Skinny-lil-thing

This is my venting spot, where I put all my thoughts and feelings, occasionally advice. I DONT PROMOTE ANA, Pro recovery. Be safe ✨ Depop:luxymason. Height: 5’2 CW 48kg GW 40 UGW:34 be safe ✨

[avpd-chekov]

don’t you just love how mental disorders are basically buy one get seven free

[cestnepasuneblog]

I didn’t even really want the first one my mum made me buy it

[dorky-lesbian]

Mine’s a family heirloom, passed down through generations

[homunculus-argument]

mental illness in a nutshell

[snapshotsofpsychosis]

literally anyone: are you ok?

me: you mean like your standards ok or my standards ok

[bagofbones6]

reblog if one or more apply to you 🐥

🍃you have an eating disorder

🍃you feel lonely and sad

🍃you feel the need to be your old self again

🍃actually you don’t want to reblog it because these things are silly

🍃you need to sleep

🍃you are hungry right now

🍃you are over 13

🍃you do not promote any mental ilness/eating disorder

🍃you’d help a person who needs help/suicidal

🍃you are bored

ana buddies, anyone?

[killingmyselftobeskinny]

I feel fatter than ever

[dyingtodisappear]

I need a vacation from my mind and body

[dyingtodisappear]

Everyday I say today is going to be better, that today is going to be a good day.

And

Everyday is a waste of energy, everyday is more disappointing than the last, everyday sucks more than the last

I’m hanging on by a thread and maybe just maybe, it’s time to let go.

[dyingtodisappear]

I feel like a ghost, I’m neither dead nor alive.

I just exist in between.

[dyingtodisappear]

In the real world I’m that girl that doesn’t eat, the girl who goes to therapy, the girl that’s falling apart.

But

On here, I fit in, I feel safe - comforted by the fact that I’m not alone, on here people feel the way I do, and I don’t feel so crazy anymore

I don’t know if I should be a comforted by this as much as I am, or if I’m even more broken than I thought.

[dyingtodisappear]

forever standing up too fast and traveling to another dimension so hard you have to blink really fast to land back on earth.

[dyingtodisappear]

My days lately feel so long, I exist from one day to another barely accomplishing anything.

My lack of sleep make things feel so much longer and tedious. I feel like I’m walking though sludge. My mind is a muddle.

Each day is more disappointing than the last but I don’t have the energy to die.

I’m just existing.

[dyingtodisappear]

I’m so tired right now. I’m tired of breathing. I’m tired of surviving.

I just want to stop.

[dyingtodisappear]

I love my dog so much, it’s like she has super spidey senses and knows exactly when I’m about to go off the deep end.

It’s like she knows I’m super upset and liable to do something fucking stupid so she just sits on me, gives me cuddles and demands so much damn attention that I can’t do something stupid.

She also reminds me that I’d be leaving her behind if I was to do it and I couldn’t do that.

[bastille]

゜・。。・゜☆゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜

nobody hates me more than i hate me 

゜・。。・゜☆゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜☆ ゜・。。・゜

[dyingtodisappear]

My mind goes in overdrive a lot like it just can’t stop thinking. It jumps from one thing to another, so erratically I can’t keep up and the thing is nothing makes sense.

When my mind gets like this, my skin gets itchy like I need to do something and I don’t know what it is, I have this dire need to something, anything if it’ll calm my brain but nothing does.

This can last for a day, a few days, a week, a month and the entire time I just can’t think and I still have to pretend to be okay, pretend that I’m coping, but really my thoughts are drowning me.

[dyingtodisappear]

Ramblings

I feel like one of those old abandoned, crumbling houses. Y’know the kind you cross the road to ignore because they’re ugly and they make you feel kinda sad.

I feel exactly like that, I mean someone could make that house nicer by doing it up a little, painting it, fixing it, but it’s not really worth it because that house will still be ugly and sad looking. It’s not worth the effort.

You might as well knock down the old house, make it go away, one less ugly thing, in this sad world.

[dyingtodisappear]

Omg you will be dead if you hit your ugw you know right? Please choose a safer ugw like 36 or 38 and stay safe. I didnt mean to be rude ı’m sorry if ı seem like it and also sorry for my bad english.

hi hunny, your english is fine! I know my ugw is low but I don’t really care about living much anymore, maybe I’ll stop once I hit 36? Thank you for caring though! Stay safe 💕💕

[adisorderedpersonality-blog]

Does anyone else forget that mental illness symptoms aren’t normal? Like, most people don’t want to kill themselves constantly??? That’s so weird.