it's tough, man... i try to be positive, i try to live for the moment, yet many decisions im involved in are taken without my knowledge.
It's a lonely life, i keep getting reminded of it every day, yet i keep gaslighting myself into thinking that it isn't as lonely as i think it is in the moment.
i miss my teens, i miss high school.
mybe not high school, but my friends from high school, i miss being a part of such a nice group of people, having everyone near. now i feel lied to constantly, played, not taken seriously. it's like the older we got, the more immature we started acting.
when a decision involves me, maybe talk about it with me, why do you care what other people will say so much? why do you care? why why why why why?
i felt my heart break a little today. i didn't tell you that i did, but i dont tell people a lot of things. fuck you for breaking my heart without realising. and im proud of you for knowing your worth.
you are priceless. whatever anyone says. you are a good person, you are caring, you are thoughtful, you are amazing. maybe i fell for you without realising, but even if i did... it will not work out, simply knowing how you react to other people talking about you.
it would be hell for both of us.
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