My Bag Of Bones

I am the image

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Forgotten?

It looked pretty.

It was loud and wide.

So, I took it in as religion.

But, as I kept trying to draw from it, I kept coming up empty.

I shared it with a sista and she told me that it was a lie.

All of this time, I had forgotten to question...

Is this true?

How do I know its not a lie?

Look to my experience and those around me and see...what is this telling me?

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Blue Mercury

Dye my hair blue, she said.

I want to match the skies.

This shall be my color therapy.

I prefer alternative health care.

Communication.

Travel.

Thought.

Stand up straight.

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Hold On

Remember to hold on to yourself now.

The ride roller-coasters from here.

Look down...the ground is still beneath you.

Feel. Touch. Smell.

The fibers are already connected.

Becoming an Ancestor.

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Woman

When did you first realize that you were a woman?

When I remembered that I have a womb.

When I wrote it down and read it back to myself that I am a creative matrix.

When I touched my womb and remembered that I was a carrier of Truth inside.

When the Truth kicked and said, I’m ready to be born!

Womb-man.

And ain’t I a woman?

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River

Oshun

Yemanja

Yansa...

I’ve come to you with what I cannot handle alone.

If it is mine to bear, please help me with its care.

To become crystal you must cry me a river.

There is a might river flowing within you.

Touch and feel.

Come closer.

Don’t stop until you reach ectasy.

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Mercy

No mercy in my awareness she cries.

Taught to be nice, now searching for where my kindness lies.

It is what I came with before I entered her womb.

Did she steal it?

Did I misplace it in her gloom?

Oh mercy, mercy me...

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Take The Ground

The meek shall inherit the earth.

Through realization of crystal light.

Surrender to the wheels below and behold.

Pulled up by higher energies.

Resting on the ground.

Take it by force.

Receive it by grace.

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Suffered

When you’ve suffered enough, what’s next?

Will you melt into your death or is there an endless pit?

Who is it that is out of control?

What would it take to comfort her?

From addict to adult.

Look down and then up.

Ceres to Pluto...

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Lover of Sleep

I first fell in love with sleep when I realized that I could go places, uninhibited.

I could explore more without attachment.

Tune out.

When it became time to wake up, I had to deal with the matters on the ground.

Where it all comes down, creating a path for me to stand upon.

Security beneath my feet.

My body is what makes me complete.

It is here, awake and alive that I long to be.

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Tap

Tap...tap...tap...

Let your feet feel it.

Its connection vibrating with Her.

In Her heartbeat, there is the heat of love’s ground.

Reminding us of our rights to be here, to have and to hold.

Tap...tap...tap...

A dance in motion.

Right at your feet.

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Who Was He?

Who was he? Her children ask.

Anything you want to know I will tell you, she persists.

Yet, her children have found another version of the story.

By other characters in his short lived drama.

Can she come to grips with all of who he was?

Can her children find Pallas?

Perhaps we will live with his version of us and just...

Let it be.

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Allow Now

If I can just allow now to be enough, I will no longer need the promise of forever.

Tomorrow will be of little to no consequence, if today can have its rightful place.

In this space-time event, there is the pulse of life.

Heartbeating in the rhythm of grace.

Listen to the sound.

The sound of making love...

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Core

I don’t feel connected to any of them.

Them...

My core. 

My emotions.

This is the them I have become numb to.

Come back to the middle, I sing.

And find source.

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The Light @ Night

Curiosity and possibility inspired me to take flight.  

Only, it was not the air, but ground transportation at night.

A torch was lit so that I may find my way.

Back through the birth canal that got me here.

This tunnel seems unending.  And is becoming more and more unnerving.

At this juncture, I realize that I am another light.

Different from dancing in the sun.

I glide in and as the moon.

This is Night, I am reminded.

And this is another light.

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Void Of Course

I heard, “leave” and so I left.

I have yet to reach my destination

and so I drift.

I feel stuck at sea.

“Journey” I hear.

I must become the captain.

Look up for the map.

Choose your mansion.

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Another Sister

I thought we were together until I saw you laughing and I couldn’t seem to get in.

I was out in the cold watching you from the outside looking in.

Oh, how I thought the warmth would last forever.

Then I heard the voice of another...

My sisters from the other side awaiting my re-turn.

There is another warmth underground.

Turn a-round and re-member moonlight.

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Demons

I've been playing with my demons...makin' trouble for myself...

And a sudden realization came.

It is not about sin, Rather Grace after grace.

This is the One unraveling.

The promised reunion.

Ain't no need to worry and search the bottomless pit.

Take the breathe of now, this is repent.