found two days ago with multiple stab wounds but this time her whole head was shaved. Her hair, however, was found next to her body. Sown onto a wig and braided. ," JJ pressed her pointer as pictures of all three women popped up on the screen.
"All three women was found within the same neighbourhood, one alleyway next to another. They were all reported missing for a week before they were found. Coroner's report found that all the later two had smaller cuts on their bodies that had started to heal, believed to be done during the week they went missing."
"Cause of death?" Hotch asked.
"Bleeding out from the stab wounds," JJ answered, "All three women were in their twenties, the only similarity being that they were blonde."
"They had no connections to each other?" Morgan raised his eyebrow.
"Nothing that the local police could find," JJ sighed. "Sarah Anderson was a local of the area, Selina just moved to Las Vegas to attend university, and Ellie Peters was from a different neighbourhood. None of their paths have ever crossed according to the background checks of the police."
You pondered as you sip your coffee. "Why are we being called now and not after the second body?" Beside you, Spencer nodded to your question.
"Apparently, upon receiving the missing person's report from Ellie's parents, Las Vegas police thought that Ellie was just a runaway. She had runaway two times already over the last three years. Multiple disturbance calls to the family house for domestic abuse but no one ever admitted or complained."
Emily shakes her head. "So the victims have no connection, and the only thing tying them together is the fact that they are blonde."
"Seems personal to me," Morgan comments. "Unsub might have a history with someone who's blonde, something triggers them and boom. Lashes out."
"But we're looking at someone that kidnaps them and keeps them for a week before dumping them. That's an emotional connection. In the files over here," Spencer flips open the file he has in front of him, fingers glazing down, "it says that the victims were last contacted during the day. Family and friends only started getting worried once they didn't come home for dinner or to dinner with friends. They could have well been taking during board daylight."
"We're looking at someone that's cocky then," you note. "Someone who isn't afraid of being seen kidnapping someone during the day."
"Cocky but not exactly organised," Hotch remarks. "The crime scene itself screams amateur. It's almost as if they were trying different ways to take their anger out on their hair. Trying out each technique before they found one that satisfied them."
"The hair and the wig, we could be looking at someone who works with hair or even wig maker," Rossi chimes in.
"We could also be looking at someone who the victims can trust. There's no way these women were kidnapped without any witnesses unless it was not suspicious," Emily reasoned, shaking her head.
Hotch nodded.
Pressing the intercom, he asked, "Garcia, can you find out if these women have anything in common. See if they went to the same gym, maybe have the same doctor, anywhere that the unsub could have linked them together."
"On it, sir!" Garcia's voice echoed, "If they walked pass each other two months ago you'll know it! Garcia, out!"
You glanced over at Spencer before chuckling. When you first joined the team, your hands were always shaking. You didn't feel part of the team. All of them seemed so serious, while you wore mismatched socks and bag charms clinking as you walked. You felt like you had something to prove. To prove that you deserved the trust they put on you to be on this team.
Spencer was the first one to notice how stressed you were. He thought it was just you being shy. As the former baby of the team, he knew what it felt like to be the youngest and questioned about his dependability. So him and Garcia went out of their way to make you feel welcomed.
It started out with grabbing a coffee for you and having it on your table by the time you arrive. Always 10 minutes before you guys were to clock in. Seeing this, you responded by grabbing pastries for both of you as breakfast. Till this day you guys stuck to this arrangement.
When he realised that your jitters didn't go away, he switched you onto tea. Went off his theories of how tea could still give you the caffeine needed without the jitters. And when that didn't work, he finally asked you about it. Getting you to admit that you've been straining yourself to try to prove that you belong on the team. Upon hearing that, Spencer's heart sunk for you. All along he thought that maybe with time you'll see how the team likes being around you. But maybe actions weren't what you needed. You needed verbal reassurance.
Once Reid figured that out, he talked to Garcia and Emily about it. He figured out that you might not want everyone to know, but he needed other people on the team to know and help him out. Thankfully, he also switched back to getting you coffee, something that seems to perk your mood up in the mornings.
The way he cared though, noticing even the smallest of things and remembering everything you said, had you swooning. It was exactly how you started harbouring a crush on him. And now here you were months later as his "best friend". Attending movie nights at each other's place and trying out new cafes whenever you guys had time off. At this point, you basically stay over at his place more than yours for the convenience of getting an extra 15 minutes of sleep before work.
"Alright, wheels up in 15 minutes. Everyone grab your go-bags and we'll meet on the runway," Hotch ordered.
Once the team went over some theories after takeoff, you had time to relax until you got to Vegas. Next to you, Spencer took a book out of his bag and already started reading it. Since there was quite a bit of time left for the flight, you decided to plug in your earphones and take a nap.
"You wanna listen to some music?" You whispered to Reid. Everyone on the plane was immersed in their own worlds. Emily seemed to have also decided to take a nap, JJ going through paperwork, and Morgan watching a movie on his laptop.
Smiling softly, Spencer grabbed the earphone you had in your hands and whispered back a soft "yes." You smile back and rest your head on his shoulder. It's been a few cases since you started doing that. Spencer was actually the one that suggested you nap on his shoulder after seeing how stiff your neck sometimes got during cases. He got you the travel pillow just in case, but sometimes a nap on the shoulder is just what you need. You can put it on later if you really needed a change.
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"Hi, I'm Officer Bakker. The lead detective on this case. I really appreciate you guys taking the time and coming here," an older detective said as she shook Hotch's hand.
"I understand that the bodies were found in the same general vicinity?" Hotch asks.
"Yes. Although we might have more pressing matters. Another girl with the same traits have just been reported missing. She was last seen yesterday night at a bar with some friends before going home according to them. My officers are already interviewing her friends and looking at the bar. We are currently unsure if it's the same unsub but I wanted to look into it just in case."
You exchange a look with Spencer. The unsub is speeding up their timeline. That's no good, you thought to yourself.
"Alright. Prentiss and Morgan, I want you to go to the dumpsites and see what you can find there. L/n and Reid, you guys work on the geographical profile of where these women were last scene and the dumpsites. Rossi and I are gonna head to the coroner's to see what we can learn about the bodies," Hotch told the team.
"I have two other officers working the case with me," Officer Bakker added, "I'll send Officer Hunt to the dumpsites with you guys, and Officer Rodriguez can help with the geographical profile after she comes back from interviewing the newest victim's friends."
Hotch nods and you guys disperse into your respective tasks. Spencer and you were lead to the room you guys were given to work the case. Inside you found a round table, some files, and two empty boards as you guys have requested.
As you finish putting up all the crime photos and the map, Spencer comes back with two coffee cups in his hands.
"Let's see how we feel about these ones," he said with a laugh. "I sure hope it won't be as bad as the ones we had in Chicago last time." You instantly grabbed a cup out of his hands, the strong smell of coffee waking you up.
You guys have been playing a game of rating all the coffee's you guys have tasted in different stations. So far, everything is below a 5 and nothing beats the coffee from the cafe next to Quantico. A bit of a splurge with how much coffee you guys drink, but a much-needed one to get you through the day with the things you see in this job.
After a taste test and the much expected 3/10 rating after Spencer visibly gagged, you guys dive into pinpointing the locations and bounced theories off each other.
The hair tie on your wrists snaps against your skin as you continue playing with it. A nervous habit you picked up when you were younger. It used to keep you awake studying but now it served more as an absent-minded tick you have while being focused.
"Your wrist is red," commented Spencer.
You looked down. You must have been hitting the same spot for hours. There was now a swollen line right where the hair tie would hit. The area around it an angry red before fading into pink. You didn't even notice the sting until you looked at it.
"Here," Spencer said softly, "Last time you left a scrunchie at my place, I'll trade you. I can hold on to that hair tie for now."
He slips the hair tie off your wrist before replacing it with small blue scrunchie. You had bought the pack a month ago before you started leaving it everywhere. You don't even remember leaving it at Spencer's place after all those game nights.
"Thanks," you whispered. He was standing so close now. You look up to observe his face, only to find his eyes on you too. You felt the soft blow of his breathing, realising how tall he actually loomed over you. It wasn't like you never stood next to him. But this was different. The way he towered over you made you feel safe. You wanted to take a step closer to his warmth.
"Do you want more coffee, y/n?" he whispered.
You cough, breaking the trance, and simultaneously he took a step back. Taking all the warmth away with him. You wrist felt cold, and only then did you realise that his hand had been caressing your wrist the whole interaction.
"M-maybe some tea this time," you croaked, rubbing your wrist to get rid of the small tingles. You cleared your throat. "What do you want, Spence? Coffee?" You moved towards the door, needing some space before you do something you regret.
"I think I'll have some tea too, actually. Thanks y/n," his voice came out confused. He was the one to ask if you wanted anything after all. Stealing a glance before you leave the room, you watch as he ran his fingers through his messy hair before staring back at the board.
The kettle grumbled as the water started boiling in the coffee room. You fanned your face as you search for some tea. They didn't have much of a selection over here. Then again, you can't really compare. You and Spencer were basically the main suppliers of the tea cabinet back in Quantico.
Grabbing two mugs, you picked out two bags of Earl Grey.
"Hey how's the geographical profile coming along?" you jump hearing Emily's voice behind you.
"We're currently narrowing down how the unsub met their victims. Currently the abduction sites are a bit spread out to know what the comfort zone is, but the dump sites are all in the middle. The radius of the second location right now is too big without other clues," you reported.
