i figured it out...

i want you here with me. like how i pictured it. so i don't have to keep imagining. Kay. 20. xoxo

[duchessofhoran]

When are you writing next?

Um, on this account? Probably never. I just became GM at my job and I work 40+ hours a week and I don't have much time to keep up with writing. :(

I do have a fic on Wattpad which I update when I can. It's a Niall fic if you want to check it out. You can find it here.

[kayyy1140]

It’s been said before, and it will be said again; life never turns out the way you expect it to. Is it because fate i…

I’m working on a new fic. Yall please check it out! It’s going to be a good one, I feel like.

[duchessofhoran]

That wiki tracklist for the 1D album is 100% fake, btw. But yall just keep be gullible.

[duchessofhoran]

You had met years ago back in your hometown. Instant attraction lead you to romance. He was your everything from day one. But neither of you could have imagined the direction your lives would go. After he and the band made it big, you were for sure your little romance would end. But it didn't. Actually, it got better. Sure, you'd have to go months at a time without seeing each other, but he'd do anything to make up for it. He'd fly ten thousand planes if it meant he could see your beautiful smile. He did everything he possibly could to make sure you knew how much he loved you. You didn't think you deserved any of it. To you, you were only one girl in his world. But to him, you were the only girl in the world. Why? Because you were there before the fame. You held his hand through the nerves and the fear. You're love for him never faltered, and he was forever grateful for that. 

[duchessofhoran]

Could you write a One Direction Preference where he wakes you up in the middle of the night because he doesn't feel good

Sure. Added to my very short list! 

[duchessofhoran]

blurb or preference where you guys have been dating since before the band and are still dating now? Pretty please? :)

Certainly dear! But which band? 

[duchessofhoran]

Suppose I'm taking preferences or imagine requests for the first time in forever.

Inbox is here. 

Annnnnd... go! 

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[craicthatniall]

interviewer: Are there scents that remind you of home or make you feel happy in some other way?

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[craicthatniall]

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the boys lending niall a hand

[duchessofhoran]

I literally have like 7 unfinished fanfics, and I love them all so much and I want to finish at least one of them, but which one?! UGHHHH,

[duchessofhoran]

"Are You The One?" Chapter Nine

(After a loooong delay, "Are You The One?" is back! If you read it before, I'm sorry for the wait, and if you're just now checking it out, I hope you like it.Check out previous chapters here.)

LA was amazing. We were always going out to eat or checking out the scene. It was a great experience.

But it was awkward. Luke still was kind of avoiding me, and Michael and I never got any alone time to try out this "dating" game that we had labeled ourselves with.

We'd been in LA for almost two weeks before Michael and I got to have another "date." He'd kicked Calum out and invited me over to their hotel room. I was sort of nervous, because this would be our first time hanging out on another... level of sorts?

I mean, I wasn't going to go over here and straight up fuck the guy or anything, and I knew he wouldn't try anything because Ashton would kill him if he did. But this was Michael. He'd been my cousin's best friend for so long, and that's all he was to me. Until now.

And I thought he could be the one. He was the only one that made sense in my mind. But this whole time it's just felt... forced with him. Like how hard we had to try to set up a date. Or the time we went out to eat and he tried to hold my hand. It just didn't feel right. If this was my soulmate, it would feel different, wouldn't it? It would feel natural. Real.

I had to give it a shot though. He was my only option at this point. Niall was still in the UK, and I hadn't even really gotten to know him, outside our few text conversations. And Luke... I wasn't sure what it was with him. He didn't seem like he wanted anything to do with me or this whole perfect match business, and I really couldn't blame him for that.

So when Michael texted me and let me know that Calum had left, I took a deep breath and walked the short distance down the hallway, and knocked on the door with an open mind.

"Hi Mils!" he smiled as soon as he opened the door.

I walked into the room. "Hi," I replied, and gave him a quick hug.

"So I thought, maybe we could just chill out. Watch a movie or something, order some food. We go out every other night, I thought we could just stay in for once."

I flopped down on his bed. "Sounds good."

"Cool! So what do you want to watch? You want to find something on the TV while I order something to eat?"

"Uh... sure. As long as you don't mind some corny comedy," I laughed.

"Whatever you want to watch is fine," he replied, picking up the phone.

I flipped through the selection of movies on the TV while he ordered room service, finally landing on 'Not Another Teen Movie.'

