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my other blog got terminated, so if you knew starvingperfectionn, this is me now 🍄

#anorexia #eating disorder #not pro ana #bulimia

“Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, coupled with no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hating socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It’s feeling everything at once, yet being paralyzingly numb.”

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Thinking about how I literally haven’t spoken out loud in weeks bc I have no friends at college. My best friend moved in with her boyfriend and ditched me here alone and never speaks to me anymore

#depression #anxiety #lonliness #mental illness #eating disorder

Absolutely no hate to those that do, but I will never, ever, ever interact with posts like this. This is what it means to be “pro ana,” not just documenting your thoughts and feelings on tumblr.

#anorexia #bulimia #disordered eating #eating disorder #ana #mia #depression #anxiety

desultory-suggestions

Practicing self discipline should be rewarding, not painful, scary, or upsetting.

It’s crazy knowing that I was never even supposed to be at my sw. It was just a product of overeating and poor eating habits. Once I lost all that weight and started eating normally again, I didn’t gain any of it back! In fact, I lost a couple more pounds and then stayed there!

#I should also point out that I am now at the same weight as every other woman in my family #anorexia #bulimia #disordered eating #eating disorder #depression #anxiety #mia #ana

problematicpastries

it’s only hormones and water retention

it’s only hormones and water reten-

AHHH FUCK PERIODS

dummyguts

omg same! I keep weighing myself to see if the number has changed

it’s crazy how mean some of your friends can be after you lose weight and how much nicer your family becomes

#anorexia #bulimia #eating disorder #weight loss #ana #mia #depression #anxiety

I’m so excited to come home for Christmas break and restart my diet!! Just thankful I didn’t gain the freshman 15 :)

#anorexia #bulimia #eating disorder #16:8 diet #ana #Mia #depression #anxiety

I have really bad androphobia and it sucks. It has recently gotten worse due to something that happened last week and now I have been suffering constant panic attacks.

I skip my classes because I’m too scared to leave my dorm and walk there by myself. I hyperventilate on the walk home because sometimes I pass by a man when no one is around. I don’t even feel safe when I’m in my dorm with the door locked.

I wish I knew how to make this go away. I know, I know, not all men are inherently bad or out to get me. I just don’t know which ones, so my brain makes me afraid of every single one I come across and I can’t make it stop

#androphobia #fear of men #anxiety #panic attacks #childhood trauma #depression #college

Moved into my college dorm today!! I’m so nervous

#anorexia #bulimia #eating disorder

After awhile, not eating becomes so easy. I just fast for 24 hours and didn’t even notice

#anorexia #bulimia #eating disorder #anxiety #thinspo #fasting #depression