It was true. You and Spencer are hoping that what the rest have found can help narrow down where the second location is because currently all you guys have are a map with circles that don't overlap.
Emily nods, "Hotch and Rossi should be back in a few minutes. We should call a meeting to review what we've found."
As you guys approach the room, a sudden loud giggle cuts through the air making your eyebrows furrow. It's not everyday you hear a giggle in a police station.
Standing at the doorway, you guys are met with the site of a female police officer standing next to Reid. Her eyes were comically big, staring at Spencer. She laughed in delight with every fact he spilt. Your eyes, however, were glued on her hand which was on Spencer's forearm. With every move of his body stepping backwards, she followed.
She was making him uncomfortable.
Emily cleared her throat, bringing the officer and Spencer back to the room. His eyes dart to yours as he stepped further away from her.
"Hi! I'm Officer Rodriguez," she steps forward, her hands shakes Emily's. "but you guys can call me Gabriela. Everyone does here anyways."
You shake her hand, taking a good look at her. She was pretty, there's no denying that. She had shiny, luscious brown hair pulled back into a low pony tail. Her lashes were to die for too. If she wasn't the person you hated the most in the moment, you would have asked her what mascara she was wearing. You hold back a frown.
"Ah! You must be Officer Rodriguez. SSA Rossi, and this is SSA Hotchner," you hear Rossi's voice behind you.
"It's my pleasure! You guys can just call me Gabriela. I've read your book by the way. I couldn't believe my ears when Officer Bakker said that we would be working with you. Your team is very impressive," she says excitingly, looking at Spencer at the end of her sentence.
You shove your hands into your pockets to stop them from shaking.
"Officer Rodriguez, thank you for helping l/n and Reid on their profile. If you don't mind, our team is going to discuss our findings before presenting our profile," Hotch steps around the table.
"Oh! Uh- yea sure!" she stammered, "I'm looking forward to hearing it."
She moves to the door but not before touching Spencer's elbow to say goodbye. You bit your lip as you took in a breath. "Welcome back to Vegas by the way."
"You okay there l/n?" Morgan asked after the door closes. He wore a knowing smile on his face, one that you would love to punch right now.
"Peachy," you reply dryly. The team did not try to hide the fact that they "shipped" you guys together, as Penelope said. This wasn't the first time you were at the receiving end of their teasing. You doubt that Spencer even realises what they were implying sometimes.
Spencer comes to your side, standing close to you. You ignore him though, not wanting him to see how bothered you were with the way Gabriela was acting. It was not the time to admit your feelings, or for him to figure it out himself.
"What did you guys find in the dumpsites?" Hotch asks. And with that the team goes off on theories and ideas. You guys had one hour until Hotch wanted to present the profile, so whatever you guys found better be good.
"Morgan, tell them we're ready to give the profile."
~
"The unsub we're looking for is between the ages of 24 to 30. We believe that they currently work in a position of power, somewhere they have control, but also something where they can fit in and gain the trust of our victims. Think of anyone you'll go to help for: security, teachers, counsellors, therapists, or even the police," Hotch starts.
You were all gathered in front of the Las Vegas police. Some of them looked at each other uncomfortably after Hotch mentioned the possibility of a police officer being the unsub. The usual reaction. Most departments don't take it well to this kind of information, they couldn't believe that one of them would do something like this. Not until all the evidence points to one of them. You keep your eyes on them for any tells. Just in case.
"However, this control is not enough anymore," Morgan continues. "Something might have happened recently that made them feel like they don't have control over their job anymore, or they aren't getting enough credit. They feel undermined. Undervalued. We believe that this might be the trigger."
"It's also very common for this type of unsub to have a troubled childhood, usually parental neglect that manifests into hyper-independency and for the need of control," Emily explains.
"There didn't seem to be a connection between the victims other than the fact that they were abducted during the day, and that they have blonde hair," notes Spencer. As soon as he started speaking, Gabriela's eyes flickered towards him. You clenched your jaw. You supposed that was the reason why she sat in the front row in the first place.
"Because of this, we believe that there's a personal connection for this unsub. These victims serves as surrogates for the unsub's anger. There must have been an event in this unsub's life with a blonde women that caused this much hatred," he continued, talking with his hands. You couldn't help but notice how Gabriela was staring at them. Spence always had nice hands but that doesn't give her the right-
"y/n?" Spencer whispered beside you. You jump out of your thoughts. Right that was your cue.
Clearing your throat, you said your part. "Due to the way the unsub fixates on this particular type of victim, the unsub would typically be male. However, since we found no evidence of sexual assault, there is also the possibility that the unsub could be a women. Like Agent Reid said, the unsub would have a personal vendetta against a blonde person. More evidence would be needed before we can determine a gender."
"Thank you everyone for listening. If you see anyone suspicious that fits the profile talking to someone that fits the description of the victims, please note it down and let us know," Rossi disperses the crowd.
Gathering together as you always do after giving a profile to plan your next move as a team, Hotch opens his mouth before being interrupted.
"Do you guys really think it's a women?" Officer Rodriguez cuts in. Her eyebrows furrowed, hands clutching her notepad and pen.
"There's a possibility, yes," Emily answers slowly. "It's less alarming and suspicious for a women to follow another women board daylight compared to a man. These women would also trust other women more."
"And them being a police officer?"
"It's just a possibility. With these type of cases you do see it a lot. Someone who's supposed to help the community blending in," you tell her.
She scoffs.
You look at Emily, making eye contact. It wouldn't be the first time someone would be resistant to such claims but it never gets easier. Plus you need the police's support, not for them to think that you guys suspect each and every one of them.
"There's just a possibility, we're not trying to blame any of you," Spencer adds. She gives him a tight-lipped smile before placing a hand on his arm.
"Thanks for trying to make me feel better Spencer," she says, eyes softening as she fixated on him yet again.
"I think you should take your hands off Gabriela. It's making him uncomfortable" you said coldly, causing her to turn to you with a raised brow.
"Whoa, l/n! Hold back your claws!" Morgan whistles. Spencer looks me you worried before brushing her arm off.
"BAU team, let's meet in the board room," Hotch interjects. By the way his jaw is clenching, he's definitely annoyed with the way Gabriela is acting and wasting his time. Spencer quietly moves to your side, knowing his presence has always calmed you down. You doubt it would be enough this time though as it only reminds you of what happened.
Once gathered, you guys go over the next steps you guys can take regarding the case.
"It's the just the usual response Hotch," Morgan says. All of you watched their reactions carefully.
"Don't you think Officer Rodriguez is being a little suspicious," you suggest.
"Y/n, we can't make any assumptions based on personal interactions," Morgan refutes.
Your face warms up at what he was suggesting. "I-I'm not saying that because of how she's acting!" you stutter, trying to collect your thoughts. "She's riled up by the fact that we're suggesting it's an Officer. Plus the way she reacted at it being a female offender is a bit odd, don't you think?"
Spencer nods, agreeing with you. Which was the least he could do, if you were being honest. "You know, usually with a group identity such as police officers, pilots, or teachers, people get defensive if they are part of that group. Although, she is showing constant obsession over certain facts of the case. Maybe she knows more than she's letting on?"
"Alright, I agree with l/n. If you guys see anything else let me know," Hotch sighs. "Keep an eye out for the other two officers assigned to the case too, Bakker and Hunt. With this type of unsub, there could be a chance that they want to be involved."
There was a knock on the door before it was pushed open by Officer Bakker.
"We found another body. It's the girl that went missing from that bar," he said to Hotch before meeting your eyes. "Maybe this is the extra evidence you needed."
Your heart sank.
~
This time the whole team went to the crime scene. You guys needed fresh eyes. The timing between this victim and the last was less than before.
"The unsub's timeline is shortening, Hotch," Morgan comments, confirming your thoughts. "They're also getting more aggressive. Look at those stab wounds. It's more than the other unsubs. They've started to spiral."
The body belonged to a Natalia Johnson. She was reported missing the day you guys arrived. Garcia was already tracking your last whereabouts, once you guys ID'ed her.
"Where's Officer Hunt by the way," you questioned. He wasn't there when you guys presented the profile. Considering he's one of the Officers on the case, it made no sense. You wanted to ask during the debrief but didn't get a chance.
"It's Officer Hunt's day off," Officer Bakker replies. Hotch looks at him confused.
"You have a serial murderer on your hands and your police officers get days off?" He asked in disbelief.
Officer Bakker stammered. "W-Well, they have fixed days off every week. All my officers do. It's a demanding job after all."
Hotch pursed his lips. "With all due respect, Officer. We need all hands on deck right now."
Walking away from him, Hotch came to your side.
"Ask Garcia to see if she can find the schedule of all the officers," he murmurs quietly, just loud enough for you to hear. "We'll only ask for it if she can't find it."
You nod discretely, careful not to arouse any suspicion. If the unsub is part of the police department, they could be here right now.
"Hey, Vegas boy!" you hear someone holler behind you.
You turn around confused, only to see Officer Rodriguez strutting over to where Spencer was standing with Emily and Morgan. Morgan raised his brows to the nickname.
"I hope you like coffee," she shoves an extra cup into Spence's hands. "They had a promotion and since you were working all night on that map I thought you might need it!"
You tilt your head. You both were working on the geographical profile, not just Spencer. Spencer's wide doe eyes meet yours.
"T-Thanks?" you strain your ears to hear.
