22M my online experience on this fetish
(Long time lurker, first post. Sorry if I have any spelling or grammar mistakes, English is not my first language :-) )
I just wanted to share my experience, regarding the world of feederism, especially in death feederism.
I have this fetish since a very long time, infact my trigger point of it were old cartoons, where certain episodes where shown which involved weight gain or fat in general.
As time moved on, I not only discovered porn in this scene but also places like this, where people share their experiences, which actually drove me crazy and hit me like a train, as I was pretty ashamed of it, because of the stigmatization by soceity.
I always had a guilty and shameful feeling while browsing this whole fetish, but one day, I had a major breaking point: I just did not care, what soceity have told me to do, and lived out my own desires. I started to masturbate to the content, which I consumed, and since then I have been fucking addicted.
I just love to look at beautiful women who just eat a ton of (mostly) unhealthy food, have huge enormous bellys / tits covered in stretchmarks and just live like the laziest pigs ever, not moving at all.
While browsing and masturbating, I noticed one thing: The fact that the more I explored the fetish, the more turned on I got by the extreme site of it. One very big factor was the quarantine in 2020: During this time, I found out about a certain Filipino woman, who was doing a stuffing challenge for 30 days, and gained an insane 50 pounds, and also continoued to stuff herself to the brim with the help of her feeder! (You know exactly, who I am referring to, it was just so fucking erotic and addicting to watch her grow in real time ;) ) The following timeline shows which aspects I found very erotic during my "exploration":
It started with stuffing content
then got to eating messily
then to really unhealthy food like McDonalds, Dunkin etc.
then to rapid weight gain
then to live as lazy and sloppy as posible (not moving in days, room not cleaned, full of empty fast food wrappers)
then to health issues and unhealthy weight gain
And last but not least, the thought of pumping someone with so much fast food for such a long time, that the person dies...
While typing this out and getting a huge boner, I realized what I have become: A crazy fucking pervert, that needs to masturbate everyday to women, which just waste away their precious time by living an insane unhealthy and hedonistic but addicting livestyle and actually killing themselfs knowingly. And the worst part?
I don't want to be the one to stop this, quite the opposite: I want to be the one who actively supports you in this extremely disturbing yet erotic plan, and makes sure you experience maximum pleasure while we gradually fatten you up until you have that one major cardiac episode.
Now that I think about it, it’s kind of weird that I’m so deeply involved in this kind of stuff. Outside of all this, I’m doing really well in my economics studies, surrounded by a great group of friends who see me as extremely kind and sweet. But here, I’m a completely different person and you know what? I love every single morbid aspect of it!
To put it simply: My DMs are wide open, and I am open to chat about this fetish (with both feedees and feeders)!
TL;DR: 22M found out about this fetish, got hooked and got addicted to the morbid aspects of this kink over the years, My DMs are widely open to chat about this fetish