Howiedoodles

Welcome to a bitch's attempt to get back into drawing

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Doodle-a-day blog for @hotdoghowitzer (or @infinityactual if ur one of my Halo moots)

I'll be TRYING to post one image a day here, each post will be tagged by month, year and content. I'll update this post with a tag index as I go.

#the glass span: Headworld stuff

#tgs dragons: my dragon species

#infinidad: Tom Lasky from Halo

#dadsky/#giuseppe lasky: My OC Giuseppe

#momsky: audrey lasky

#alien worm cat: fursona stuff

#bellerodoodles: art of my OC Bellerophon the wildass old man

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Leucistic Chimera OC that I named Bellerophon bc I think I'm witty. He goes by Bell and he's a laid back surfer stoner type.

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Oh, Bellerophon you've come so far....

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Gave my trek OC Dana the Pipi treatment.

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My first official fanart of Harold and it's this scrungly loser boy

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Finally drew Zekeface, bonus cameo by my OC Gene.

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doodled my heavy metal oc imogene and got 90% done figuring zeke out. givinf him a butt nub was the best decision ever its cute.

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Drew Egon's dad as a demon. Still thinking of markings, probably something that evokes the shape of exhaust pipes on rat rods. Dunno his element or sin domain yet though, but he's prooobablyyy an earth demon that specializes in metal? Unsure, kinda wanna get weirder with it since he's a mechanic and machinist. Lots of options.

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Some tzenkethi sketchies. Tzensketchies, if you will.

Yet-to-be-named OC for SFA, she's an engineer who is both very aware of her size, and the role her people played in the dominion war against the Federation, so she keeps quiet and tries to make herself as small as possible All The Time. Sam of course takes this as a challenge and tries to pry her open like a stubborn oyster and gets an accidental girlfriend out of it.

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Her name is Chuk'tak, but everyone calls her Chuck. If not bc humans are prone to diminutives, then ppssibly bc she chucked someone across the atrium into the fountain.

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Some tzenkethi sketchies. Tzensketchies, if you will.

Yet-to-be-named OC for SFA, she's an engineer who is both very aware of her size, and the role her people played in the dominion war against the Federation, so she keeps quiet and tries to make herself as small as possible All The Time. Sam of course takes this as a challenge and tries to pry her open like a stubborn oyster and gets an accidental girlfriend out of it.

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A little visit

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Working out a body plan that's less goofy than the in game model. Wanted something that could easilu be mistaken for a normal wolf at a distance and not a 'worgen woman running around nekkid'.

Also she has two braincells at absolute maximum.

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Cw for blood under the cut

Drew some Lolas. Left out her scars bc I need to make a scar map for her, debating on if she might suffer chronic pain both bc she's a fury warrior who gets the fuck beat out of her often, but also bc her tail got mostly bitten off during the period when she was feral (worgen have tails. to me. they look dumb without them.)

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Started with the intent of working our Bell's 'god form' and it just turned into swole bell with a fat dange noodle tail.

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I should ink this someday whenever my body isn't actively making my life hell.

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Doodled my original species for a Star War, the Voshol, descended from a relative of the vornskyr, updated their anatomy some.

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Spitfire junk and I'm pissed abt snow >:(

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Went back and inked some old Spitfires.

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Bringing this back because WHERE'S MY FUKKIN SNOW?! 'RECORD SNOWFALL' THIS AND 'PERSISTENT FLURRIES' THAT ALL I GOT WAS GRAUPEL IN MY TITS WHEN I WENT FOR A WALK. And then I think it kept attempting to snow, but it was probably stuff picked up from the ground by the wind bc nothing new accumulated.

Yes I know I'm comparatively lucky, but also I want my SNOW god dammit!

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demon!spitfire

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I always end up absolutely hating everything I draw. Even if I draw something I like I inevitably end up hating that too. I'm always trying to bite off more than I can chew and end up overestimating myself when in reality I don't have the skill to draw what I want...I just dont have the skill and it's so hard to come to terms with that.

What do I do? It puts such a damper on me that i end up wasting months away not picking up the sketchbook and pen cause I'm lowkey afraid to even begin.

due to social media and its engagement-based success metrics people often give the advice that you need to make art "for you" and not concern yourself with what other people think, but i don't believe this is a complete picture of the artistic experience either and disregarding others can be just as unhealthy.

art is first and foremost a method of communication. before humans had written language, we told stories through pictures. before children can coherently write their feelings, they are able to draw them. when we draw something, it's because we're trying to express something-- even if it's a concept as simple as "i really like this cartoon character". it doesn't have to be deep to communicate something.

i don't know your circumstances beyond the frustration expressed here, but what broke this particular spell on me was getting out my sharpie and doing little doodles of cats on the boxes i send out from my warehouse job, something i only did a few times to start until i heard back from the employees that the doodles delighted them. now i do them every chance i get. my relationship with my art completely changed when i understood that simple, low-effort whimsy seen by a handful of people who love it was more satisfying than a high-effort digital piece getting a few hundred likes. it was personal.

i do think drawing for "engagement" is poison, but drawing for people is essential. join communities for art, do giftart for people less skilled than yourself, delight individual people with what you can. i think you will be surprised by how much your self-esteem improves when the work becomes a sense of expression again instead of a monolithic series of goals.