Eddie Kaspbrak

Eddie kaspbrak here, though if you're here I guess you knew that. 24, submissive, anything else, just ask!

[eddiesubkasp]

feardenied​:

private f2f {steddie}

Eddie, we’ve known each other far too long for you to think you’re overstepping with me. We’ve been best friends since we were kids. You’ve seen bullies toss my yarmulke out of the bus window. We jumped into the barrens in our underwear. None of the seven of us could ever overstep on each other. Ever. You can definitely ask me a question. Especially when it comes to school-wide events. 

I...I know. I know that. Please don’t think I’ve forgotten. I couldn’t, just to be clear, but especially not when it involves time spent with you. I just...I mean, it’s...The elephant in the room. You’re my best friend, we’ve known each other for all these years, done all these things and been through so much together. But we both know there are...Expectations. Standards. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know which way is up anymore. Do I call you Sir, or are you still Stanley? I know we’ve been...Winging it, so-to-speak. I know this must be weird for you sometimes, too. I just don’t...I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m really trying to say, I guess. Can it be both? Should it be? Are we a different couple in public and private? Can we be?

[eddiesubkasp]

feardenied​:

private f2f {steddie}

I think it might be my thing, actually. It’s non denominational, and it should be relatively quiet. I think it sounds like a nice date night. For the two of us.

In that case, Sir, I would love to go, yes. I’ve been trying to catch glimpses of the light show from here. I’m sorry I didn’t ask. I just don’t want to...Overstep. Or assume. 

[eddiesubkasp]

feardenied​:

private f2f {steddie}

Do you want to go see the light show, dove?

@eddiesubkasp​

I do, Sir, but I didn’t want to ask if you weren’t up for going. I know it isn’t your thing. 

[eddiesubkasp]

blaineandersontga​:

I’m so happy to hear that, Eddie! It’s not unlike you to be productive, that’s for sure. I’ve been good, yes. Just keeping busy mainly. However, you’re not wrong in that assumption! I’m pretty sure lysol wipes are becoming a permanent extension of my arm, but I guess there’s worse things that could happen. What about you? He’s fine, thanks for asking! Things are going great, honestly. I literally could not be happier. But, yeah, knowing you’re right down the hall has helped me quite a bit. I miss you, Eddie. I still need to ask about a movie night, I’ve just been so busy lately it slipped my mind. But, soon! 

Thank you, Blaine. You’re always so kind, and such a great person to talk to. I’m very glad to have met you. You aren’t one to not be productive either, you know. I look up to you a lot for that, and for how determined you are. I’m happy to hear you’ve been doing well. I’m just so proud of you. Good! You know how I feel about cleanliness, I’m so glad to hear you’re taking things so seriously still. I would hate to see you or your Master fall ill. I’m doing well, as is Sir Stanley. We really are enjoying our time together. And, I’m excited to participate in this week’s Cooking Club Challenge. You’re so creative with your challenges, I’m impressed. I miss you too, Blaine. I can’t stand to live with manh people, I’m sure there are several who feel the same about me. But, you and I did work well together. It’s alright, I am a patient person! Don’t feel pressured, I know the holidays are always a busy time for everyone. Maybe we could still do something though, even if it isn’t a movie night. Like baking cookies or holiday treats together. Iago is welcome too, if he’d like. I know you’re close with him. 

[eddiesubkasp]

blaineandersontga​:

Good afternoon, everyone! I hope you’re all having a good day so far. How’s everyone enjoying the mock claim life? It feels so nice to see more submissives around here, I was starting to feel out of place. How’s everyone over at McKinley? Has anyone gone down to the Festival or light show yet? How did you like it?

Blaine! Good afternoon! My day has been very good so far. Very productive. How about yours? Are you taking care of yourself? I trust you’ve still been doing your disinfecting, especially in your quest to take keep Sir Malakai healthy. How is he doing? I hope things are well with you two. This mock claim has been amazing, I’ve really enjoyed being here at Dalton. And, it has been good knowing you aren’t so far away, again. We haven’t been down to see the Festival yet, but I’m sure we will get there at some point. What about you?

[eddiesubkasp]

No reply? Here I thought you'd be real stoked for this cute little holiday game. You can't ignore me. I'm you Secret Santa, after all. [Secret Santa]

Please just stop. Please. Can’t we just be adults?

