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I need to be passed around by several Yamato's, he is the only man I'll ever love

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the worst thing about loving Malenia and Miquella is trying to tell whether or not I’m looking at a post loving their sibling bond or fantasizing about sibling fucking.

further more is haligtwins a ship name or like the name just used to refer to them both bc I think it’s just a way to refer to them both without spelling out both their names but idk…..

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I JUST THOUGHT IF SOMETHING

SOMEBODY please draw Wolhye in this I need it BAD

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Fast pass spoilers for 125

Wolhye attempting to be the dad that stepped up and failing miserably holy shit 😭😭😭

also did shit just cut the shit outta Snake? Why?? And she just returned from overseas? What was she doing? Literally what could’ve prompted her to attack Snake instead???? And that’s her name right? I’m not getting it wrong? The freaky little nightmares 2 teacher girl but like 80% more freak and 20% more hot

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“Strange warmth to her” girl that’s the lingering heat from the pits of hell she crawled from RUN AWAY NOWWW😭😭😭✌️✌️

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Glad to know will is doing good….. 😭😭😭😭

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Bloodborne things I’ve drawn usually during my bio or study hall

Chromebook quality makes it really hard to see the details so I guess a fair bit on that but the general shapes are there

most of these have a reference behind them. The pale moon pretense's face is easy but it’s body……….

one day I’ll draw them in an original pose some day.

there are more but these are the ones I’m more confident in, by that I mean you look at them and don’t think “wow what kind of dumb fuck thought that X guy looked like that?????”

okay I’ll add more drawings later I have another pale moon presence I’m working on rn and some pics of others on work sheets I turned in

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Anyone else getting little nightmares 2 flashbacks from the fast pass cuz I am 🥲

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Hand jumper spoiler👈👈👈👈👈👈👈

even the Godling was like “ok ok ur gay as shit just tell her bru 🙄🙄🙄”

I seriously have so many questions now but bc it’s fast pass I can’t rlly ask them

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OOHH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY FODDDDDDDDDDDD

BLOODBORNE MOVIE?!?!!!!!!!!🎦

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Time to share the random thoughts I have when I’m low on sleep with the worst head ach of my life do you guys know that meme where it’s like “I’m slowly forgetting your face” I was imagining that but with Sara, Samin, and Sayeon Lee but like instead of Samin being sad abt forgetting Sara it goes all like “I’m slowly seeing your face again” or some stupid shit and it’s sayeon ya get? Arm (am*) I articulating this right? I need tizanidine right now

This is orally (probably* how did I fuck that up so bad) the dumbest shit I’ve ever written but I’ll probably fall asleep the and forget it anywhs (anyways* obviously)

On a related note do any of u now how to get rid of a muscle knot in ru next (in ur neck* i think it’s actually in my back) or whatever. It’s killing me it makes my eye ball feel bad. It’s always in the same place but I’m not able to JUSG (just* I miss spell this so often it autocorrects to the wrong spelling) stop looking down I sgot (I got* stop complaining lil bro) school work bro I gotta do shit I think I’ll come back tomorrow n fix the spelling mistakes that autocorrect didn’t catch goodnight

i have returned and for history’s sake I’m gonna put corrections in () cuz I think it’s a little bit funny

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Ryujin and her 6th sense for devil pacts good ess i love it

I am so tired I just woke up from a nap that lasted a few hours it’s currently 9 pm

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when a big life event is coming up (graduation) and your family says you can take a trip to some place of your choosing but every day after telling them where you want to go you get hounded with:

“how about we go to DC instead?”

“maybe consider (place that they’ve wanted to go to) instead”

“are you sure? Maybe think of some alternatives we can choose instead like (place they’ve always wanted to go)”

just a whole lotta “actually I know you said you want to go there and we said you can go somewhere of your choosing but actually we are going to make it so we go to somewhere of our choosing instead.” And I don’t wanna get hit with that guilt you get when disagreeing with your parents bc I know they’ll be disappointed if I say “no, I really want to go here instead”

how do I soft launch the idea that no, I don’t want to go to your favorite national park, museum, city, state, or whatever I want to go where I want to go and you just have to deal with the fact that it doesn’t align with somewhere you want to go

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how do you fight off the urge to kill yourself when the hope is that you’ll come back as somebody completely different and be able to relive all the prior years.

