The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul

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if you told me a few months ago

that i would be holding the tiny hand of my Chinese friend

and crying as we're driving through a neonlit city

because she needs to go into work and i don't want to say goodbye

i would say "you jest bruh" praise God fr

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I ❤️ Brother Francis

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One of the undying Russian meme classics, most extraordinary, in approximate translation.

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It is in my half empty room when I am most grateful to have an eloquent body.

To have been taught the very ancient ways of expression, the most universal medium.

Finding the golden ratio, a bewitching proportion between functionality and aesthetics. Form and substance, finally united.

Movement doesn't flow quite like it does when I'm alone, dancing.

And sometimes, I wish I could just…

Outperform my body itself, cause it to stretch and twist in ways that go far beyond the healthy possibilities. The bones, the muscles, the tendons. I would like for it all to break like the fragile shell that it is, to release the colorful flow of energy into the world, and be one with it.

It's funny how physical us humans are.

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in my room writing

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One of my friends does tarot readings and, being the mystic that I am, I asked her to decipher for me my "major arcana" — The Hanged Man.

Serving others, the community

Looking for different perspectives

Trusting the flow, letting go of control (me when I'm a determinist)

Gaining deep knowledge (me when I'm a scholar)

Self sacrifice, pain (no comment)

Patience + resilience

I wanna say I very much identify with it!

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I'll be thinking "yes I'm so good" and then BAAAMMM I have this internal wave of hatred and desire to slap someone in the face for disturbing my comfort

But God loves me so much and I love him and I know he appreciates the effort, so I'll just chant until I feel better

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I don't want a macho macho man

I need a matcha matcha man

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We fell in love hard in the context of total obliterating impossibility and it's almost agonizing enough to make me write languid bittersweet yearning poetry

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Bro ii love being a woman, thank GOD I'm a woman....... While I really love men, it's just different. And I love the fact that we are different.

I'd elaborate but probably I'm not in the right headspace rn

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Did you know that...

...miracles do happen here, under the sun?

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my therapist says I'm too smart to feel. I should relax and connect with my body to actually know what I need.

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I SSHOULD NOT HAVE GONE ON TUMBLR TODAY

but, I think I got what I wanted

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This bitch so desperate she's literally going to take the last name of a fictional character just to separate from her family at least symbolically

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I wish I could just romanticize everything like a normal girl would do, without feeling utterly dumb