LONE HUMAN / LOYAL WOLF.

that feeling ... that was worth it. there's a lunar eclipse. i always wondered what .. what that felt like for one of us.

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okay found my email for this blog trying to find the email for an entirely different blog. henlo. maybe....... expect a reappearance here sometime soon ‘cause i’d die for vernon milton boyd iv any day, thank you.

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Did you love Erica?

LOVE;  noun.   1.  a strong feeling of affection. 2.  a great interest and pleasure in something. 

you’ve  always  been  good  at  studying,  at  books  rather  than  people.  erica  reyes  was  something  new,  someone  he  never  expected  to  have  his  life.   she’s  an  anomaly,   she’s  someone  different,  someone  beautiful  (  inside  &  out.  you  wonder  if  she  knows  that.  you  know  she  doesn’t.  ).  she’s  a  fighter  who’s  been  beaten  down  her  whole  life,  she’s  someone  you’d  die  for.  she’s  someone  you’d  run  for  (  and  you  did,  and  you  would  again.  ).

 she  holds  your  hand  when  you  feel  them  start  to  shake,  she  tells  you  to  run  when  she’s  got  arrows  piercing  her  skin,  she  leaps  toward  kali  &  her  last  word  is  your  name  (  it  echoes  in  your  mind  when  you  try  to  sleep,  her  voice  quiet,  weak.  boyd.  boyd.  boyd.  boyd  ———  then  her  heart  stops.   then  she’s  gone.  )

 she  loved  you,  you  think.  you  don’t  know  what  that  means.

 but  did  you  love  her?  

 yeah,  you  did.  you  always  will.

  ❛❛  she  was  my  friend.  ❜❜   it’s  not  an  answer,  but  it’s  close  enough.

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i.  bledagony.

‘  and you know,  that’s the problem.  communication is key.  we need to work on that.  starting with — we should come up with another plan and you should give a few ideas.  ’

 ❛❛  the  plans  fine.  ❜❜   it’s  not,  boyd  knows  that.    ❛❛  ————  it’s  just  impulsive,  too  soon.  my  idea?  we  need  to  wait.  it’s  illogical  for  us  to  go  now,  not  if  we  don’t  want  to  come  back  in  body  bags.  they’re  expecting  for  us  to  attack  quickly,   to  be  impulsive,  to  be  like  kids.   we  should  make  them  wait.  make  them  come  to  us.  ❜❜

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Did you love Erica?

LOVE;  noun.   1.  a strong feeling of affection. 2.  a great interest and pleasure in something. 

you’ve  always  been  good  at  studying,  at  books  rather  than  people.  erica  reyes  was  something  new,  someone  he  never  expected  to  have  his  life.   she’s  an  anomaly,   she’s  someone  different,  someone  beautiful  (  inside  &  out.  you  wonder  if  she  knows  that.  you  know  she  doesn’t.  ).  she’s  a  fighter  who’s  been  beaten  down  her  whole  life,  she’s  someone  you’d  die  for.  she’s  someone  you’d  run  for  (  and  you  did,  and  you  would  again.  ).

 she  holds  your  hand  when  you  feel  them  start  to  shake,  she  tells  you  to  run  when  she’s  got  arrows  piercing  her  skin,  she  leaps  toward  kali  &  her  last  word  is  your  name  (  it  echoes  in  your  mind  when  you  try  to  sleep,  her  voice  quiet,  weak.  boyd.  boyd.  boyd.  boyd  ———  then  her  heart  stops.   then  she’s  gone.  )

 she  loved  you,  you  think.  you  don’t  know  what  that  means.

 but  did  you  love  her?  

 yeah,  you  did.  you  always  will.

  ❛❛  she  was  my  friend.  ❜❜   it’s  not  an  answer,  but  it’s  close  enough.