[eddiesubkasp]

EDDIE ✉️️ BLAINE

Blaine: EDDIE! Hi! I'm great, how are you?! I'm still so beyond excited, yes. Everything is great, despite it being a big adjustment! How are you? I saw you got a new roomie.

Blaine: Mine are red and blue, his are gray and like a steel blue. I miss you. How would you feel about seeing if we could set up a movie night? You talk to your Sir, and I'll ask Master Malakai?

Eddie: It's good to hear you're doing well, I've been worried about you. I'm doing...Okay. I'm okay. That is great to hear, all of it. I imagine it is a big adjustment. But, knowing you, I'm sure you're doing so well. I guess I do, yes, but I haven't met him yet. It's kind of anxiety inducing.

Eddie: Okay, thank you for telling me. I miss you too, Blaine. That sounds like it would be fun! I'll ask Sir Stanley and let you know! Thank you for inviting me, that's really nice of you.

[eddiesubkasp]

EDDIE ✉️️ BLAINE

Eddie: Hello, Blaine! I wanted to reach out and see how you're doing. I hope things are going well for you over at Dalton, and that you are just as happy now as you were the day you got claimed. I'm still very excited for you!

Eddie: I was also wondering if you would tell me your favorite colors, as well as your Sir's favorite colors?

[eddiesubkasp]

With the weather getting colder, and all the new people coming in on both sides of things, I wanted to gently remind everyone that self-care is so important, especially this time of year. Doing your best to remain as stress-free as possible, keeping up on taking daily vitamins, and keeping yourself bundled and warm in these temperatures are going to be crucial. Stress distresses the immune system, which leaves your body less able to deal with any viruses or bacteria that may enter. That point ties in to the importance of vitamins. An all encompassing vitamin is good, though I usually like to pair with fish oil, and look for extra sources of iron, and vitamins C and D. Your body helps you every day, in all sorts of ways, so it should be important to help it, too. Making sure you stay warm is an important topic to address as well. While cold temperatures do not make you sick, over-exposure of certain body parts certainly can. Keeping ears covered, hands covered, and feet protected in warmth will help a ton to fight any chills or illnesses that may come your way this season. If anyone is in need of any vitamins, tea, or anything of the sort, I will do my best to assist. Stay safe out there, friends. 

[eddiesubkasp]

feardenied​:

private f2f {steddie}

I don’t doubt you in any way Eddie. Don’t worry. While I do have a different sense of humor than most, no, I’m not joking. Feel free to come sit in my lap, you’ll never look like a fool there. I want to claim you, Eddie. 

Good, I’d be heartbroken if you did. You aren’t? You really aren’t? Stanley! Sir, I...Please. You have no idea how badly I want that. Want you. It would be the highlight of my life, being yours. Officially. 

[eddiesubkasp]

feardenied​:

private f2f {steddie}

I will always come for you, Eddie. And at this point, after everything, I just… want to claim you. Then you’ll always be here. I’m glad you’re feeling better. I hope you believe me, I promised. You’re safe, my dove. 

Sir...I know you will. I don’t want you to think for one second that I question that. You...But that’s...You want...Me? Claim- you said claim me? Stan, I hope you aren’t joking. Are you joking? I can laugh, if you are. Ha ha. But if you aren’t...Please tell me now because otherwise I’ll feel like a fool, being in your lap over a joke. 

[eddiesubkasp]

feardenied​:

private f2f {steddie}

How are you feeling, dove?

@eddiesubkasp​

I feel okay, Sir. Better than last night, I know that much. Thank you for coming to get me, Stan. You know how much that means to me. 

[eddiesubkasp]

feardenied​:

The terror that ran through Eddie was felt by Stan as well. Not just because of their close bond, but because he knew what this could mean. There was no way that Eddie wasn’t absolutely in need, distressed beyond compare. It was possible that one or two of their worst childhood bullies might be on their way to torment Eddie in person. Stan nearly ran, finding himself nearly breathless when he opened Eddie’s door. He knew that his love was alone, his roommate having moved out for a claim, so he knew there would be nobody to be upset by his interruption. Seeing Eddie on the floor, he knelt down in front of him and scooped him up and pulled him against his chest. “I love you, my brave boy. I’m here, you’re not alone. I’ll take care of you. I need you to close your eyes for me and listen to my heart beating, okay? Breathe with me. Hold onto me.”