You turn back to Hotch, not wanting to watch the scene. His frown deepened. This case was not going well. Just then his phone rang.
"Garcia, what do you have for us?" He answers, walking away and leaving you alone.
You decide to walk around the dumpsite. It was the same area as the others, never in the same alley. Yet, always the next alley on the right. At this rate you all knew where the next body will be dumped. What's interesting is that no one witnessed the unsub dump the body even though there was high foot traffic in the area. The body was probably dumped last night, but the autopsy report would tell more. The person who found the body was a garbage collector. They were making rounds in the alleyway as some of the buildings have their dumpsters here.
Looking around you notice how some restaurants in the area probably had back-doors here. You took out your notepad, making a note to tell Garcia to look into the restaurants' cameras and also for you guys to interview some staff.
"But why the change in MO?" you asked yourself out loud. With the previous victims, the unsub went from braiding their hair, to half braided and half shaved, to fully shaved and made into a wig and then braided. This time, the hair was still intact and braided on their head again. There must be a deciding factor for the unsub on which one to do based on a quality of the victim. Shaving their hair and making it into a wig before braiding it all takes incredible precision and most importantly, time. They're spending more time with certain victims and less with the others… They're perfecting their ways and getting confident for sure.
"Hey, l/n!" you hear Morgan call you, beckoning you over to where the team was. You join them as Hotch and Officer Bakker start discussing their plan.
"We already have surveillance in the area in case there was another dump, but my officers last night didn't report anything," Officer Bakker says.
"Alright, we might need to up the surveillance then, but not anything noticeable. We can't have the unsub start dumping bodies in another area," Hotch says.
"Actually if they do, we might have a better chance of knowing where their secondary location is with the geographical profile," Reid blurts out, earning a look of disapproval from Hotch since more bodies is never a good thing. Officer Bakker's phone rings and excuses himself to take it.
"Alright, we need as much help as possible. And we need to act fast. Officer Bakker, have your officers document as much as they can, and up the surveillance. Rossi and I are going to head to the morgue again to get the report. Morgan and Prentiss, stay on the scene and see if you can see anything new about this victim. You were the only ones that has been to the other crime scenes. Reid and l/n, head back to the station and coordinate with Garcia to see what you guys can find out," Hotch commands.
"Actually," Officer Rodriguez starts. "I think it might be useful to look at the body cams and also surveillance routes of last night. Maybe Spencer and I can look at that while your other agent corresponds with your tech girl."
You tilt your head. Everything that came out of this girl's mouth was pissing you off now.
"That's not a bad idea," you whip your head looking incredulously at what Hotch just said. Not bad? Not bad?
Your clench and unclench your jaw, trying not to seethe. Spencer was your partner, like how Emily and Derek always get paired up. She could do it alone without his help! It's literally just re-watching video logs.
"Sorry guys, another girl with the same looks was just reported missing. She was last seen two days ago by her friends," Officer Bakker sighs, shaking his head. "They only reported her missing after she missed work today."
"JJ, go talk to the family and friends of the newest abductee. See what you can find out," Hotch adds after sighing. "L/n, have Garcia pull up what she can find on the girl that was abducted. If we work fast, we could still save her. Every body get to work."
Officer Rodriguez immediately grips Spencer's biceps with her claws."Hey I'll drive us back to the station," she says as she steers Spencer to her police car.
"Damn, you've got competition y/n!" Morgan whistles.
Glaring at him you shot back, "What would I be competing for anyways? Sure won't be how shameless I'm obviously not"
He chuckles as he walks away. You feel a hand on your shoulder as Emily says softly, "I wouldn't worry if i were you. We all know Spence only has eyes for you. Even if you both don't see it."
"We're not-"
She laughs and shakes her head. "It's okay. Don't be embarrassed. We're all routing for you guys." She pats your shoulder again, before walking after Morgan to take a better look at the crime scene.
You sigh. At least you'll be riding the van with JJ and not alone right now.
~
"Omg she didn't!!" Penelope screeches as you recount everything that happened. Pen was the only one that knew of your o-so-obvious crush. That apparently everybody knew about. What could you hide from a group of behavioural analysts, you sigh to yourself.
"She did!" you moan with your hands on your head. You were alone in the meeting room that was soundproof, so you weren't worried about anyone hearing.
"And you know what's worse!" you continue in your crisis. "Spencer didn't even push her away!"
"Oh c'mon, knowing him he's probably just a deer in headlights! Freezing cause he doesn't know what to do!" Pen consols you.
But it was no use. You were officially moping.
"I don't know, Pen," you sigh. "Let's just get back to work."
"Alright, but let me know if anything else happens. I can always hack into her house and make her think it's haunted!" she suggests, making you to chuckle.
"Alright, so I took a look at where our latest victim was in the last twenty-four hours, and it seems like she made a grocery run in the morning, went home, and then left with her friends to go to the bar. From the interview notes of Miss Steal-Your-Man, it seems like her friends last saw her leaving their group with another girl," Garcia reports.
"So our unsub is more likely a woman now," you speculate. It makes sense. If the unsub was a woman, all the victims would have lowered their guard more easily. "How about the girl that was reported missing? Any leads with that?"
"I'm looking into it as of current…aaand it looks like she had class that day at the community college. I'll see if I can track her down with the cameras," she answers.
"Okay, thanks Pen. Also let me know about the whole police schedule thing. They still haven't sent it to you?" you asked.
"Nope, but fear not, I will find out anything they are hiding from us. Toodles!" With that you heard a beep that cut the call.
Alone in the conference room now, your gaze moves back to the board. The campus is near the bar where the last victim was abducted. You go to circle it. The abduction sites were now less spread out. You stare at the map, as if the answer would come to you.
You squint as you ironically see how in the overlapping areas between the dumpsite and the abduction sites, resides the police station that you were standing in right now.
Interesting.
You shake your head. You need more coffee for this, and your hair tie cause the scrunchy was not holding all your hair back the way you wanted it to. It was too loose and your hair was falling out, getting you more and more overstimulated. You needed the hair tie to focus at this point.
Heading towards the coffee machine again, you pass by the desk of Officer Rodriguez. Spencer sat by her, both staring at the computer as they watched a sped up cam recording.
"Hey y/n," Spencer calls out. He quickly gets up, walking towards you. "What did Garcia say?"
"She's still backtracking the last 24 hours of our newest victim," you answer, not wanting to give too much information while Officer Rodriguez was still here. For all you know, it could be her.
"How's the geographical profile coming? Gabriela said that she's going clock off now so I was thinking that we could work on it together again. There's not much on the recordings anyways from what we've watched," he rambles.
"O-oh sure!" you stammer, not expecting this turn of events. On one hand, you were happy that he'll be with you now. On the other, it seems like they were on first name basis now.
"Were you heading to grab some coffee?" he continued.
"Yea, I need something to keep my head going at this hour."
"Alright, I'll be back with two cups then," and with that he beelines to the coffee room before you could say anything. Leaving you with Officer Rodriguez alone.
You turn to Gabriela as she finishes packing up her things and stands. Without warning, she shoves something into your hands.
"Give this back to Spencer would you? My hair was in the way just now so I took it off his wrists. Poor thing tried to grab it back until I told him I was just borrowing it and I would give it back once I get off work," she said as you stared at the hair tie in your hands. Your hair tie.
"Excuse me?"
"Yea I basically had to wrangle it off him. That one is a bit fussy over this small thing. I wonder if it's sentimental to him," she comments.
You fumed, "Maybe just don't touch him, he doesn't like it."
She stares at you before smirking, "You must think you're so special knowing that about him and working on this team. But you're just a brat aren't you?"
You opened your mouth in shock.
"Wha-"
"Nevertheless," she raises her voice. "You were the one that wished for another body. Cruel thing you are, aren't you. Always pretending to be innocent. Maybe next time you can be more precise about what happens to it. Like how Natalia Johnson had an iron brand on her."
"What's going on here?" Spencer's alarmed voice rang through the empty office.
As if putting on a mask, Officer Rodriguez smiled at him before coating her words with honey, "Just some girl-talk! I'll see you guys tomorrow!"
You blanched as you watch her walk away.
What the fuck was that?
"Are you okay?" Spencer worryingly asks.
"You two seemed cosy," you deadpanned, turning back to him.
"What do you mean?" Spencer asked confused.
You scoff, opening your palm to reveal the hair tie. "You let her use my hair tie?"
"Y/n it's not how you think it is," he stares at it wide-eyed. "I tried to take it back, I swear. I would never give someone something of yours!"
"Sure Spence," you snapped.
"Y/n, what is this about?" he pleaded. "Are…Are you jealous right now?"
"Tell me what do I have to be jealous about Spencer," you asked back.
He stared at you, before he holds both of your elbows with his hands. You try to wave him off but he just grabs it and pulls you towards him.
"Y/n," he starts, "Tell me you know."
"Tell me that you can see how much you mean to me."
You stare back at him stunned.
"You've always been the one for me y/n. So don't worry about her, okay?" He said before pulling you into a hug. What surprises you thought, was the soft lips your forehead. He kissed it for a few seconds before letting go to look at you all blushed up.
"Glad to see you guys making up," Rossi interrupts. You quickly push Spencer away, like a child being found dating in front of their parents. Rossi chuckles.
"We just got back from the morgue and it appears like our new victim got iron branded by our unsub," Hotch states.
"Iron branded?" Spencer repeats in thought.