I don’t want to kill myself because my life is bad. I want to kill myself because I know what a good life is and I’m not sure that’s what my future will be like that too. I’m not that strong mentally or physically so I guess the thought of things being worse just scares me a lot and it seems like the world just started shitting itself the moment I turned 18. It’s like it wants me gone

idk I get really depressed at night so I’ll probably feel better in the morning but if you do find this and have advice then maybe share it cuz there’s always going to be people who need it I guess

it only been like an hour or something but I have something to add on. If your sad think about how scp 173 originally had his ding a ling out

Imagine trying to Survive that thing but it’s literally swinging free in your peripheral

I wonder if they removed that little tidbit because they knew everybody would focus on its little scp hanging out for the world to see

I say this because it made me laugh and I felt better. It kinda broke that cycle that tik tok likes to try and trap me in. It shows me a sad video, I get emotional and zone out, it shows me more because it thinks I liked it, spiral. Or worse yet I watch a true crime video and tik tok goes “oh? You liked that? So you want to hear about EVERY true crime case ever? Pictures included?” And once again, spiral but anxiety instead. I think I just need perpetual distractions. Like a joke or some one talking where I can let my mind repeat the words they say instead of letting it say whatever the fuck it likes yknow.

It’s like a train. If it’s on the track it’s guided and chances are you aren’t gonna die unless something goes really wrong. If they train is off the tracks you’re probably hurtling off a cliff to an untimely demise.

Speaking of distractions it’s quite dark and my mind is trying to convince me I see movement and that someone broke in so I should try to go to bed before the anxiety sets in. Yall ever have your tinnitus calm down when you’re scared? Like I feel like I hear more clearly when I’m scared. Which sucks because I could hear my self breath and it would freak me out. This is off topic good night

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Jax feeling 1/100000000th of the pain Gangle feels

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yall dont get how important DICE is to me

if your pregame fic doesn’t have DICE it’s dogsit

if your post game fic doesn’t have DICE it’s dogshit

if your AU doesn’t have DICE, you get the idea

god FORBID you say DICE never even EXISTED that’s an actual stain on your character, that is a moral and ethical FLAW within you

They are PRECIOUS to the utmost degree and are a shoe in when you want a little found family

All jokes

for the most part……..

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why does everybody kiss Urbains ass like wdym “He’s not team MZs leader for nothing!” He literally is. The reason he is Team MZs leader is because he got on the train first. All he did was book the first hotel room. That literally why. Because if it was strength based I woulda been made team MZs leader by rank Y. Like “oh we’re on equal ground because we’re both rank A now” we literally aren’t. You’ve been leading that team longer than I’ve been here and I, in matter of DAYS, as a new pokemon trainer rose to rank A BEFORE YOU. Your bitch ass couldn’t even DREAM of being on my level which is evidenced by how I beat your ass until you and your pokemon were 6 feet under.

He loses and then bitches and whines until he gets his way like grow up dude get a hold of yourself. Why couldn’t he just fall out of the tower and die. Hes a bitch for no reason and he doesn’t even see it, he thinks he’s hot shit when that mf ain’t even cold piss 😭😭✌️✌️

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Someone else HAS to feel the same as me

Anyone else get unnaturally uncomfortable with dating in games????

Like 2 characters dating is fine, I’m a shipper myself but when it’s ME? When they’re attracted to me and the decisions IM MAKING??? HELL NAH 😭😭😭😭

I restarted my Baldurs Gate 3 playthrough because I was scared I was accidentally romancing Shadowheart. Mind you I don’t know if I was or wasn’t but even the mildest prospect of a character representing me being in a relationship feels gross like I don’t like that stop it 💔💔

and I can barely watch that date everything game cuz I just can’t separate myself from the character you play and that’s the only way I can get myself to feel comfortable with romance directed at “me” is if I’m seeing it through the eyes of another character who isn’t me so really I’m not the one receiving THEY are and I’m just like a creepy invisible third wheel

(on the topic of date everything I would like it to be known that I DONT hate it. I think it’s beautiful and the art is wonderful and the execution is great. My gripes have nothing to do with the game itself just my own problems that I am making very well known right now)

maybes because I’m aromantic? At least I assume so but there’s no way to really “confirm” that until I 1. Get interested in someone or 2. Die. So I think I’ll just assume until that day either comes or doesn’t come. (Really that’s how you confirm most things isn’t it? Either thing happens or it doesn’t and it reaches a point where it can never happen)

back to the original question. Why am I such a bitch baby who hates the idea of having romance directed at me 😭

I just felt like talking abt something tbh and this was the first thing that came to mind because I was like “oh lol I would be a freak for her, I’d bark like a dog” and then I realized I’m just fucking LYING all the time because no I wouldn’t in the furthest from freak you can get

and it ain’t no “ohh im so unloved im not use to it” bullshit either, I’m not troubled in the slightest. Family isn’t hurting for money or hurting me my parents are good and so are my friends. I’m perfectly loved as I am and I know that and don’t feel any differently or that I’m “not deserving of love” or some shit like that it just genuinely feels gross.

like stepping on a bug with your bare foot gross.

or finding a hair that isn’t yours in you bite of food gross

The being crop dusted on your way down the stairs kind of gross

the kind of gross that makes me want to crawl out of my skin and scratch until it’s red and raw because it feels so wrong, borderline painful actually. As I write this portion I have to drag the arch of my foot down a rough surface to to relieve the gross feeling I got from just comparing it to stepping on a bug 😭

I think I have mental problems