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I remember why it was so easy before. Once you get on the hunger high, it's easier to continue

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Do I like him or he's just tall and bulky and has a beard and I'm getting tired of my boyfriend?

I don't feel anything for him, I just forgot how it is to have someone much larger, taller and stronger next to you.

#I lovemy bf okay but he's shorter than me and a lot of timesmakes me feel huge #Tall big manly #This guy stood next to me and i had to get on my tippy toes to whisper in his ear #And he cracked my back with that cross your arms in front of you and the other person lifts you #HE DID IT LIKE I WAS WEIGHING NOTHING TWO TIMES #sometimes i just... Miss feeling little #Miss feeling fragile

Both me and my coworker decided to start losing weight at the same time so of course I have to now win this imaginary competition of who loses more weight

Just went through the most traumatic shit and I've been through some things

#Seeing your dad basically bleeding to d***h while being the one to hold the towel...#Shit I'm alone now my mom's sleeping for a bit and I can't I can't #I didn't process this yet

Yey for WFH cause I wouldn't have otherwise be able to cry my eyes out while working

#We love working in a corporation imagine if I had to GO to a pharmacy and like not cry my eyes out #Gonna be alone the whole weekend and in a way I'm happy with that cause I can cry my eyes out but #At the same time this might have not been a very good time to be alone #But at the same time I can't go home i can't see my dad face to face I just can't #I can't stand my extended family at this time they have NO IDEA how to console or talk or just approach this situation especially with me #My aunt kept saying that she knows me she knows I'm strong yeah because 1. I'm neurodivergent #I have delayed emotional response and when it hits me i don't want anyone around #And 2 #I do not show anything to anyone #'i saw you being so brave when you had your cancer misdiagnosis'#Women I self isolated and planned my suicide sure I was so brave #tw: death #Tw: suicide mention

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I did pose for this photo and I only got into these jeans this morning because I have low compression thighs on, but it makes me want to get back on track so much. I can look this good and so much better if I just. keep. myself. in. line.

#tw ana shit #bodyckeck

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Nobody cares more about my diet than my bf who makes me so miserable sometimes it dissolves my hunger instantly.

#he's not saying a word about my body he even encourages me to eat #He just makes me so miserable a lot of the times that my hunger is out the window and i have a knot in my throat and i wanna throw up #So yeah

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And only ate around 500

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Well my smart watch says I burned 560 in total with my walk home+stretches so officially I burned more that I’ve eaten.

And only ate around 500

Managed to burn 142 cals by jumping rope

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