"Wait, you didn't know?" You asked confused now. "Did you guys just come back? You didn't call Reid to tell him?"
"What do you mean?" Hotch furrows his eyebrows.
"She-" you stumble, putting the pieces together. "Then how did she know that the unsub was iron branded?"
"Who?" Rossi steps forward. The three of them watched you carefully.
"Officer Rodriguez," you answer, eyes wild. "She just said that to me!"
"Could she have seen it on the scene?" Spencer suggested, turning to Hotch and Rossi.
"The body was clothed and the brand was under her armpit, there's no way she would have known unless she came to the morgue with us," Hotch told the group.
"She-It's her! How did she know that- And-" you were suddenly cut off by a phone ringing.
Hotch stares at you before answering and putting it on speaker, "Garcia what have you found?"
"Well, Sir, it seems like only one officer was off during the time of all the crimes. An Officer Gabriela Rodriguez. For all of the murders, she was off the day before," Garcia's cheery voice rang through the office.
"Which means that she could have dumped the body and then went to work the next day when the bodies were found," Spencer speculates.
"Garcia give us everything you've got on Gabriela Rodriguez," Hotch orders.
"Let's see… She's a Vegas native, her parents open's their home to foster kids. Dad worked in plumbing while Mum was a hairdresser. They eventually adopted their last foster kid, a girl named Emma. She was two years younger than Gabriela. Oh. Emma was taken out of their home two years after she was adopted after multiple house disturbance calls and domestic abuse reports. She was placed into another home, while Gabriela stayed and ran away from home a few years later," Pen answers, keyboards clicking away in the background.
You stare at the phone on the table where Pen's voice came from. It's her. It's definitely her.
"What was the calls about?" You ask curious.
"Uhhh it seems like most of the calls were made from their neighbours and the school the girls attended. Oh this is disturbing! Apparently, the Mum would shave their hair to make into wigs for her business. Teachers reported that Gabriela was constantly compared to Emma, and even got yelled at in front of her teacher during a parent teacher conference which started the whole investigation. Insert quote "Emma's hair is better than yours which is why hers is better for wigs. You will never amount to anything". Social services were due for a checkup but Gabriela was never put into the system because she ran away before the district could do anything."
"Was Emma blonde?" Rossi asks.
"Yes, and I'm sending her picture to you right now. Oh no."
"What is it Pen?" You ask urgently.
"It seems like Gabriela was in line to be promoted but an incident changed that. There was a huge crash, she and another officer was dispatched to the scene… Someone did CPR on a victim, witnesses reported a cop do it however the sister of the victim claimed that she did the CPR instead, which gained media attention. And Gabriela was deemed unfit for the promotion."
"So she was in line for a promotion, got denied cause someone else takes credit for her work where the media hounds in making it a headline story. That's her trigger," Rossi deduces. "Gabriela spent her life being tormented for not being enough, yet someone else steals her spotlight and it costs her promotion."
You shake your head sighing. It all fits the profile. Your phones vibrate, and you open it to see Emma, a blonde girl that looked eerily similar to the first victim.
"Doesn't she look like-"
"Sarah Anderson, our first victim," Spencer finishes your sentence.
"The one who steals your promotion looks like someone your abusive mother used to compare you too?"" you muttered under your breath. "Talk about triggering."
"Garcia where is Gabriela now?" Hotch's voice rang with urgency.
"She just left, she couldn't have gone far," you said. "I was working on the geographical profile just now and I found that the station is actually in the middle of all the crimes. She could live nearby."
"She did mention to me earlier that it doesn't take long from her place to the station," Reid said, earning a questioning look from you. You can ask about it later though.
"Sir, it seems like she lives in an apartment a few minutes away, but a month ago her mother passed away and the house was left to her name. Father died two years ago from leukaemia. The house is seventeen minutes away from the station," Garcia's voice cuts through. "Sending the addresses to your phones now too."
"L/n, call Morgan to tell him and Emily to head to her apartment. We need to split up to find her as soon as possible. Reid call JJ and tell her that we are heading to her parent's house and to meet us there. The house is big enough to hold someone without causing suspicion," Hotch says before taking off with all of you behind him.
Arriving on the scene, the neighbourhood was deadly silent. Most of the houses had their lights on, no doubt the families who lived in it having dinner right now. You guys couldn't draw attention to yourselves. It could cause her to kill the hostage in panic and try to flee. Keyword: try. Cause the house was now surrounded. She wouldn't be able to flee even if she tried to.
"I'm telling you, Agent. You've got this wrong. Gabriela- Officer Rodriguez, is one of my best Officers. An overachiever, if you will," Officer Bakker protests in a whisper.
"Officer if you were sure it wasn't her, why are you whispering right now?" Hotch stared him down.
In your ear piece you hear Morgan's voice, "She's not at her apartment."
"Alright, find out what you can about her and gather evidence. Agents, move in," Hotch orders rang clear.
Hotch and Reid approach her door while you and Rossi flanked the back of the house. You follow Rossi as he creeps silently into the house. You haven't been on the field as long as the rest of the team so you were thankful for the guidance. Rossi lead you guys through the kitchen, you noticed how everything was in place. Dishes in the sink waiting to be washed, flowers on the counter. Your eyes linger as Rossi heads to the living room.
In the living room, you find a couch set in front of a TV. The room was decorated with pictures of a family. Except there seemed to be more family pictures with Emma than Gabriela. Her parents seemed to pose with little Emma while also cutting Gabriela out, you notice as you see a couple of pictures with her face cut-off on the sides.
As you round the corner, you and Rossi walk down some stairs before find yourselves at the entrance of the basement where Hotch's voice echoes from.
"Officer Rodriguez, put down your gun."
"And why should I do that, Agent?" her voice calm as she questioned.
"We know it's you, the game is over."
You watch from the shadows as she chuckled in response. She was standing next to an armchair where you could faintly see the outline of blonde hair. A gun angled towards the head.
"Gabriela, she's not Emma. Look at her," Spencer's voice starts. "That's not Emma."
Gabriela laughs again. "Of course she's not Emma. I killed Emma."
You and Rossi share a look before he nods. He steps into the doorway, ready to intervene in case anything happens.
"Sarah Anderson?" Spencer asked.
"What? No," Gabriela shakes her head. "I killed Emma years ago. No. But Sarah Anderson was the same. They all take your credit."
"Is that why you braided her hair? Because she looked like Emma?" Hotch says, trying to tire her out.
She paused before answering, voice softer now. "She looked so much like her. Emma was a good kid. So I braided her hair one last time. Except her hair was not good. It was fried at the ends. Emma loved her hair braided. I used to do it for her before school every day."
So you were right. There was a reason why she would either braid the victims hair or shave it off to make into a wig before braiding it.
"Ellie Peters though, she had good hair," she continued. "Good hair gets turned into wigs, Mama used to say. The other one I thought she had good hair. But no. I was wrong."
"Gabriela, drop the gun," Spencer tries to reason with her. "I know you're mad. She got out of the house, this house. While you were stuck."
She inhaled sharply. "No. No! You don't get it!"
"You didn't live with them!"Her voice shrill as she presses the gun harder against the girl's head. "Nothing ever mattered to them! I got the best grade. Ranked first in my year. I got better grades than Emma but they still loved her more. I had the best hair before she came! They never hurt her. But she! She was the one that got away. Not me!"
She turns to the girl in the chair, pressing the gun with every word she spoke. "You have no idea what you've done! They were mad when Emma got moved! Their perfect little blonde princess," she hissed. Rossi moved closer as she spoke.
"Gabriela, give me the gun," Hotch repeated. "Emma is gone. Your parents are gone."
She choked on a sob. Gun in hand as she wiped her eyes. Quickly, Rossi moved and snatched her gun. They struggled for a bit, as you and Reid moved closer to them. Finally, Rossi was able to disarm her.
"Hands up, Gabriela," Spencer voice rang.
She looked around at the four guns pointed at her. She could tell she was outnumbered. A sob erupts before she falls on her knees. She cries as her fists slams the floor. Reid was quick to go to the hostage and free her. You and Hotch keep your guns pointed at her as Rossi holds places handcuffs on her.
Finally, it was over.
~
On the plane you unfold your blanket, getting ready for a nap. Reid sits next to you, as he analyses the chess board. Him and Emily started the game an hour ago when the plane lifted and it seems like they won't be done for another thirty minutes with how long they're staring at the board. In front of you, stood a Swiss roll that Spencer took it upon himself to get before you guys left for the airport.
"An apology for how I made you feel," he had said when he presented it to you.
As you lean your head onto his shoulder, he smiles to himself. This is how it was supposed to be. Not him being next to someone else the whole case. He realised that he was wrong to assume you would know how he felt since he never really verbalised it.
As he scans the board another time, seeing that he can win in three moves. He starts formalising a plan in his head. Since you didn't see how much you meant to him, it seems like he's just has to try harder so you will never doubt him now.
He smiles as he check-mates Emily, earning a few curses from her. He kisses the top of your head before putting his head on yours and taking a nap too.
Before you both got the chance to dose off though, you remembered something.
Spencer Reid who doesn't dare to hug or kiss you in front of the rest of the team, but will smile at you all day and let you hold his hand in the jet or at the round table.
Spencer Reid who makes sure it's known that he sits with you every time on the jet without saying anything, but with Morgan's teasing the rest catch on quick enough to leave you space.
