Darling I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream.

Eden Grace Wilde 16. Submissive. Sophomore. Call me Edie, most do. Lover of Penguins, Nutella, Unicorns, Gatsby and Cuddles. Avid Support of Harvard Crimson. Baby Sister of Paisley and Kitty. Big Believer in 'Hugging It Out' Trying to find myself again .

[maddoxbrookes]

[edenwilde]

Private || Nick and Edie

[tganickyd]

Long story short, I just about fucked things up with Sir Garrett.  Doesn’t seem to be the case.  We’ll see how we do in the coming days.

I know the feeling, though it’s gone away since I got here.

That’s like ‘Is that a mirror in your pants? Because I can see myself in them.’

[edenwilde]

I'll  keep all the things crossed for you. Fingers, hair, toes, legs. I doubt you fucked things up though. 

... Oh you're good. Also that shirt is very becoming on you. Though if I was on you. I'd be coming too.

[edenwilde]

Private || Nick and Edie

[PM] I’m actually feeling good right now.  You know that kind of high feeling you get when you’re relieved?  Right here.  Other than sleeping, how’ve you been, oh Master of Terrible Pickup Lines?

Where you want to walk around singing 'Walking on Sunshine?' .. I know the one. So what's caused the great wave of relief? and I'm okay, getting a little homesick but nothing I haven't handled before. And trust me that line was nothing. Just ask Alex about my pick-up lines. He loves them. Especially 'are you wearing space pants because that ass is out of this world' 

[edenwilde]

[PM] Hey pretty lady, long time no talk.

[PM] Hi, hi. I'm pretending I'm a bear and hibernating. It got a little lonely though. What's cookin' good lookin'? ... and that was even worse than my usual pick-up lines. How are you?

[edenwilde]

Private Thoughts

One of these days I won't nap at the busiest time of the dash.

[garrettanderdom]

Another notice for the unclaimed population.

I wanted to decide upon one or two of you to bring back to my suite after classes, but I’ve decided that I prefer making plans before the event itself. So consider this an order for any unclaimed submissives without orders for the afternoon to make themselves known.

[edenwilde]

... Unsurprisingly I'm a few hours behind everyone else. But hello Sir. 

[borntorulesmythe-blog]

Reading a book in between classes

It’s about getting subs into different head spaces. Anyone out there with first hand experience? 

[edenwilde]

What kind of headspaces Sir? I've got about 4 that I know of. 

[edenwilde]

[chipsdipsandcelerysticks]

[edenwilde]

inmemoryofmysanity:

My top 25 most listened to songs of 2014

08 - Outside - Calvin Harris ft. Ellie Goulding

[edenwilde]

Eden's Journal: Entry Six

6th of January, 2015

Dear Journal,                       If there was ever a time I wished you could talk back? It would be right now. I made a huge mistake coming back. I knew it wouldn't be the exact same.. But nothing is the same. My friends are all claimed or getting claimed, Sir won't even look at me.. I think he hates me. Apparently I was a horrible submissive; I didn't deserve our claim and it's a good thing it was annulled. .. And those are the faculty's words. Not mine..  I thought I behaved.. I occasionally mouthed off and lost my temper.. But I'm human. Not a robot. I tried to look after him. I cooked, cleaned... We had sex... Amazing sex often. I just .. What didn't I do? Why wasn't I enough? Why are they telling me this now? Was I really so horrible?   

 I don't want to be here.I don't want to live in constant fear, I don't want to spend every hour feeling like there is a knife plunged into my chest and with each second it gets twisted a millimetre from the moment I wake up, to the moment I finally fall asleep. Sir Beau's having another game tomorrow or soon. He got us to choose numbers between 1-100... I don't think we're playing bingo, or helping him pick numbers for a lottery ticket. And I'm under orders from a Miss Eliza with Paisley.. Something about 'super fun', something tells me it'll be 'super fun' for her.

How can you be surrounded by people day in, and day out and live with a room-mate, but still feel alone? I didn't even know it was possible. I didn't realize a whole shitload of things were possible.

Violet called me a Stepford once... I fucking wish I was. At least that way I wouldn't have to feel. Maybe I should just let myself break. Be like a phoenix. Be reduced to ashes and be born anew. Lord knows what I am now isn't worth anything.

I need to find a way to get into the Headmaster's office.. I just need to get my hands on a phone that calls out. And I need to call home.. Daddy pulled me out once. He can do it again. I can go home. I can attend my old school and just find someone..  I don't have to love them. Love's never gotten me anywhere anyway and maybe it's for the best. Just live my life doing what I've always wanted... Be a submissive, a wife, a mother maybe feelings will come in time? Or maybe I can just pour myself into keeping busy. 

