am i more than you bargained for yet?

Drew Hollingsworth. Tell them all that I'm a work in progress.

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

Sloane followed him, side by side till they touched the grass. Laying in his arms felt perfect, almost like a puzzle piece. As soon as Drew started telling her about his feelings she was at first shocked, drew talk about emotions? Very rare. But then her second emotion was happiness, she thought as tears weld in her eyes. Finally she turned her chin up to him and let out a deep breath. Maybe it was because their past, “you’re drunk drew” she stated. It was hard to trust him again, especially with their feelings towards one another. All she wanted to do was kiss him and tell him she loves him back, but Sloane was just too… scared. “We were together for a long time I know it’s a lot ..”

The pair shouldn’t work. In fact, there were about a million reasons why they were better staying apart. But none of that mattered to Drew; did it to her? His breathing is slow and deliberate, and his once drunkenness is now a thin veil of tipsy at most. His confession was well thought out, months of secrets buried deep finally floating around in the sky and his heart dropped a bit when she turned up to look at him. Drunk? That was all his confession brought to her? He shook his head, avoiding her gaze. “No, I’m not, actually. But even if I were, drunk words are sober thoughts.” He pointed out, reminding her that his feelings wouldn’t change regardless. “I know we were, and quite frankly, we should still be together.”

[drewhollings]

clydesfm​:

drewhollings​:

clydesfm​:

Drew is bad at letting go, it doesn’t take an Einstein to see that. He’s dominant and controlling, needing to be the alpha in every situation. But with Clyde, that’s different. Sure, he usually likes to be the one in control, but he doesn’t mind when things switch up on occasion. He feels safe with Clyde in a way he doesn’t fully know how to describe, but it feels good all the same. As Clyde begins working his hardening member, Drew lets out a loud groan, thankful for the thick walls of the dorm keeping their secrets hidden. It just feels so good when Clyde is touching him, and he yearns to be touched more; harder, faster, longer, by Clyde. Drew kicks off his own pants and boxers as Clyde brings them down, smirking as the other eggs him on. He knows just what to say to get a rise out of Drew, and Drew quickly responds by rolling them over so he’s on top after feeling Clyde rub his own erection into Drew’s thigh. Both of them are topless now and Drew is groaning at the missing contact left when he loses Clyde’s lips on his bare chest. He quickly follows suit and kisses Clyde deeply, pushing Clyde’s pants down quickly and leaving him lying there in only his underwear. “Oh, I will make you. You know I always do...” He hums with a smirk, kissing down to Clyde’s neck and leaving deep bruises and welts in the skin. “But you haven’t asked nicely, babe... Tell me what you want.” Drew demands, bucking his erection into the other’s, grinding teasingly, slowly.

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

Sloane knew she should probably let go of his hand and walk on her own, but she felt so safe, secure even. Which is normally the total opposite of how she feels around him. Hearing his thoughts on the place they’d adventure to she agreed with a nod, “Yeah, that seems fun” she informed him, trying to be nonchalant about the whole thing. She started walking in the direction of the tall grass field the two have been to in the past. Walking along the path her mind was racing, she didn’t know what to say to him, “Is this weird?” that was not what she should’ve said.

The world is safe, if only for a moment, when his hand is in hers. It’s scary, sure, but it’s also comforting. He needs to be close to her, and her hand in his is the first step. As she agreed to his suggestion, he returned a wide smile as they walked across the campus until they reached somewhere a bit more secluded. Somewhere that was their, and theirs alone. The grass field welcomed them as they sank into the crass. As they began to get comfortable, his arms outstretched for her. Drew shook his head, “It’s not weird.” He promised, nuzzling his face into her neck. “You.. you should know. I can’t live without you. You’re so special to me. I’ve never stopped loving you. I’m--I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said that... but I can’t help it. I love you so much. I always have. I know I get scared, but you’re the only person I feel safe around. You’re my person.”

[maycanady]

“Call Me Maybe” was my jam when I was little. I made up this whole dance just to crack my mom up. All I remember is it involved a lot of spinning, and rump shaking.