Hearing Stanley’s voice brought with it a good amount of relief, though still not enough to completely calm Eddie. Everything in him warred, torn between his own spiraling panic and wanting more than anything to give himself over to his Dominant. Tears fell from his eyes as he was shifted into Stanley’s lap. His body relaxed a bit, however he still remained as folded in on himself as possible. Open, shaking palms covered his eyes, as if shielding them would somehow make the situation less real. While some may have considered his reaction disproportionate, anyone who knew his and Stanley’s history with Patrick Hockstetter and Reginald Huggins would know that it wasn’t. The torment the two, along with Henry Bowers and Victor Criss, had put them and their friends through was unmatched in any childhood bullying story he’d ever heard. The members of the Bowers Gang were cruel, vile, and ruthless, and more times than not, Eddie had found himself asking if they even had souls. Henry Bowers, who poisoned and killed one of their best friends’ dogs. Victor Criss, his loyal second-in-command. Patrick Hockstetter, who collected dead flies, and had a penchant for hurting people without empathy, care, or remorse, starting with pulling the pigtails of girls in his Kindergarten class. Reginald Huggins, who’d earned his nickname Belch, the co-signer on every vile action, the driver of the getaway car, and the puller of rank and status any time anyone dared breathe wrong in their space. Hearing Stanley’s voice brought Eddie back from his thoughts. At the Dominant’s words, he shifted to rest his ear directly over Stan’s heart before wrapping both arms around Stan’s waist. Closing his eyes Eddie did his best to steady his breathing, focusing only on Stanley’s. After several moments, he nodded. “I-I think I’m okay to walk. I love you, Stanley. Thank you. Thank you. I want to go, I want to get out of here. At least your door at Dalton has a lock.” Pushing himself up and using the edge of his bed as a guide, Eddie stood, swaying for a moment but managing to steady himself before collapse. “I’m okay. I’m good. I just need to get my medicine, and my inhaler, and then we can go.” Tears still fell from his eyes as he attempted to move around his room. 

[eddiesubkasp]

When the ask had come through, Eddie immediately felt his heart stop. His chest tightened, restricting his breathing instantly. Groping for his inhaler, he took two large breaths, doing his best to calm himself and allow the ‘medication’ to work. Even that didn’t help, though. His eyes bounced frantically to the other side of the room, now standing empty and ill-lit. His breathing soon became quicker, his breaths shorter, and he found himself sliding off the side of his bed and onto the ground, making himself as small as possible as he brought his knees to his chest. Eddie’s eyes remained focused on his door, and although Stanley had assured he was on his way, Eddie didn’t feel safe, and the reality was, anyone could be coming through that door. He squeezed his eyes shut when the knob began to turn, placing his forehead against his knees as his stomach lurched. Bringing his arms up over his head, he prayed the voice he’d hear would be Stan’s. 

@feardenied​

[eddiesubkasp]

EDDIE ✉ STANLEY

Stan: That won't happen, I promise. I'm already inside McKinley. Just hold on for a minute more, for me. Be brave, my beautiful boy. I know you are.

Stan: Oh God. Surely the school wouldn't.... do... that... I...

Eddie: It already has. You've reached the inbox of Eddie Kaspbrak's ghost. Leave a message, maybe I'll get it in the next two centuries. The faith you have in me is astounding, because I'm positive the walls are closing in as we speak.

Eddie: They would. They would and they did. Because it doesn't matter if I get tormented, Stanley. It doesn't matter because /I don't matter/.

[eddiesubkasp]

EDDIE ✉ STANLEY

Stan: Slow down, dove. I'm coming as fast as I can, I promise. What is one of them?

Eddie: I know, I know. I think I'm going to vomit. I'll vomit and then pass out and then probably vomit while I'm passed out and I'll choke because I don't have a roommate anymore and then I'll die and I don't want to go out like that Stanley, not like that. /Please help me/.

Eddie: My Secret Santa. It's one of them.

[eddiesubkasp]

EDDIE ✉ STANLEY

Stan: I'm coming. Talk to me. What happened?

Eddie: Nothing. Everything. I don't know. I can't breathe. I'm hyperventilating. I'm going to pass out.

Eddie: /It's one of them. I don't know which one, but it's one of them/.