 I used to think I was needed, that I was useful.  I was wrong, they don't need me here. No-one needs me. Not really. I fought to get back here Journal and I don't even know what I fought for any more. I just.. I'm tired of everything. I miss Mama, I miss Daddy, I miss Orion... I shouldn't have left.. But I certainly shouldn't have come back either. I thought I had a future here, or hoped I had a future here. But I may as well add it to my ever growling list of mistakes and delusions. 

 Until next time, and with all my love,                                                            Eden. 

[eleanor-flanagan]

I suppose the proper place to start as a new student is with introductions.

[eleanor-flanagan]

Yes, I am his sister. 

So you are like a walking, talking welcome wagon? Like a tourist kiosk, with lips and legs. I find that concept intriguing, I wish I’d thought of it while I was still at my last school. I assume you’re quite helpful to those that find themselves here. It’s a pleasure.

[edenwilde]

That's accurate. But I don't sell souvenirs and I can't provide snacks anymore. Restricted kitchen access and all. I have my moments, I used to be more useful but I've been hibernating a little over Winter. Likewise. I hope everyone else is being welcoming?

[eleanor-flanagan]

I suppose the proper place to start as a new student is with introductions.

My name is Eleanor Flanagan, and I’ve just stepped foot on American soil for the second time in my life. I’m not sure whether I hope this time will last for a longer or shorter duration of time, but I suppose I shall find out as my story unfolds. 

For those curious minds out there, I am a submissive. Proudly so. If anyone requires my assistance, I would be honored and pleased to hand myself over as any Dominant sees fit.

[edenwilde]

.... Welcome to the Academy. I'm Eden, most people call me Edie, also Submissive. I hope you enjoy your second stay in America and if you ever need a tour or find yourself confused about anything here or have any questions. I'm usually pretty good with answering them. You must be Sir Rory's sister?

[edenwilde]

[edenwilde]

PRIVATE || Edie and Gabes

[formerlyfalwell]

Not if we do so politely. Pretty much. The only way anyone’s escaping the Academy is in a body bag and even then, they might just decide to prop you up on the grounds somewhere a la Weekend at Bernie’s to serve as an example of what happens to naughty children.

Aaaaand that was really morbid and I’m not even sorry that I’m not sorry. Oops.

I’m just tired of the bullshit. I’m also tired of having to fake happiness around the Dominants lest I run into one that takes it upon himself to give me something to ~*really*~ frown about.

[edenwilde]

I'm on it. But I'm not sharing the wine with anyone but you. ... God I love that movie. .. You're morbid? Friendly reminder that you're talking to the person who posted 'Best Human Cuts' and was about a day away from going cannibal on someone's ass. I'm thinking more along the lines of The French Revolution. Heads on pikes. Especially since The Headmaster likes medieval stuff. He brought out a brazen bull once.  

 .. I feel. I spend 90% of my time wondering why I bothered to come back. I thought I was miserable at home, but at least I didn't get the constant 'kicked in the stomach' feeling there. Literally it's like that moment when you get dropped mid-stunt...You know what they say. Daylight is for smiles and night is when you're allowed to fall apart. Plus I won't judge you if you don't judge me for breaking. You'll find someone, I know you will.. Plus you're 18 right? You just need to get through this year, find someone even if it's not necessarily romantic, just that they treat you well and you can get out of here..Away from everyone and let your life really begin.

[edenwilde]

PRIVATE || Edie and Gabes

[formerlyfalwell]

I wonder if that girl Kitty crucified has special connections to the Big Guy upstairs because of what was probably a near-death experience and she can put in word for some water to be magically turned into some wine. Unlikely but not impossible… nothing’s impossible at the Academy.

Double standards. Double standards everywhere.

[edenwilde]

She should. Would it be bad manners to ask? "Hi, so my sister crucified you which means you should have a direct line to Jesus, think he could send down some wine?' ... Nothing is impossible at the Academy aside from escaping.

 ...Ignore them. Do what I do and have intense conversations with yourself. You'll begin to question your own sanity but you'll have an outlet. 

[edenwilde]

PRIVATE || Edie and Gabes

[PRIVATE] I wonder if the Headmaster would ban grapes if we figured out a way to make wine with them. Probably. Something similar happened with whipped cream, right?

Do you think it’s fair that Riley gets branded as ‘eager’ but I get branded as ‘desperate’?

Probably. Plus do you know how many hours I've wasted staring at a glass of water trying to turn it into wine? ... Apparently you can make vodka out of potato and beer out of grain? I make soup with barley. That's a grain right?

... No but next to nothing is fair around here. 

[monsieurbeausmythe-blog]

I'm feeling whimsical.

So all unclaimed submissives; reply to this with a number in between 1 and 100. And at least pretend to be interesting. The order is for a number, but I don’t want to see any replies that are nothing more than a number.

[edenwilde]

I'm going to have to go with 44 Sir. I was going to pick 69 but decided I'd try to be mature and not a stereotypical teen about it.