LOVE, VICTOR Season 1, Episode 3 “Battle of the Bands”

[drewhollings]

oddballperse​:

the blush that crept across his face was something that he couldn’t control. the idea of drew thinking about him at all hours of the day, made percy inexplicably happy. drew just knew exactly what to say to him to get a reaction out of him, he didn’t mind at all though, he knew the other liked seeing his reactions. his body went lax as drew’s hands tightened on his waist and his mouth traced it’s way up and down his neck. “i missed you so much,” he said softly, his hand finding it’s way into the man’s hair. drew spoke, and a shiver made it’s way down percy’s spine, “i’m yours, you know that.”

Something about Percy was special. It didn’t take much to see that. He was himself; self assured in ways Drew both parts envied and admired. Drew sucked softly into the other’s skin, leaving light bruises as his hands roamed a bit on his back, raking his nails down his skin. “You better be.” He whispered, lips finally finding the other’s mouth as he moaned, relishing the contact. “I want you so fucking bad.” He whispered, sucking on Percy’s bottom lip. “Softly, slowly, passionately- and for hours. I wanna make you feel good, baby.” He gently began grounding his hips into Percy’s, gingerly circling them as he felt himself began to harden. “Tell me what you want, love.”

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

Hearing Drew say he only wanted to be with her made her heart flutter. She tried not to think about it too much seeing as she assumed it was just one of his little games like usual. “Okay” staying with a roll of her eyes. Looking around the party she could tell people were starting to leave, she figured as it was getting into the early hours of the next day. “Where do you want to go?” Sloane asked looking up at him. Thinking for a moment she stuck her hand out for him to grasp, “come on” was all she said starting to walk.

For a moment, things felt normal between them. Good, even. Maybe the moment was all they needed; a step in the right direction. He happily laced their fingers together, grabbing her hand quickly as he thought about where they could go. He gave her hand a gentle squeeze, things seemingly fitting together and not hurting as much when they were holding hands. It felt right, like it was the only thing holding the fabrics of the world together- so he didn’t dare let go. “I know it sounds cheesy, but do you wanna just go lie in the grass outside and look at the stars?” Drew suggested as they began walking outside.

[drewhollings]

clydesfm​:

The walls of their room are filled with whispered desires, sweet nothings, and a fair share of moans. They hold their deepest secrets, things they would never share with anyone outside of his room. It’s a sacred space, one reserved for only those worthy of his time, for which Clyde is definitely one of. Clyde is different than most of the people he sleeps with, or Hell, even spends time with. He’s brash, unapologetic, and often full of himself. But Drew knows another side of him; a sweeter side, one that’s caring and ever feeling. Someone passionate, someone kind. Drew’s hands roam on his backside, palming at the surface as his hands dip underneath the back of his shirt. As the other leans down, Drew passionately returns the kiss, moaning into his neck at the contact. He feels what can only be described as electricity as their lips connect, his manhood beginning to harden at the contact as he slide his tongue into Clyde’s mouth. He presses it roughly into his, kissing him hard as he returns the words, “I want you.” He repeats, hands settling on Clyde’s ass finally as he squeezes it above him. “Beg for it.”

[slosage]

I don’t hate you

No, I couldn’t if I wanted to

I just hate all the hurt that you’ve put me through

And that I blame myself for letting you 

Did you know I already know?

@drewhollings

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

Listening to his explanation it was exactly what she thought it would be. A lot of words, together sounded like something, something important and something loving, but in fact they were just that. A string of words. It was Drew once again not knowing what he wanted, he only knew he wanted his cake and to eat it too. Just nodding along with him she slid out of his arm and backed away a little. “You know what, sure. We can be friends Drew” Sloane said, not actually meaning it, but it was better than going over the same conversation they just had. “I’ll let you get back to them” she said nodding her head over to the girls and boys he was with before, “I’m sure they miss you. Go ahead” crossing her arms. 

Drew was bad with relationships, and even worse with feelings. But he wanted to be better for her, wanted to give her what she needed and deserved. It was just... hard. He let out a sigh, he didn’t just want to be ‘friends’. It was a cop out, something he offered just to be close to her- not really what he wanted. “No.” He admitted finally, shaking his head. “I don’t want to go anywhere.” He whispered, hands finding his pockets as he fidgeted, thinking hard. “I just want to be with you, be around you. Fuck, I don’t know. Just... come, sit with me, have a drink, talk- anything.”