Spencer Reid who grows to hate going to bars after cases because more conventionally attractive guys hit on you. He just mopes around the bar. It doesn't take a profiler to know he's upset. When you finally get it out of him, you assure him that you love him and him only.
Spencer Reid who reads to you every night and let's you rest your head on his shoulder to sleep, but it ends with him sleeping on your shoulder.
Spencer Reid who whispers little facts he knows in your ear when you're scared or upset after a case.
Spencer Reid who always feels horrible if you get hurt on a case. He ends up crying more than you do, apologizing over and over again. Of course you tell him, "It's not your fault. You didn't know. You couldn't have stopped it. I'm okay, you're okay."
Spencer Reid who loves everything you do and studies you daily, even if the team teases him he doesn't care because he loves you.
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WHEN YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW | Spencer Reid x Sunshine!Reader
Description: Sunshine rookie gets a boyfriend, and Spencer can’t help but think he would be so much better for her. But that definitely isn’t the jealousy talking, right?
Length: 8k
Warnings: nothing really, jealousy? talks of sex? embarrassment? Mention briefly of vomit because of allergic reaction.
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author’s note: I want to write for these two until my fingers are two little stubs and even then I’ll learn with my toes. Can be read as a stand alone!
He thought he was going to be sick when he saw her that random Thursday, leaning against her desk, a sweet, bashful smile on her face. Or, more specifically, Spencer thought he was going to need to at least sit down when he saw the man standing next to her, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, the little daisy earrings Penelope bought her for her birthday almost laughing at his gobsmacked expression.
He liked Agent Taylor Bingley. He respected the fresh faced desk jockey from the third floor that swanned around their bullpen, usually discussing warm up routines with Luke. He was quick on his feet, a pretty decent shot. Never missed a report, never tardy, even offered his parking spot up to Spencer on more than one occasion because he didn’t mind the long walk from the other lot. He flew under the radar, and when he was noticed, it was because he was a particularly kind soul.
Spencer didn’t think he’d ever seen him without those rosy cheeks that made him look almost always sunburnt, or that trademark boyish grin a handsome guy like him had down to a tea. So it really shouldn’t have been such a surprise to see him lingering around his sunshine girl.
Except she wasn’t his, not by a mile. They just spent almost every second of the work day together.
“Check it out, rookie has an admirer,” Tara said, the heels clicking against the floor as she passed the door, where Spencer seemed to have stopped, his eyes narrowing at the happy couple, “Can’t say I blame him. She’s a pretty girl, don’t you think, Spence?”
She didn’t realise she was rubbing salt in a superficial wound, but Spencer felt his jaw feather with annoyance. Because she was beyond a pretty girl, she was honey and all the months of Spring and a hot drink on a rainy day and finishing a good book and the dessert your mom let you have on your tenth birthday. Not that he could admit that. So he just nodded, right as Taylor leaned over to kiss the apple of her cheek.
She shied away, smiling to her lap and playing with her fingertips, not looking up from her little potted plant that sat next to her on her desk, and Spencer knew it was because she floundered when people gave her too much attention.
Like when Garcia had said her blouse and bun combo she’d worn the other day made her look like a sexy teaching assistant, she’d stammered something close to a thankyou and headed to the kitchenette to get herself a glass of water. Or when Rossi had said the bangs she had cut herself two weeks ago looked cute, that his daughter had been desperate to try something similar, she’d spilled her coffee down her front not even two seconds later because she had been so occupied telling the man it was no big deal.
“Morning, Doctor Reid, Doctor Lewis,” Taylor said, his pearly white teeth gleaming with that West Coast, surfer boy tan that made Spencer want to huff. The man was insufferable. Well, correction, he was insufferably nice for someone Spencer was desperate to pick apart with faults the second he’d seen her preening over their sunshine rookie.
“Morning, Agent Bingley,” Tara said civilly, smiling back at the Agent that passed them to head to the elevators. She caught a glimpse of Spencer, and was quick to make herself scarce in the interest of needing to check in with Penelope, because she knew what that stormy look in his eye and the way his lips pressed into a thin line meant, profiler or not.
Spencer didn’t pay much attention to Lewis leaving his side, not that he was trying to be rude, his eyes were zeroed in on the way she fumbled around her desk, looking for imaginary mess to tidy, which included rearranging the pots of glitter pens and highlighters next to her monitor, only to put them back exactly how they were before.
“Agent Bingley, that’s new,” Came a voice over her shoulder, that made her jump in her seat, and her expression was skittish when she swivelled around, Spencer towering over her with calculating eyes. Luke rolled his chair around the divider to lean in on the conversation, having witnessed the whole thing in high definition since her desk was right next to his.
“Oh, Taylor?” She squeaked, and Spencer didn’t need to touch her face to know it had gone hot just by the way she simpered and fiddled with the hem of her knee length skirt, avoiding their gaze, “Yeah, he took me to the aquarium at the weekend and we got lunch. It’s not really serious or anything, I don’t think,”
She seemed unsure, her lips pursed together and a tiny crease between her brow he hated, and it was then Luke’s deep laugh rumbled next to them.
“Does he know that?” Luke asked, and she shot him a look, wide eyed and confused, as he cleared his throat, “I was thinking I could take you out again in that pretty red dress-”
She threw a wad of scrunched up notepaper at him, an embarrassed smile on her face as she shook her head at him, “You have spent way too much time with Penelope, you’re turning into gossiping school children,”
But she seemed happy, like the thought of the conversation she’d had with Agent Bingley made her all the more girlish herself as she giggled lightly, her gaze meeting Spencer’s empty expression. He wished he could hide his jealousy better, perhaps even seem happy for her. She deserved someone soft and saccharine and humane like Bingley, not a rough shell of what once was a brilliant man. He knew he should feel somewhat pleased for her, at least now he had empirical, hard evidence on why he couldn’t have her, but he couldn’t.
“All I’m saying, rookie, is if you got that man bringing you breakfast and sweet talking you after one date, you’ll have him wrapped around your pinky by the time he’s your boyfriend,” Luke chuckled, and Spencer thought he might just burst a vessel with how hard he clenched his jaw at that dreaded b word.
Alvez had no idea just how much he had twisted a knife in Spencer’s gut, which was plunged even further when he saw that sparkle in her eye when she looked up at him.
“Ignore him, he’s a busy body,” She chirped, her teeth peeking from her lips when she hid a grin, “You wanna get coffee later? Taylor brought me tea and I’m dying for the good stuff,”
Spencer nodded with a small smile, because her attitude was infectious, and selfishly thinking that Bingley couldn’t be that perfect for her because she only ever wanted tea when she felt sick, usually towards the start of the month that he guessed was in correlation with her menstrual cycle but would never ask. She wouldn’t want tea for another two weeks, and would likely take an extra shot in her cappuccino today because this was when she felt the most lethargic.
Swivelling back around in her chair to log onto her computer, she remained completely oblivious to his inner turmoil.
For once, Spencer wished he’d been late to work.
–
Two months. They had been dating for two fucking months. As far as Spencer could tell, from Penelope’s need to chatter about their sunshine rookie and her hot, stud muffin of a boyfriend, things had only been official for about five weeks of that time, but it hadn’t stopped Spencer from wanting to swallow glass because that would likely be less inconvenient than seeing the two of them together.
Taylor usually brought her breakfast whenever they would get back from a case, which infuriated Spencer because he always bought her tea. She was a people pleaser, Spencer knew it before he had ever thought of her as anything other than the shiny newbie with too much joy and doe eyes he’d never seen before. But now, knowing her better than anyone else in the office did because she practically shadowed his footsteps, it was blaringly obvious to him that she had either never told him she didn’t like tea first thing in the morning, or he had never bothered to take notice.
Spencer felt an odd puddle of smugness and fury when on more than one occasion he saw her pouring it down the drain, cold after sitting there for hours until it was unbearable and she couldn’t force herself to drink anymore. It was obvious to him, so why wasn’t it obvious to her own boyfriend? Spencer thought bitterly. But then Agent Bingley did leave a sour taste in his mouth these days.
Speaking of which, Spencer felt that pang in his chest the way he always did when the happy couple walked into the office together. Her hand was usually in his, though she seemed to simper under the weight of the team's glances; knowing and teasing as he’d take her to her desk and whip out the to-go pastries that he’d bought them that morning.
“Morning, Spence,” She skipped past his desk, Taylor trailing behind her like a dog, though she seemed not to mind keeping him waiting a moment as she spoke to her friend, “How was Doctor Who?”
He smiled despite his grudge, because she always remembered what he said. He’d told her once that Thursdays were his evening to watch the show, and every time Friday morning rolled around, she’d bound up to lean over his computer and ask.
“It was okay, I’m excited to see what they do with a Female Doctor, even if I’ll miss Capaldi,” He replied earnestly, and her eyes filled with glee.
“Did they give her a new one of the doo-hickies they have?” She asked, his chest butterflying with an aching sort of affection because she seemed to remember everything he ever told her.
“Sonic Screwdriver?” She nodded her head, even though Spencer knew she didn’t quite understand the show entirely, “Yeah, I prefer Sarah Jane’s Sonic Lipstick however,”
“I wish I had one of those, I could reapply and save the world, how cool would that be?” She said, and they laughed together a little, before Taylor popped his head over Spencer’s computer with that dentist white beam and his excitable eyes, bluer than any sea rolling onto shore.
“Morning, Doctor Reid,” Agent Bingley said, and the smile withered from Spencer’s face, morphing into a civil nod, his expression unreadable.
