Eternal Sunshine

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You keep using that word

I do not think it means what you think it means

[dxsturbia]

Even if it is true, relapses happen

She warned you. She stopped drinking and she was very very very, very, very very petite for the alcohol.

I want you to understand that I’ve been through this before I’m not behaving the same way before, but it’s still appropriate

Sit down and leave her alone unless you have stated an intervention yourself and know her personally

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‎أنائيس Aɳαïʂ 𓁿‎ (@anais_anais__anais) on Threads

The CPTSD urge to go back in time and break your abuser’s jaw.

So real

[dxsturbia]

I hate cerebral palsy

OK, bye

[dxsturbia]

Whatever it is until I hear it through the 16th circuit court of Jackson County I don’t care

A stalker is going to kill me whatever wouldn’t be the first time

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Not hating petal

Especially the video

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They’re great for big flies

I don’t know what to do. I can’t sit here until all these turn into adults. I feel fucking disgusting.

I’ve been ordering out so much because I just don’t want to be here let alone try to cook in this 

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I don’t know if they’re coming from the shower drain or the kitchen sink or Diana’s plants

Apple cider vinegar isn’t doing shit light traps aren’t doing shit

It seems to be concentrated around in and around the kitchen

I pour bleach and boiling water down the sink. I disinfected everything.

[dxsturbia]

OK, well so far you’ve taken absolutely no action to prove to me that I’m not right so what does it matter?

[dxsturbia]

Sir listen, OK the world has rules

And sometimes those get broken, and there is very much system for dealing with that

that doesn’t have to include any genuine crime

Because the problem can be resolved before it gets to a point where that’s at all needed and state law federal law do not interact very often

So at the state level, criminal charges wouldn’t be pressed anyway

Which you bring us back to a civil case between the property manager and me

Because again I’m not dealing I don’t have narcotics on me that I wasn’t prescribed and build my insurance for on time

And in fact, not even because I haven’t needed to refill the prescription

[dxsturbia]

And you know what the reason why it didn’t happen could’ve been avoided all altogether by not driving me completely insane

I actually have no idea what you said, but OK

[dxsturbia]

And I’ll spend my

Whole life time with your life line

Wrapped around my throat

Thanks to you

All thanks to you

[dxsturbia]

We could be a story

In the mourning

But we’ll be a legend tonight

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OMG I forgot Ivan Sergei was on here too

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I used to love this little Bud Light Rita’s because I could buy like a case over the holiday or whatever and get really really fucked up for a couple days

And no one would have to notice

There was a long time where my dad was too busy trying to be cool notice or maybe he knew and empathized a little too much

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Oh no, I absolutely hate going to the liquor store, but I would prefer going to the grocery store and trying to get to Price shopper or the gas station

And I know that the more cashiers get to know me less I will be carded but I wish I wasn’t there so often I wish it was something like wine

I used to get away with hard liquor because I would get really fucked up and get it out of my system

I was getting high and you didn’t have to acknowledge that it was me

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It doesn’t work like that you don’t get an academically inclined child and also get to exploit their ignorance

I knew I was looking at. I knew what I was hearing by the time I was nine and from that moment, on I had to choose not to take it personally

But it’s not possible

You chose the hospital on purpose you chose the name on purpose. You treat me the way you do on purpose.

And you are absolutely deplorable for this deplorable Rebecca