[drewhollings]

oddballperse​:

oddball felt himself blush at the question, “ just because it’s how it normally goes, doesn’t mean that it’s not a surprise to get pinned against a door as a greeting.” they two of them were something when they were together. they were rough, leaving bruises and scratches, or they were soft, gentle kisses and loving whispers. that’s what made them.. well them. he couldn’t help the soft sigh that left his mouth as he felt drew’s hands against his skin, letting himself be led to the bed and watching the other make himself comfortable he knew he was happier in this moment than he had been in a while. following drew’s lead he laid down close enough that he was almost completely on top of him, “how was your day handsome?”

Drew is broken down to nothing when Percy is around; it’s almost embarrassing. “I think you like this greeting... Knowing how bad I want you, how much I think of you, all day long...” His tone is teasing., but his words hold truth; he’s always on Drew’s mind. Damn Percy, wedging his way into his thoughts. Not that he minds, though, but he does like to tease. As the two of them got settled on his bed, Drew’s hands found his way tightly around Percy’s waist, pulling him the rest of the way on top of him. “It was fine. Better now that you’re here.” He whispered, kissing his way down Percy’s neck, “I missed you.” He admitted softly, lips finding Percy’s earlobe and sucking gently. “And I want you.”

[drewhollings]

TEXT TO: CHARLOTTE

charlotte: i’m fine

charlotte: well as fine as i could be, given the situation

charlotte: thank you drew

charlotte: i could always use some company though

Drew: you're stronger than you get credit for. you're a trooper; I'm glad you're doing okay, char. even though I know you're not really 'okay'.

Drew: no need to thank me. I'm just so glad you're okay.

Drew: I'll be there in fifteen. do you need anything?

[drewhollings]

TEXT TO: CHARLOTTE

Drew: holy shit, I just heard about what happened.

Drew: what do you need? I'm here for you, for whatever you need; I'm so sorry this happened to you.

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

Sloane carefully watched his movements, when he wrapped his arm around her she froze. She didn’t know what to do, should she push him away or slap him. But instead she just allowed it to happen, she didn’t move a muscle. Looking up at him she raised her shoulders a bit, “So?” she asked, mainly because she had no idea what to say to him right now. She didn’t know what she wanted, this was something she was not expecting to happen at all. “What does that mean Drew…” looking around for a second. “I don’t know what to say” she said honestly, normally she would come up with a witty comeback or something… anything, but right now she couldn’t think of anything else.

Things with Sloane were complicated; it didn’t take an Einstein to see that. It was a tense situation all together, but Drew had to admit that it felt good to be honest with her, for the first time in what felt like forever. He had been hiding his feelings for her all of this time, focusing on pushing her away but he didn’t want to do that anymore. He bit the inside of his lip as thought about what to say next, his lips pressing into a hard line as he looked down at her. “I don’t know, Slo. I don’t know what this means or what this is.... or where to go from here. It’s confusing and complicated but maybe that’s okay. Maybe the unknown is okay, even though it’s scary. I don’t need any lifetime commitments, I just want to figure this out with you. What’re you thinking?”

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

Him saying he didn’t leave her made a chuckle, “I’m sorry broke up with me, does that sound better to you?” she asked him rhetorically. When he stepped closer to her their closeness started making her heart race. It did not matter how they ended, it was why and still to this day Sloane didn’t know why it ended. All she had was her own assumptions, she knew Drew went through a lot, and with her past she knows how hard it is to let people in, but she thought they were strong enough together to not have those issues anymore. Hearing him speak again Sloane stood there and just listened to him, was he lying? Was he telling the truth? She never knew what was honest. “Drew, you’ve been with almost everyone at school, so I don’t think the whole you only want me thing is true” shaking her head. Hearing his next words made her heart feel like it was melting. With a shrug, “But that must have not been enough” her voice broke. 

The one thing in the world that was constant for Drew was Sloane. She was always there. No matter what time of night, no matter where he was; she was there, ready to help. She made him better, she took care of him, and she was his person. Maybe that’s what hurt most of all; losing his person. “No, it doesn’t sound better.” He admitted softly, hardly loud enough for her to hear it. It was complicated, their worlds overlapping and colliding. But it didn’t matter to Drew, he loved her all the same. No matter how much he tired to hide it, he couldn’t forget her. “I don’t care who I sleep with.” He spoke finally, a dry laugh escaping his parted lips. “You’re the only person I’ve ever loved.” He closed the gap between them, arms snaking around her waist gently, pulling her in. “I want you... and nothing but you.”