“Morning, Agent,” He said, his eyes tracking back to his screen as he suddenly found Emily’s group email about staff room fridge etiquette invigorating.
Taylor must have taken it as a sign the Doctor Reid was busy and finally let him have a minutes peace, that is until she took a seat at her desk and he leaned next to her, handing her a warm bagel.
Spencer heard them chatting for about ten minutes, of which he was trying anything to tune them out, including roping Luke into their own conversation. It wasn’t until there was a lapse in the chatter that Spencer’s ears pricked up, and he heard her stand up from her desk, eyes wide as she spat a mouthful out into a tissue.
“Does this have coconut in it?” She asked somewhat fearfully, Spencer’s head whipping around to her little corner of the bullpen. Her little self help stickers dotted around her desktop stared back at him, her reminder to ‘drink water’ almost horribly ironic the second he’d heard her question.
His stomach dropped when Taylor frowned, “Yeah, it’s coconut and raspberry, is-is that not okay?”
Spencer was quick to stand up out of his own seat, rifling through his satchel to dig out his water bottle, making it to her desk in just two long paces and handing it to her without another word as she looked up at him worriedly.
“If you need to puke, it’ll probably be for the best so that you can get the traces out of your stomach. You can’t have the steroids before you hurl or it won’t work,” He soothed, and she nodded, sipping on his water with shaky hands, and Spencer was quick to catch the way her skin had a slight sheen to it that hadn’t been there before. He put a hand on her shoulder, trying to gage if she was well enough to make it to the bathroom on her own or if he would need to drive her to the ER. Either way her expression worried him.
“I-I thought it was white chocolate,” She peeped, looking extremely sorry for herself as she dumped the chewed up brownie in her bin, and Taylor almost appeared at her side, looking entirely lost as he stroked a hand down her hair.
“Talk to me, what’s wrong?” He asked, seafoam hues trailing down her sweating face in terror.
“She’s allergic to coconut,” Spencer cut in, his tone a little harsher than needed, and her boyfriend’s expression wilted like a kicked puppy.
“Shit! You never mentioned, I’m so- I’m so sorry, honey,” Taylor went pale, and she didn’t look much better as she pushed past the two of them, heading for the bathroom, Spencer a single pace behind her.
“I got her, don’t worry,” He called over his shoulder to Agent Bingley standing there like a gaping fish, his hand running through his blonde sweep as he watched her all but running out of the office, Spencer’s long legs keeping up with her.
“Is your skin getting prickly yet?” Spencer asked. Swouldn't go into anaphylaxis, at least not as far as they knew, but the large hives that would appear on her chest and neck and the vomiting was not ideal. She kept a tray of steroids in her desk incase an accidental cross contamination happened (and because Spencer had forced her to have some on hand), but seeing her panicked eyes as she tasted the chalky fruit had made him fawn over her like she was marked for the plague.
“Neck is getting itchy,” She replied, tugging at her collar and pushing the door to the unisex bathrooms open, heading for the nearest stall, “You don’t have to stay for this bit, it’s not-”
He cut her off by sweeping her hair into a ponytail, as if to tell her to stop worrying about him, and he stroked a hand over her arm to let her know he was right there, because he knew she really hated anything gory and gross like that.
He hushed her when she’d try to apologise, hand her his bottle of water in between moments where her whole body seized.
And for a minute, she thought that Spencer might be the only person who she’d ever let see her like this. Not Luke, or Garcia and certainly not Taylor.
The thought of it kept her quiet for the rest of the morning.
-
They seemed to move past the whole debacle quickly. Luke said Taylor had taken her to a fancy restaurant uptown to apologise, making a huge point to avoid the coconut banoffee pudding like it was an explosive.
“You guys are so cute, you’re like Jane and he’s literally your Bingley. I swear your kids are going to be sweet enough I could drizzle them right next to ice cream,” Penelope said over the SUV console speaker, Spencer in the driving seat and her in the passenger, flicking through her files as they approached the victim’s house.
The rookie blanched, “Woah, woah, kids?” She protested, and even Spencer felt himself nearly swerve the minute the bubbly IT geek said it. She looked shaken, awkwardly chuckling and reaching to tuck hair behind her ear, “Slow down, Garcia, we’ve not even- you know what, I think we’re talking about the wrong thing here-“
“You’ve not even what?” Penelope burst out, her need for the lastest gossip overwhelming the reading of the room. She swallowed heavily, shifting in her seat to face out of the window, her knees touching the door with a thud, “Have you guys not had sex yet?”
“Penelope!” The woman screeched, her face hot and gobsmacked that she’d even said it out loud.
But it was telling enough, and Spencer’s face whirled over the console to her, guilt written on her features.
“I just assumed you guys had done it seeing as both of you are the hottest couple I know, I mean I wouldn’t be able to keep my hands off you if I was a guy-“ Penelope tried to save herself in the only way she knew how, by digging herself a deeper hole.
Spencer’s hand shot out for the centre screen, “We’re losing you, Garcia, you’re breaking up, bye,” He pressed the end call button, and he didn’t need to look at the girl’s face to know she was the epitome of mortified.
Spencer opened his mouth to say something, the awkward silence of the car killing him as much as he knew it was her, but he thought better of it and clamped his mouth shut. It took him a minute before he opened his mouth to speak again, if not to ask her if she wanted to stop at a drive thru for breakfast, but she beat him to it.
“I was going to say we’ve not even said I love you yet,” She murmured, keeping her body entirely swivelled away from him, her arms crossed over her chest in an attempt to make herself smaller, as if she could just smush herself into the seat so he wouldn’t say anything. She cleared her throat, scratching her wrist nervously, “But I guess that’s also true too,”
“Why not?” Her eyes snapped onto Spencer when he braved those two words, and he sensed he’d overstepped some sort of boundary before he realised it sounded like he’d been speaking about the latter, “Why haven’t you said it?” He clarified.
She went quiet, her shoulders shrugging being the only sign that she’d heard him, gaze trailing back out her window.
“He’s not said it yet either, and I don’t think I want him to. Not yet at least,” Her voice was soft, heavy as if every single one of them was coming from her heart, “Love is such a big emotion I think if he did say it, I wouldn’t know how to respond. Like, if I’m going to say it back to someone, I want to be sure I feel it otherwise it’s like I’m betraying everyone else’s version of love, you know?”
He thought she might just be an angel bottled up and thrown into his life, and he sometimes wished he could take a look inside that head of hers because how she had protected her beautiful look on the world after seeing so much hurt staggered him. He had become cruel and cold and heavy where she looked at the lecherous shithole heading for disaster they called Earth and saw right to its soul, gave it a hug, told it she would care even when no one else would.
He tore his eyes from the road, and took in the outline of her face, mindlessly watching the pedestrians on their daily commute to grab lunch, a dog peeing against a lamp post, a motorcyclist bobbing and weaving in between the midday traffic, her doe eyes never missing a trick.
Forcing his gaping expression back on the road, because he might just swerve and hit the damn rider off his bike if he let himself get lost in his little dreamscape that consisted of nothing but her and her face and her thoughts and her words, he cleared his throat, not sure how to add to the poetic, rose tint she seemed to see the world in.
“That’s good, that you’re taking things at your own pace, atleast,” He said, not particularly profound but at least it was something, “You shouldn’t do things just because someone else wants you to, even if you think it would make them happy,”
“But I like making people happy,” She countered, her expression troubled as she looked over at him with a quirked brow, “I like making you happy especially,”
“What makes you think I’m not happy?” Spencer asked, his mouth drying up, his stomach flipping in cartwheels when she giggled to herself like for once she was the smart one snd he was the one who needed teaching.
“It took you three and a half weeks to crack a smile when we first started working together,” His jaw clenched, because he was the one who counted the statistics. Perhaps he was rubbing off on her. “Honestly, I thought you hated me. I thought a seasoned agent like yourself probably would get frustrated teaching the dumb newbie the ABC’s, even ones that admire him. But then I thought, instead of getting so butt hurt about it all, I could just give you a reason to smile and you’d see that I’m not just a useless rookie learning to roll over for treats.”
Spencer’s throat bobbed. He’d hate himself forever for being so cruel to her those first few weeks, the clipped tones when she’d add something in a particularly chirpy voice, the way he would forget his manners sometimes when she’d bring him a coffee, because his head had been so deep in survival mode that being nice didn’t matter. Being nice had got him nowhere in Mexico, in fact it had shown his soft underbelly and drawn a target on it.
“I never hated you,” His voice croaked out, weak and pathetic, and it's times like that he remembered ten years ago talking to her would have made him blush, pop a boner, and lose half his IQ all in one go. Coughing, his knuckles turned white at the wheel, and he avoids her gaze that feels like a pitfall trap, “It’s difficult to go back to how you used to be when you’ve got a thousand eyes on your back waiting for you to lower your guard,”
“I know, I know that now, I jus-” She floundered, worried she’d touched a nerve, but he stopped her by leaning over the console and putting a gentle hand on her kneecap.
“Relax, I know I wasn’t the most pleasant person to be around,” Spencer said, his timbre quiet but honest, “You were one of the few things I looked forward to, if I’m honest.”
“Really?” She said, agog, like she was waiting for him to turn around and say it had been a joke, “You didn’t think I’m too loud or, like, too much?”