"Oh, I love this movie!" he exclaimed as the begging credits rolled.

"Me too, it's hilarious."

"Good choice Millie," he said, sitting down beside of me.

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By the end of the movie, all the food was eaten, there were tears rolling out of my eyes from laughter, and I was cuddled up to Michael. And it felt nice, but I didn't have butterflies or anything... Weren't there suppose to be butterflies?

The movie concluded with the popular guy getting the nerdy girl in the end, and they were in love and it was a happy ending. I felt a pang of jealous. Why couldn't my love life be a funny teen angst movie?

Michael sighed after his final laugh attack from the movie and shifted me slightly to sit up. "That was too funny."

"It was."

"Okay, Millie, what's wrong?"

I frowned. "What do you mean? Nothing's wrong."

"You just... I don't know. You see weird, like being with me is awkward for you."

"Mikey," I sat up. "It's not that being with you is awkward. It's not you at all. I just... this soulmate thing... I want it to be you so badly, because that would be the easiest choice. But I just don't feel a spark. I don't know much about love, but are you suppose to feel something?"

"I don't know," he admitted, and stood up. I watched as he run his fingers through his hair and paced the length of the room a few time.

"Kiss me," he said, turning towards me.

"What?"

"Kiss me. You want sparks. I want to know if I'm wasting my time or not. So kiss me."

"How is a kiss suppose to..."

"Millie," he interrupted. "Kiss me."

He sat down in front of me and leaned forward, his eyes never leaving mine. I slowly moved forward until my lips met his. My stomach jumped, preparing for the butterflies.

But... nothing. No butterflies. No fireworks. My heart didn't skip a beat, I didn't lose my breath. It was just a kiss. I pulled away.

"So?" he asked.

I shook my head. "Nothing. You?"

"I don't think so."

I sighed. "This doesn't make any since though! Like, my head says it's you Mikey, it really does. But my heart..."

"...your heart wants someone else."

"Yeah."

The tears involuntarily started to fall from my frustration. This meant I had to start all over again.

"Hey, don't cry now. You'll find him," Michael comforted, wrapping an arm around me. "At least it's down to two now."

"I know. It's just so hard. And I feel like I've strung you along and I'm so sorry Mikey. I really am."

"Hey, no hard feelings. We tried and it didn't work. I knew what I was getting into. It's fine Mils, I'm not mad."

"Thank you," I mumbled, wiping my face.

"You're welcome," he smiled. He stood up and pulled me to my feet, giving me a short hug.

"I guess I'm gonna go back to my room. Figure out what to do next," I said.

He walked me to the door even though it was just a few steps away. "It'll be worth it in the end Amelia," he said as he opened the door.

"God, I hope so. Cause this feeling sucks."

We said our goodbyes and I walked back down to Ashton and my room. I unlocked the door.

Ashton jumped up as soon as he saw my red eyes.

"You were right, it's not Micheal," I sniffled.

He had me in his arms in an instant. "Aw babygirl," he whispered as he tried to console me.

"What do I do now Ash? I'm back to square one," I cried.

I was afraid he'd say "I told you so," but he didn't. "You've just got to move on and try again."

"What if I don't want to?"

"Well that's up to you, Millie. But you know the stakes."

"Give up now, lose him forever?"

"Could be."

"I hate my life," I frowned and flopped into my bed.

"No you don't. You'll get through this, you know that. And you'll come out on the other side with the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with. That's got to count for something, right?"

"I guess..."

"So, what now. Talk to Luke? Talk to Niall? What?"

"I don't know, Ash!" I groaned. "One day at a time, okay? One day at a time."

[duchessofhoran]

I Was Gone For A Minute But Now I'm Home

I'M BACKKKKKKKKKK! (For a bit, at least.)

And and AND! Drumroll please...

I'M GONNA FINISH "ARE YOU THE ONE?"

Yay!

Catch up here, and a new chapter will be posted tomorrow!

If you're not familiar with AYTO, it's sort of based off the MTV show with the same name, in which a girl knows her soulmate is very close to her, but she has no idea how to figure out who it is. I hope you check it out! xo

[duchessofhoran]

So I'm writing a new fanfic and it's going to be on Wattpad if any of yall still care.

[duchessofhoran]

I miss this blog and I miss writing and it makes me quite sad. :(