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pls PLS PLS dont report my account. this is all i have left from past 2-3years since i deleted all my old photos and things 1,5years ago from my phone. literally everything. SO PLEASE JUST BLOCK if you dont wanna see my content. it works as an reminder how i made it out of my mentally abusing relationship and well i have my diary posts n w/o them i wouldnt remember what ive been doin back then.

I DONT SUPPORT EATING DISORDERS. THEY ARE NOT COOL. this is just my place to vent n maybe it works as a mental support for some of you. god i wish all my followers r atleast alive since it has been a long time. better yet i hope they have recovered❤️‍🩹

cursesandcrows

Me for the last 15 years: im a bit burnt out rn but im sure next week will be different

22.1.2026

started medication that can make me gain weight. im screamin. i have to start eating less.

and i have gained weight. i saw the numbers on scale on my doc appointment. im screamin more.

#a4a vent #a4a thoughts

lovem3tender

What it feels like coming on here as a person with an ed but no self control

neeeeooowww

Fuck, I'm going to make myself better... Even if it kills me.

I want to wear my skinny clothes again.

cureofwellness

✨ reblog if ✨

You have an eating disorder but it doesn’t look like you do.

r0ttingballet

“Was that your stomach rumbling? I thought you said you weren’t hungry?”

dumbbichalertt

BULIMIA SHIT PART 2

it wasnt worth all the meals “i didnt gain weight from” because i purged. it wasnt worth gettin rid of “the feelin of bein full”. it wasnt worth it to live with this shit for 7 years because guess what? my weight i lost didnt come from purgin my food. i worked out n tried to eat healthy. i never lost weight purging. ever.

bulimia has cost me four teeth im never gettin back. maybe fake teeth to replace them but they cost thousands n i dont have money for it.

they were supposed to remove only one but the other one next to it was too fucked up to fix so they had to remove that one too. other two just fell off in tiny pieces over the years. missin teeth wasnt the only thing bulimia gave me. i was in mental hospital two years ago where i was just throwin up n not feelin good at all. i had temporary kidney failure. good thing is it was “only” temporary but if i wouldnt have happened to be in mental hospital at that time nobody probably wouldnt have noticed it and i dont know where i would be right now.

i know ed is hard. i know how it is feelin too full or even full at all. purging is legit addiction and very hard to get rid of. but please try. im still fightin with the thoughts n it actually gives me anxiety even thinkin abt not purgin ever again but im fighting. for the 25 teeth i still have left.

dumbbichalertt

just gonna repost to remind everyone! my front teeth got so ugly i always laughed with hand in front of my mouth FOR YEARS! a week ago i had them fixed n i couldnt be happier

dumbbichalertt

i wish i could shout this out loud like the girl in "When the Fat Girl Gets Skinny" did

I WAS ONLY 13 YEARS OLD BACK THEN. I WAS ALREADY BULLIED AND CUTTING MYSELF. I HATED MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE. THEN A GIRL I GOT FRIENDS WITH SHOWED ME HER EATING DISORDER INSTAGRAM ACCOUNT. I HAD NO IDEA WHAT EATING DISORDER WAS BEFORE THAT. I WAS ONLY 13 YEARS OLD AND ALREADY LIVING IN HELL AND SHE KNEW IT. SHE DIDN'T TELL ME "DON'T DO THIS. DON'T START LOSING WEIGHT". SHE SHOWED ME TIPS. DIETS. SHE HELPED ME TO MAKE EATING DISORDER ACCOUNT ON INSTAGRAM. SHE DIDN'T SAY "YOU SHOULDN'T DO THIS". SHE DIDN'T STOP ME. WHY THE FUCK YOU DIDN'T STOP? WHY YOU SHOWED ME SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND COURAGED ME TO DO IT? I LEARNED HOW TO PURGE. I LEARNED TO SIT IN ICE COLD TUB. I WRAPPED PLASTIC AROUND MY STOMACH OVER NIGHT. THOSE DOESN'T EVEN WORK. I STILL REMEMBER THAT DONUT I SAID "NO" TO WHEN I WAS 14 YEARS OLD. I REMEMBER ONE OF THE GIRLS AT SCHOOL SAYING TO ME "YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING AND NOT GAIN WEIGHT". I PURGED. SO MANY YEARS. SO MANY MEALS. SO MANY WHITE LIES WHY I WENT TO BATHROOM RIGHT AFTER LUNCH AT SCHOOL. I GET THAT SHE WAS SICK BUT SHOWING THAT TO 13 YEARS OLD LITTLE GIRL KNOWING WHAT DAMAGE EATING DISORDER DOES? WHAT. THE. FUCK.

I'M STILL HERE ALMOST 8 YEARS AND 4 MISSING TEETH LATER. I. AM. STILL. HERE.

dumbbichalertt

old post but.. 12 years later I AM STILL HERE.