“How can there be too much of you? If your body wasn’t in correct proportion, your organs wouldn't function-”
“Spencer,” She said, though he knew she was smiling even without having to look, “You know that’s not what I meant,”
“I know,” He replied, a smug little smile quirking on his own lips because he loved making her happy too, “No, I could never find you too much.”
She simpered under his words, his hand a stoked flame on her skin as she brought her fingers over the top of them to squeeze them together, before she changed the subject because she knew her cheeks might just explode if they heated anymore.
–
They were back from a long case, one that had made everyone tired and grumpy, especially because they needed to swing by the office for an hour of admin even Emily couldn’t wriggle them out of.
And ofcourse, as he always was when Spencer was feeling like he was already about to strangle someone out of annoyance, Agent Bingley was right there when they entered the lobby.
She hadn’t slept well on the jet, despite Spence loaning her his jumper to use as a pillow, and she was in desperate need of coffee, the kind that Spencer and Penelope forced her to try instead of the cold caramel thing she liked. She’d even go for one of Luke’s zero sugar, zero milk atrocities right now.
“Hey guys, how was the flight?” Taylor jumped in to ask, and everyone gave some sort of variation of a groan because that was exactly how it had felt. His attention turned to her, as she pulled up the rear with Spencer attached her her hip because she had been practically sleepwalking the entire way there, “Hi honey,”
“Taylor, hi,” She said, her eyes perking up when he held out a hot take away cup for her, “You really didn’t have to,”
“Nonsense, herbal tea is supposed to alleviate headaches and help get you to sleep,” He replied, his other hand behind his back quickly whipping out to produce a bunch of flowers in front of her face.
She barely had time to flash him a grin to hide the disappointment that it was nowhere near as caffeinated as she’d like, nor that she didn’t even liked herbal tea, before a bunch of lilies were thrust her way.
“Lillies,” She said, her hand covering her chest at the touching sentiment, “Taylor, you shouldn’t have,”
“I know they’re your favourites,” The blonde replied, wrapping his arm around her shoulder and effectively putting a wall between her and Spencer, whether he meant to or not. Her expression wavered, and Spencer's eyes went straight to her, waiting for her to correct him. Because they weren’t her favourites, not even in her top five. Hyacinths were. Or Foxglove. Or Delphiniums. Not Lillies.
She nodded wordlessly, and the three of them headed for the lift, where the rest of the team held the door for them, her expression tiptoeing between guilty and smiling, Taylor’s almost ecstatic to see her after her long few days away, and Spencer’s entirely pissed off that the sun kissed jerk couldn’t see every sign blaring in his face.
“I might have to cut off the stamen when Ace comes over,” She queried, her eyes roving over the beautiful white petals opening towards her like a book.
“Ace? Who’s Ace?” He said, and Spencer and JJ exchanged a glance, because the whole elevator was now privy to their conversation as David pressed the six button. Taylor reached forward to push the three for himself.
“The dog I foster sometimes, the one I told you about. He helps me when I need to talk through some things. He’s a very good listener,,” She said with a dopey smile on her face, her eyes casting over her boyfriends face with a willing expression, because she knew for a fact she’d told him at lengths about the bouncy Spaniel that adored her, “He comes over for playdates, but the pollen inside lilies are poisonous to dogs,”
Taylor scrunched his nose up, “Ugh, I hate dogs, they’re so slobbery and the always seem to smell awful,” He commented, her face dropping the slightest in a way that made Spencer’s hand curl into a fist, because how dare Agent Bingley take that away from her, “I thought you were a cat person?”
“I like them both equally, but Ace is sweet. He curls up on my legs after we’ve gone for a walk,” Taylor still didn’t seem convinced, and she felt stupid for even mentioning it, well aware that the rest of her team were listening in on her childish description of the old dog that wanted nothing but love.
“Why do you need a dog to talk anyway, babe? You have me,” Taylor said, in a way that was supposed to sound comforting but made Spencer want to shake him and tell him to listen to a damn word she was saying. Her eyes dimmed, and she looked at the lilies again, feeling entirely ungrateful for wishing they were something else, and the elevator doors opened onto the third floor. Taylor kissed her cheek and waltzed out of the lift with a quick goodbye to her team that was returned in murmurs. Turning to look at her, his body already in the anteroom of his own floor, he smiled sweetly at her, “I love you,”
JJ and Emily whipped their heads to her face, expecting to see some kind of puppy love blossom there, only to find wide-eyed panic, her smile slowly slipping. Rossi cleared his throat when she said nothing, the air turning stale as the team waited for her response, Taylor looking at her expectantly, and she wished the ground would open up then and there to swallow her whole, because that would probably be better than whatever this was.
Tara nudged her shoulder, waking her out of her daze, Luke scratching the back of his neck awkwardly, and it was then after a beat more of silence that Taylor opened his mouth again, “Babe, did you hear what I-”
She leaned forward to press the close door button, her doe hues in full flight mode, her fingers only picking up the pace when her boyfriend took a step closer towards the elevator, and Emily brought a hand over her mouth in muffled laughter when the doors slammed shut in front of him, their sunshine rookie entirely spooked and needing a quick exit.
The tiny metal box went silent, Spencer watching her face meld from alarm to horror, to sheer embarrassment.
“I mean, I’ll give it to you kid, that’s one way to do it,” Rossi said, patting her on the back and she shoved her face in her hands, the stems of the dove white flowers brushing against her cheek roughly.
“Please tell me that didn’t just happen,” She groaned through her fingers, JJ chuckling as the doors to their own floor opened up.
“Oh honey,” She said, rubbing the girl’s back gently, leading her out onto the BAU carpet that felt harsher against the souls of her shoes than it ever had before, “I think what you need is a coffee and a long talk with someone who isn’t a dog,”
Spencer watched her shuffle to slump down behind her desk, her expression still rattled and lost, JJ’s eyes flicking to him every now and then in a way that urged him to be the one to do just that because it was obvious by now who she talked the most openly to in the office.
But by the time he’d braved walking over to her desk, she’d already rushed through her report, excusing herself home for the day, and he knew her well enough to know she needed some breathing room before he could approach the subject, otherwise she would shut the doors on him too.
He hated the spiteful part of him that revelled in Taylor’s expression when that metal screen had slammed in his face.
—
It was three days later, and she had enforced a strict ban on talking about that day in the office. For once she didn’t look like she was going to break her resolve either, since every time someone tried to weasel information of her she would either pretend she hadn’t heard, or would excuse herself to make her fifth coffee of the day, or even had thrown her paperwork on the floor when Luke had pushed her for an answer just for an excuse to avoid the topic.
In fact, Spencer himself had been tempted to get her alone because he knew she would crack without much pressure from him, though the thought of using her trusting nature against her seemed wicked, and so he stopped himself and settled for curiosity.
It wasn’t until they were away on a case and they were shoved in a room together that the subject of Taylor was even brought up, and even then it was entirely out of his control.
“I’ll take the couch,” Spencer said, his eyes falling on the double bed in the centre of the room, striding over the other side of the room to throw his to go bag down on the two seater sofa that would wreck his back.
“Don’t be silly, we can just share the bed.” She said, as if it was the most obvious solution, which it was, “I sleep talk a little, but just give me a shove and I’ll shut up,”
Spencer paused, watching her fumbling around her bag for her toothbrush and paste.
“Won’t your boyfriend mind?” He asked, his palms clammy because he worried for a moment it was wrong to bring it up, and his chest butterflied when she froze, “Sorry, I know you didn’t want to talk about it, I just thought I wouldn’t like my girlfriend sharing a bed-”
“We broke up,” She said, taking pulling a large pink shirt out her bag and some strawberry printed shorts, her toiletries stuffed in her pockets, “So don’t worry about any of that stuff, we can share,”
And she waltzed into the bathroom without any more explanation, the lock clicking behind her and leaving Spencer alone with his thoughts.
They had broken up? Was it because of what happened in the elevator? Was it because of what Penelope said in the car? Was she the one to break up with him or the other way around?
Spencer felt like a gossip, even though his thoughts had gone no further than his cranium, and by the time she emerged from the bathroom, fresh faced and in her pyjamas, he had already changed himself, tucked himself under the cover in the hope she understood they didn’t need to talk about it if she didn’t want to.
She smiled at him, tucking her dirty clothes back in her bag and heading for the bed, slipping under the plush duvet with a soft ooft.
“Light on or off?” She asked, her finger hovering over the switch beside their bed.
“On, if that’s okay?” He replied and she nodded wordlessly, shuffling down under the covers, pulling them up to just below her armpits. Crossing her arms over her stomach like she was snow white waiting to fall into a poison-laced slumber, her eyes bore holes into the ceiling, and his thoughts banged loudly against his temple. The silence of the room seemed to only turn their avoidance tactics into a cacophony they couldn’t ignore.
“If you’re going to ask questions, I might as well tell you before we get back to Quantico.” She said finally, her sigh heavy and exhausted and she looked over at him, his brunette locks splaying over the pillow in waves, his facial hair scratching against the sheet when he flicked his head over to her too.
Hazel had never been such a pretty colour than when they sat in silence for a moment, staring at one another, almost daring the other to speak first. He swallowed, his mouth watering at how she looked, tucked under the sheets, her body lax and soft under her pyjamas, her hands skimming over her stomach nervously.
“Is it because of the day in the elevator?” Spencer asked after a few minutes, breaths suddenly becoming difficult to regulate naturally unless he forced them to be, because he was so close to her under the covers, his entire body too long and gangly for just a twin bed, he could smell her shampoo and conditioning combo in full force. Her spearmint tongue rolled words around her mouth for a minute, dropping down to his Star Wars shirt he felt childish for wearing the minute he saw her looking at it.
