call me catacomb. they/them. a personal blog about dealing with paraphilic disorder. my main paras are anthropophagy, somnophilia, hematolagnia, piquerism, and necrophilia, but i have a lot. i am aroace and do not typically experience any of my paraphilias in a sexual fashion, but more in a way of expressing platonic love and adoration, though it can be sexual. i experience my anthropophagy in a sexual way almost entirely. im anti-contact for myself unless i can do it safely and consensually. i mainly write out my paras in fanfiction, both in sexual/fetishizing lights and not. i am a survivor of csa and do not want pedos/maps/aam people interacting directly via dms or asks, likes and rbs are fine. im not gonna bother with a full dni list because i dont plan on getting into discourse or anything like that. i am autistic and schizophrenic, as well as a narc (npd + hpd). i am physically disabled. i am bipoc. i am queer, trans, and intersex. i can reclaim the words freak, schizo, faggot, tranny, yandere, psycho and probably more i cant think of (feel free to send para asks calling me some of these if you can reclaim them too). dont start discourse on my posts. if you have evidence of something that is bad that i am supporting or commenting on in a positive light, or vice versa, please send it through asks/reblog my post about it with the evidence and i will review it and get back to you asap. i am plural and some headmates will talk here. if you find my main, no you didnt. i think thats it. welcome to my minds catacomb.
i love you pedophiles who use online spaces to redirect your urges. the internet is not a safe space and you should be allowed to use it for whatever you need. other people need to realize this and understand that there is going to be community overlap between everything imaginable because we are intersectional beings. also, thought crimes are not real and having sexual urges about anything is inherently morally neutral
I think hearing âoh baby youâre so pathetic taking me like thisâ as Iâm being touched and stretched with a strap would fix me
On my back, rolling my hips in time with their thrusts. My eyes rolling back into my head as Iâm being pounded and theyâre hands rub all along my body.
Just the light humiliation/degradation as Iâm being fucked into oblivion ahh fuck <3
Maybe they pin my hands above my head and they go faster, my pathetic little whines and huffs as Iâm being dicked down.
âWhat a goody puppy taking the strap awwwâ
âYour moans are so cute, baby.. do you feel good, huh? Do I make you feel soooo good?â
Hold me down and make me cum over and over again. I don't care if I'm writhing and crying about it being too much. I can cum again and again and again, I just need someone to force me to.
actually getting pregnant? no. bad. awful. I do NOT want that!!
having them grunt in your ear how they're going to knock you the fuck up like the worthless breeding bitch you are while they pound you into the mattress before cumming deep inside of you? YES. YESYESYESYESYESYES. LITERALLY NOTHING BETTER. YESSSSS. THE BEST. YES PLEASE!!!
i cannot stop thinking about roughhousing. i want tickling and laughing that turns into wrestling that gets a little more serious and heated, until one of us is pinned down, both breathing hard and making out and thighs pressed in between each others legs and hickeys and bite marks all over and trying so hard not to be the one that cums first and failing, ending up getting fucked hard by the winner until youâre so drunk on all your orgasms you couldnât fight back if you tried
Being dragged out to a rowdy concert at some underground bar, everyoneâs drinking and shoving each other and thereâs so many flashing lights. Itâs actually kind of hard to think, the music is so loud. But his hand never leaving yours, dragging you through the crowd, dancing with you, screaming at the top of your lungs to a song you know donât even know the lyrics too.
And then making out in the bathroom. Graffiti walls and dull lighting, the music a soft thud outside the door now and being hoisted up on the sink.
âWhat are you doing?â
âIâm gonna suck your dick, dude. Donât worry Iâm good at this.â
âOh uhâŠI actually have a lot of dysphoria about my cunt and being eaten out-â
âWhatâd you just call it? I know you werenât referring to your cock as a cunt.â
Pants already around your ankles and heâs spanking the spot between your legs.
âWhat is this?â
âDude come on, you know itâs a pus-fuck! Stop hitting that!â
âNo. What the fuck is between your legs?â Hand already raised to swat down again.
âI..itâs my cock.â
âGood boy. Now Iâm gonna suck your cock, okay? Can you ask me to suck you off?â
woke up with a feral need to be held down and have my tdick and cunt inspected before being stretched out and knotted, latex gloves still playing with my tdick no matter how much i whine and squirm, intentionally being edged and denied just so they can feel my cunt throb and clench helplessly, just how much can i take?
I need him to tie me down completely and make me watch all kinds of porn. Heâll put on whatever he wants, and observe my cunt getting wetter when he puts on something I like. Heâll laugh and tease me about how wet I get over whatever Iâm watching. Call me pathetic because âreally? THIS is what you get off too? Wow, you really are just a dirty, depraved little pervert, arenât you?â
Heâll stick his fingers in me and touch me up to different videos, and see when I moan the most. Heâll force me to act out certain scenes to see which ones I like most.
âReally? this is what you like, puppy?â
But heâll wait until Iâm dripping down my thighs to flip me over, spank my hole and absolutely ravage me from behind.
Pro tip: if you rail your puppyboy from behind and put a hand on his lower stomach, you'll hear the most desperate pathetic noises you've ever heard (bonus points if you tease them about how you're going to fill their little tummy with puppies)