this post is probably just another cry into the void but do any other women really struggle with developing a resilience to patriarchy/sexism? I feel like I am affected by misogyny to a degree that is can be so emotionally consuming…. I don’t want to numb my sensitivity to injustice because I think that trait plays a big part in what makes me the person I am proud to be, but this inability to ignore how sexism seeps into everything (or, more accurately, how everything is built upon a foundation of sexism) is slowing chipping away at my relationship with sex (doomed to always be suspicious of it as a tool of domination), has rendered me afraid of men most of my life, and makes me weirdly strict and very anxious about relationships (worrying my male partners will never understand me because they will never truly understand being on the receiving end of misogyny).
I’m in therapy for some sexual trauma related issues I’ve been struggling with and although I so want to overcome the anxiety that past negative experiences have caused me, I find it so difficult to do that when this anxiety is inherently tied to a system of exploitation, objectification, domination, and dehumanisation that is very real and very pervasive. is/has anyone else struggled with this? I feel like I’m going crazy trying to “move on” from trauma that was a product of a system I cannot escape. I don’t know how to develop the resilience I will need in order to reclaim my life