“Kind of, he just wanted us to move so fast, it just kinda made me nervous, but I always thought being nervous was supposed to be good, you know?” She sighed, forgetting to breathe in between her splurge of words that had been building up inside her for weeks, “Like you said the feeling of excitement and fear are almost identical so I think I just convinced myself I was being dumb and I was being a bad person for not just giving him what he wanted. I’m supposed to love him, right? Being his girlfriend and all that,”
He had said that; because scientifically that was exactly correct. The hormones released during love and during fear were, down to their core, chemical matches, and it felt funny she’d remembered that fact considering she made him feel somewhere in between too. He knew she was special, just as much as he knew the idea of tainting her with his core terrified him. Like he secreted some kind of radiation that would ruin her if she got too close for too long. But he couldn’t help it. How do you stop yourself from wanting something good? It was just science. A Pavlovian response.
“You’re not supposed to do anything. There’s no timeline for how you feel, and you can’t force yourself to feel something any quicker or stronger than you do,” He said, shaking his head when she bit her lip, her fingertips playing with one another ontop of the sheets.
“He wanted to know when I was ready to have…” She swallowed, her cheeks heating, “Intimacy with him. A-and it’s not like I’ve not done it before, I had a boyfriend in high school, but I just felt like with him…”
“He didn’t pressure you, did he?” Spencer asked, his brows furrowing as he felt a surge of annoyance flash through his blood that she had wound herself up so much just because of some guy who couldn’t keep it in his pants for a few months.
Her eyes widened, taking in the storm brewing in that beautiful woodland gaze of his, and she shook her head quickly, “No, no, nothing like that. This was all on me, it was all just me being dumb,”
“You’re not being dumb just because some guy didn’t like the answer you gave,” He corrected, exhaling deeply and letting his frown drop, because he knew she hated when he did that, “Why didn’t you want to, if you don’t mind me asking?”
She shrugged, looking back up at the dusty lamp shade hanging from the ceiling, the cobwebs that smattered around the wooden panels.
“I don’t know, I just kind of never saw the two of us.. becoming intimate, you know?” She said, her tone sheepish like she was in confession and he was a priest sat on the other side of the divide. He looked over at her, scanning the outline of her face, but she seemed adamant on avoiding his gaze, because she knew she would spill everything the minute she looked at him. With Spencer, there were no secrets, and that was entirely the problem.
Spencer’s lips pursed, thinking of exactly the right thing to say to such a delicate soul when she was laying herself hypothetically bare for him.
“You don’t have to be intimate in a relationship if you don’t want to. No one who loves you should ever make you feel like there’s an expectation or like you owe them that,” Spencer explained softly, edging his pinky finger out the tiniest bit to catch the back of her hand that now lay flat on the bed, her head turning up to meet his round forest hues that looked down at her with more softness than he’d felt in a long time.
He wished he could stay here with her forever. In the quiet of this room, they were just the two of them, not Doctor Reid and the Special Agent he had a huge hopeless crush on that was years his junior and thought she could fix everything wrong with the world.
“I know,” She sighs, and his heart caught in his throat when her pinky raises up to meet his own, the tips of their fingers brushing against one another like they were meeting each other for a slow dance. He had touched her many times before, but there was something illicit about this time. Like their skin had become oppositely charged and was pulling the other one in with an electric crackle, “He never pressured me but I felt like I could have tried harder to want it.”
“If you don’t want it, you don’t ever have to have it. A lot of people reach your age when your frontal cortex is developed and realise they might be asexual, it’s not a bad thing-” He tried reassuring her, but she was quick to shake her head again, bashfully ripping her eyes away from him to look at their caressing fingertips.
“No, no. It’s not that I never want to be intimate ever, I just never really felt comfortable around him enough to let myself want it. Like I couldn’t just be me with him, I was just being what he wanted me to be. Like he never really knew the real me,” She explained, and she rolled over onto her side to face him, her other finger coming up to absentmindedly trace over the prominent vein that ran up his arm, stopping just below where his old needle scars were at the crook of his elbow. If she saw them, she didn’t say a word, but Spencer felt like she was trailing a flame over his skin. He thought if she took his manhood in her hand she’d probably get the exact same response from him, because with every invisible swirl and line she drew over his skin, he felt a heat ripping through his loins. “Does that make sense? Like I didn’t think he would like the ikky parts of me so I ended up putting on a charade,”
“Y-yeah,” He replied, and his stammer made her look up, eyes wide and innocent as she watched him all but falling apart under a single fingertip. God he was pathetic. Mid thirties and nearly finishing in his boxers over a pretty girl touching his arm. Only it wasn’t just a pretty girl. It was her. His sunshine girl. “But I don’t think you have any ikky parts, to be honest,”
Her eyes deepened into pools of awe, and he watched her trail a glance down his nose to his mouth vulnerably.
“Spencer, you’re being too kind,” She whispered, and he swore his chest lurched.
He cleared his throat, and moved to roll over towards her too, hoping to disperse some of the energy that was clogging between them, only for it to become dialled to a hundred, trapping them in a tiny box where they were looking at one another, laying on the bed they were being forced to share and almost holding hands, because committing to full thing was scary like they were ten years old in a playground.
“Of course that makes sense. It’s much healthier to form intimate relationships with people we trust and feel safe with than rushing into things,” Spencer tried to breeze past the tension, but her breath was fanning over his face, almost tripping him over his words, because she was still looking at him like he knew all the answers. Because he usually did. Except for this time. This time, he felt like he was walking blind towards his point, “Not that one night stands should be shamed or anything, but it’s much better to engage in sexual intercourse with someone when it feels right,”
She breathed out deeply, licking her lips, and her finger movements stopped.
“So it’s just a when you know, you know, kind of thing?” She asked, her brows pulling together in a saddened frown, “I’m not, like, broken or anything?”
He sat up on his elbow, grabbing her wrist tight enough she would listen the minute he said it to her, because he never wanted to hear her say that again, “There is nothing wrong with you, you hear me?” She looked up at him with glassy eyes, wide and shocked to see him so desperately insistent over her, “You feeling secure is more important than any guy out there, no matter how nice they are, got it?”
She nodded after a beat, because she thought her brain might have stopped working with the way he was leaned over her, looking down at her with a glimmer of the harshness he’d been drowning in when she first met him. These days he seemed to have mellowed out the tiniest bit, except the straightforward tone he held with everyone else who wasn’t her, or the general heavy handedness he didn’t seem to realise he was capable of. Like in the way his warm, rough hands gripped the skin of her wrist, his expression somewhat frustrated though not with her as he looked down at where she was half beneath him.
“Spence?” She whispered into the electricity between them, her eyes trailing over his nose again and ghosting over his half attempt at facial hair. They were just whisps, but they suited him embarrassingly well. He didn’t reply, just stared at her to wait for her response, “I feel safe with you, you know that?”
He swore his heart was thumping out of his chest. She looked divine under his hand, sweet like a pudding begging him to taste, and he couldn’t help it when his thumb trailed up the side of her jaw, brushing just under her bottom lip, and she seemed to press herself further into his touch, a cat being scratched behind velvet ears.
“You’d tell me if you ever wanted me to stop, wouldn’t you?” He murmured, gooseflesh crawling up his arm when she nodded, her eyes boring holes into his soul when she looked up at him like that.
“Always,” She answered honestly, blinking at him once, twice, before she took a deep breath for courage, “But what if I never wanted you to stop?”
Spencer nearly moaned when he crashed their lips together, and he heard her squeak in delight beneath him, his large hand cupping her jaw, weaving into her hair, tugging her closer. She felt like her was consuming her whole, and she had no qualms about it, not when she reached a hand up to his shoulder and tugged him even more on top of her, the weight of him on her chest comforting and achingly right.
He pulled away to breathe for a moment, but she was chasing his lips, her touch maddening and he swore his brain switched off when she ran a hand up his spine, slipping under his shirt and tracing over every one of his vertebrae making him shiver. Her lips were stronger than any craving he had ever felt, the instant dopamine rush embarrassing for a man of his age, so hardened by the world reduced to putty, ready to beg for more because now he’d had a taste of her ambrosia, he didn’t think he could ever think straight again. A man sent crazy by forbidden wine.
He pushed her hair away from her face, using his long fingers to wrap around the back of her head and pull her impossibly closer to him, his other arm skirting down to her clothed waist and pressing their bodies together. She whined in his mouth, and Spencer thought he could finally die happy.
He pulled away to let her catch a gasp, her fingers carding through his long, brown curls, scratching against his scalp in a way that drew a low growl from his throat. He needed more, needed her, more than the air he gulped down ravenously and he found himself kissing at her soft neck, her head tipped back in bliss as he kissed every inch he could.
“The reason I didn’t want it with Taylor,” She choked between manic breaths, her hands holding onto him so tight he knew she didn’t have any intention of asking him to stop, “Was because it didn’t feel like this,”
Spencer wove their fingers together, pushing her hand above her head as the other came up to tilt her face towards him, looking into her bleary eyes for a second, their noses ghosting past one another, her mint breath delicious on his lips.
“It never feels like this, baby,” He whispered, their foreheads pressing together before he gave into her again and pressed his lips against hers so hard she whimpered into his mouth.