♔ Hell's Perpetual Fires ♔

     ☽  Independent  ➠ Selective  ➠ Original Lore Dual Muse  ☾ 

[e0nian]

Ffff, I apologize for the sudden lapse in activity.  The ball dropped on something big, and my sister and I are going through more than we’re used to because of it.  I won’t go into details for your sakes and mine, but I also won’t downplay the gravity of the situation right now.  You won’t be hearing about it again, so don’t worry; I’m not interested in adding any unnecessary negativity to your dashes! I just want y’all to know that I’m fine, and I’m going to be fine, so there’s no need to worry!  But you should also know that I have no indication of what’s going to happen with my situation for the next few months.  However, I don’t think this will affect my activity directly-- at least not for a while!  I still want to write, but my inspiration will probably be... well, not great.  So please be patient with me if my writing is especially inelegant for the next while.  I’m mostly just going to focus on getting content out there and interacting with you guys.  Thank you for being patient with me. <3  EDIT: Huehue Welp  I seem to have lied The big sad has motivation on the low, so I’ll be switching to low activity for a while.  I shall keep you updated to any further activity changes!  Thank you for bearing with me, all!  ( I’ll switch this with an official rules/muses info post when my activity becomes more steady.  In the meantime, info on my two muses can be found here (Sariel) and here (Gabriel) for those new to my blog. <3 )

[quotemadness]

“I felt a tremendous distance between myself and everything real.”

— Hunter S. Thompson

[e0nian]

UUum Ghost do you even still write it's been like weeks?? Why yes I do, in fact you can find me more active over here--

[e0nian]

UUum Ghost do you even still write it's been like weeks?? Why yes I do, in fact you can find me more active over here--

[saintweaver]

Henry Miller, Tropic of Capricorn

[valtsv]

two characters fighting? nice. two characters flirting? also nice. but two characters flirting while fighting (other people or each other)? *chef’s kiss* fucking transcendent

[academi-aesthetics]

I linger in the madness of what could never be.

[flowerytale]

Clarice Lispector — Água Viva

[draculasswife-deactivated202212]

Dark academia aesthetic.

[king]

[drgkitten]

via pinterest

[sweetoothgirl]

Amaretto Crepes with Grapefruit Mimosas

[montanamiracle]

You want to know what it’s like writing an original character who is a female? 

This is the first ever piece of hate I’ve received and since then it’s only grown.

This is what it’s like writing a female muse in a roleplay fandom, especially a female OC.  Everyday many of us are bombarded with anonymous hate calling our muses sluts and whores for wanting to ship something.  We’re told that’s all we want to write and shamed for it, and yet when we try to write something platonic, adventurous, or something aside from romance, we’re laughed at because our muses aren’t strong enough to do it.  

As female OC’s we do our best and try to find people who will love our muse as much as we do to little or no avail because there is always something new or better that comes up.  We never complain or say anything because we don’t want to be a bother.  We don’t want to show any emotion because it will only worsen the stigma around us.  

Female OC writers are ridiculed for coming up with a character we love and questioned why we’d even do so when no one wants to interact with us, and yet when a male character has a similar story or does a similar plot they’re applauded and cherished.  

As female OC’s we have to constantly keep our page looking up to date and spectacular.  Our icons need to be flashy and perfect, our writing small and bold, and our homepage more graphic than most people are capable.  If we do not do things no one will even look at us.  

It’s constantly worrying about saying the wrong thing, about not getting too excited if romance does come our muse’s way.  It’s about always having to triple check and wonder if we should reblog the NSFW meme then trying to gather enough courage to face the hate we know we’ll get.  It’s worrying constantly about whether or not you can get excited about anything because you don’t want to seem annoying.  It’s debating for hours to post a headcanon you were once really excited about, but you’re unsure if anyone actually cares.  It’s waiting weeks to receive one meme.  It’s watching people you admire never answer yours despite your mutual status.  

Day after day we log on and wonder how much we can express our muse.  It’s wondering if we should even say anything at all because we know how much the RP world hates female oc’s and we don’t want to give anyone else a reason to.  It’s watching your other female oc’s struggle with the exact same problem.  It’s every single day wondering if you should just give up on your muse that you worked so hard to create.

We give more than we receive, and we’ve had to learn how to be okay with that because let’s face it we know how to because it’s an issue in the real world too.

So here’s to our strong women in the RPC, muse and mun.  I see you all.  I support you all. 

[jaanjahan]

listen: love as religion

crush by richard siken / false god by taylor swift / sappho / intimacy by angelica alzona / red white and royal blue by casey mcquiston / take me to church by hozier / les misérables by victor hugo / crush by richard siken / miss right by bts / a torch against the night by sabaa tahir

[thegirlthatcriesacademia]

Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

[magicalnaturetour]

[quartzprinz]

Hall of the Dragon Mist by ~Suirebit :)

[draculasswife-deactivated202212]

Dark fashion.