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bledagony,

           ‘  wanna know what i think?  i think that’s a stupid plan and we shouldn’t do it.  ’

❛❛  no.  i  never  want  to  know  what  you  think.  ❜❜

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 ❛❛  ———  ❜❜    HE  WON’T  ATTACK,  not  unless  dean  does  first.   he  stands  his  ground,  eyes  glowing  golden  with  fangs  hidden  behind  lips.   boyd  doesn’t  want  a  fight.  he’s  never  wanted  to  fight.   ❛❛  i’m  not  hurting  anyone.  ❜❜     maybe  he  has  a  code,  but  the  argents  were  supposed  to  have  one  too  &  they  tied  him  up  to  electrify  him.  

i.  @nograved

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i did it for boyd.

for erica, for boyd.

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me: has muse my dash: Dies

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i.  ruinwrapped,

restlessness was anything but a new sensation for the omega beta, but it had never been as bad as it was now. incarcerated, deprived of basic needs for the wolf inside her ribcage, one that wanted so desperately to claw its way out. remaining calm was a task that got harder and harder with each passing day. his question, the mention of her brother stroke a nerve. lump in own throat hard to swallow before she could find herself responding; honestly being the best and only policy she could offer him. “ yes. ” it doesn’t come quickly, nor convincing, and she knows it, therefore, an explanation follows. “ but the brother i remember is hardly the one you’ve gotten to know. ”

 ❛❛  yeah.  ❜❜    people  change  after  trauma,  &  from  the  parts  of  derek’s  past  that  boyd  has  heard  about,  he  doubts  derek  has  been  the  one  she  knew  for  years.   exhaustion  is  a  pill  he’s  learned  to  swallow,  he’s  been  trapped  for  longer  than  she  has,  his  body  is  growing  used  to  the  lack  of  ——  well,  everything.  he  can  barely  remember  the  burning  of  the  full  moon,  the  feeling  of  how  the  sun  felt  on  his  skin  is  starting  to  slip  away  too.  he  hasn’t  said  it,  but  boyd  lost  hope  before  cora  arrived,  before  erica  died.   

 ❛❛  he’s  strong.  ❜❜   even  if  he  left  derek,  he  still  knew  him.   ❛❛  but  angry.  it  gets  the  better  of  him.  he’s  probably  too  angry  at  us———  ❜❜   she’s  dead.  he  has  to  remind  himself.  stop  talking  about  her  like  she’s  here.  ❛❛  at  me,  to  even  come  for  me.  to  even  care  i’m  gone.  ❜❜  

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my aesthetic is boyd knowing what the triskele means and being so smart it shocks everyone

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 ❛❛  what  are  you?  ❜❜     she’s  not  human,   that  much  boyd  can  smell  but  ——  that  doesn’t  mean  he  knows  what  she  is.   his  knowledge  is  broad  but  most  of  his  intelligence  is  rooted  in  human  information  rather  than  the  supernatural.  he  knows  wolves,  kanimas,  hunters  but  not  what  she  is.   his  senses  aren’t  something  he  has  complete  control  over,  he  can  barely  keep  control  most  of  the  time  but  he  can  tell  something  is  OFF,   something  supernaturally  off.

i.   @wagingheart

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me: i'm so lonely

person: hey

me: leave me alone

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❛❛  —————   do  you  think  he  even  tried  to  look  for  us?  ❜❜    the  darkness  around  them  is  consuming,   it’s  consumed  weeks  of  boyd’s  life,   months  maybe.   it’s  hard  to  tell  how  long  he’s  been  trapped,   the  sun  never  shines  for  them,   the  moon  never  rises  for  them.  erica’s  dead,  every  time  he  closes  his  eyes  he  swears  he  can  see  her  in  the  vault  again,  breathing,  alive  (  his  friend,  his  pack  mate,  gone.  ).  maybe  derek’s  not  coming,  maybe  he  thinks  they’re  with  a  new  pack,  maybe  he  thinks  they’re  dead  (  he  wouldn’t  be  completely  wrong.  ).    ❛❛  your  brother.  ❜❜

i.  @ruinwrapped​

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finished dinner bak 2 writing

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favorite teen wolf outfits: boyd in 204