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

“You left me” she said, her voice getting a bit louder. Sloane wiped the few tears off her face and looked back up at him. She didn’t know why he thought she could just be friends with him or let everything go, all the bad things that happened between them. “It is killing me. It has been killing me Drew” she started, walking closer to him, “But I can’t just stand around and be your friend and let you do whatever with whoever… I can’t handle that” her voice still raised. Sloane stood there for a moment, not caring the tears were falling from her eyes, “I loved you so much and you left me. How do you expect me to just be… fine?” she asked, genuinely wondering what he wanted from her and how she was going to do that.

Things with Drew and Sloane were messy and complicated, but they were always worth it. Drew fondly remembered a time when things were steady with her, when the world was normal and things seemed okay. But now, they had fallen apart, and were thrown off kilter. Nothing he couldn’t fix, though, that much he was confident in. “I didn’t leave you!” He protested, his insecurities bubbling to the surface. God, he was an idiot. Who breaks up with someone because they’re scared things will go south? Who ends things when they’re good? Drew, that’s who. A secured love was never in his cards before Sloane, he just wasn’t used to being cared for. She changed everything, and he pushed her away so when she eventually left him, it wouldn’t hurt as much. It was stupid, but it was too late to say that now. “I don’t wanna do anything with anyone but you.” He admitted finally, his eyes growing foggy and heavy, but he didn’t want to cry. “I have loved you every day since I first laid eyes on you, Sloane. You are the only person I’ve ever loved.” He let out breathlessly, stepping towards her carefully.

[drewhollings]

slosage​:

Once their eyes met each other again she took a deep breath in, holding it for a while. “No” she started with a gulp, “We can’t hold onto it a bit longer and I can’t be your friend Drew” Sloane said, her voice quit and weak. She felt the treble in her body, feeling it come up to her eyes. “Obviously it doesn’t bother you, and obviously you don’t care. But I do, and I can’t handle that, and you can not get mad at me for that” tears now filling her eyes, she knew she couldn’t hold it back anymore. Sloane finally tore her eyes away from him, “I’ll just stay away from you” still not looking at the boy.

Drew almost couldn’t believe what he was hearing. How could he not care? After all they had been through; the promises, the whispered confessions, and love that they shared. Sloane got him to open up like no one else ever had, didn’t that mean something to her, too? His stomach dropped, his eyes once more returning to the ground as she spoke. He was usually good with words, but he didn’t know what to say. His brain was searching for answers, searching for anything. “No.” He whispered, shaking his head finally. “No, you don’t get to do that. You can’t just leave.” He protested, voice still small- meek, even. “You know that I care, you know I do. Don’t stand there and act like this isn’t killing you, too, Slo.”

[drewhollings]

clydesfm​:

                their eyes meet and he knows exactly what drews thinking. he knows that look, he’s seen it a thousand times. it scares him how quickly he wants to give in, this all started out as way for both of them to blow off steam, something easy that never went beyond the four walls of their bedroom. now he’s beginning to need this, it happens more frequently and they’re talking     he might even consider him a friend. clyde should probably put a stop to it now, go to bed and ignore andrew’s antics. he doesn’t. with a surprising amount of coordination he makes his way over to his roomate, leaning over him, he smiles, “ correction. you’re always getting into trouble. luckily for you i’m always there to bail you out. ” his hand is on drew’s chest, it trembles a little but he decides to blame that on the weed. slowly he glides it up his body until it lands on his neck. “ are you ever gonna repay me for that ? ” 

Things with almost everyone Drew were... complicated, to say the least. But with Clyde, things made sense. They fit together- they were there for each other in a way he wasn’t with almost anyone else. With Clyde, he felt safe, for the first time in what felt like forever. Drew hums as Clyde approaches him, a cheeky grin stretching at his bright, sometimes boyish features. The room lights up with the sparkle of his teeth, a laugh rolling off his tongue. “As long as we’re in trouble together, I don’t care what happens.” He muses with yet another laugh, arms finally wrapping around Clyde’s middle, pulling him close. “Repay you?” He questions with a smirk, lips finding the boy’s neck softly, leaving teasing marks and bites into his ivory skin. “How ever can I find a way to do that...?” He questions, though they both already know the answer.