Tw heavy vent
When I tell you how fucking angry I am at this goddamn system dude, I cannot express the hatred I have for them. I made this vent account because I genuinely need an outlet to post about this and a safe space. I have support of people I can talk to but when I tell you it is hard for me it to talk about to anyone because of being shut down, I have been keeping it in and letting it fester.
This vent is directed to a certain system and non the less a person in that system I once dated. I adored him, I loved him and hell I still fucking do. Everytime I would mention the fucking hell he would put me through these fucking assholes would brush me off when this motherfucker R word me MULTIPLE TIMES AND PHYSCILLY HURT ME. They NEVER take accountability for hurting people and would push me aside when I needed to talk about it but no, they never and will never take responsibility for their fucking actions. I don’t hate people, that’s not my thing but when I tell you I have so much ill intention for these fuckers I really fucking mean it and I don’t wish that shit upon anyone, not even people in my past. It’s that they continuously hurt people I care about and abuse my loved ones and have with me for to god damn long. I’m so fucking sick of it. I’m sick of them and I truly, undoubtedly hate their guts.Â
The fact due is people have sided with them, people I cared about and could confine and trust but yet they still are wrapped around their finger. To only discover they are just as shitty and I truly cannot fathom this shit. I have hospitalized myself due to these events they have put me through on top of other shit, KNOWINGLY AND KNOWING MY PAST WITH SA. So dear system, I, with every fiber in my being, HATE YOU and every single headmate in your system. I truly and sincerely would like every single one of you to have every bad karma your way and shit crashes down to you that you loose every person you claim to give a shit about.Â
sincerely, choke.
-HostÂ
PS: Ash has lovely things to share here and I am so grateful to allow her to have this outlet