Second post. Post (2/2), here we go.
(Feel free to use any of the screen shots from this post and the previous to let people know what happened!)
Warnings for: pedophilia with no known victims, mentions of inappropriate material of minors (just the concept) Bipolar disorder, self harm, suicide, homophobia/Transphobia and paraphilla)
This is the third comment Sarah liked broken up into two parts.
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The person who commented this as you can already probably tell is a self identified "MAP". I checked their YouTube and they had three videos which are shorts. One being a introduction, one being them at a pride event(?) And another about them speaking about being a map.
And now the final comment I will bring up (not liked by Sarah) is a comment by the Youtuber Oliver Antics. A fairly popular art YouTuber with over 100k subscribers, and a mutual of Sarah.
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Several hours later the video was privted by Sarah at the request of its mother. This was put up on Sarah's community tab:
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It then took another three hours for the post to be put up on Tumblr. Later on Sarah's Tumblr would be mass reported and taken down. It then put the link on its website on its community tab. If you want to read The full thing I will link it, read it if you can.
(The link won't work for me rn. Just go to the top post on its community tab, sorry)
https://www.sarahtruly.com/tumblr-post
But I have broken down the main points that stood out to me here in oder. This will still be pretty long, forgive me.
Sarah has never sexuality assaulted a minor, never groomed a minor. Has never had inappropriate talks or relations with a minor. Has never sought out or looked at CP. And has no desire to do any of what is stated above.
Sarah was not in a good headspace when it posted the video, and wasn't in the head space to interact with the comments so it stayed quite and only changed the description when some concerning conclusions where being made about the people mentioned.
A lot of the comments where saying that Sarah "owned" them (the commenters) an explanation. Sarah dose not think it owned anyone anything. And that it could have left never staying anything. Or said it was hacked. She will not say why/what triggered it since its is "none of the internets business"
Like many thought this was the result of a bipolar Episode. The video/Tumblr post, where an act of self harm/sabotage. Sarah wanted to wait till it was in a better headspace to make the new post.
Sarah updated the description to clarify the two people mentioned where/are not MAPs or victims. It wishes she had never mentioned then at all in the first place.
Sarah says how people where saying if they are a pedophile they are disgusting. But if they where the victims of a pedophile they will offer sympathy. Sarah then says "what if I'm both?"
Sarah says paraphilles should not have to disclose the trauma they went through for people to be sympathize with them.
Sarah says they are not a "Pedophile" since they are not attracted to Pre pubescent/or primarily attracted to children. Which is the definition of Pedophile.
This is why Sarah uses the term "MAP". It says that map is not just a way to soften the term or to try and be seen as LGBTQ+
Sarah is not exclusively attracted to minors.
Sarah reiterates they posted the flag as a form of self harm. They don't think MAPS should be aloud in the LGBTQ+ community for the soul reason of being MAPs. But LGBTQ+ MAPS should be allowed into the community.
It don't think "MAP rights" should be the right to have sex with minors.
Sarah doss not like the usage of flags -the MAP flag- and likes symbols better. But since the flag is the most well known it used that.
It believes MAP rights are "innocent until proven guilty" and that lots of people who harm children are not MAPS, And not all MAPs harm children. They link some sources.
She is against the practice of grooming and Manipulating children into doing inappropriate things.
Sarah talks about how MAPS are treated as scary non-human monsters who lurk in the shadows when they are really just normal people. It brings up how this kind of thinking has been projecting onto LGBTQ+ people especially Trans people in the past/present.
Child SA is not the result of most MAPS and is more often done by people abusing their power. And how Villainizing MAPS dose nothing to help (This part if kinda long but I think you get the idea)
Sarah talks about how people make assumptions about what they had done simply for posting the flag. About how most peoples interactions with MAPS are offending MAPS. and how none-offending MAPS (NOMAPs) are often to scared to talk about this stuff due to social backlash.
Sarah's mom (who knows about Sarah being a MAP) texted it in a panic in the morning, worried that she wouldn't be able to get a job. Most people in Sarahs life know. And Sarah pinned a comment under its most recent podcast so others would know.
A lot of people told Sarah to get help. They tried but knew it would be dangerous to say it to its therapist. Talked about how much harder it would be if they where a POC, Amab/male, or more obviously nerodivergent.
Since it's therapist is a queer woman it related it telling her they are a MAP to the experience of Coming out to homophobic people in its life.
Says that lots of MAPS are POC, Male- but their are alot of woman too- and nerodivergent. And how reading the comments they realized how Ableist people were.
Mentions seeing many MAPS defending it on different platforms. About how MAPS often lash out since they are tired of being treated like monsters.
Talks about MAP support they got in private. How they where on the ledge because of the backlash but they were talked down and told it could "make something good out of this"
People were saying to ignore the troll MAPS. Sarah says they are not trolls, that they are real people who feel strongly about this. Sarah says not to use this as a opportunity to see who to block, since it is harmful.
"If a MAP tells you that they are proudly a MAP, that does not mean they proudly groom children and watch cp. That means that they have been told over and over again that they are a monster and disgusting and should kill themselves and they are tired of hiding"-- Direct quote
People shouldn't assume a MAP means an abuser because it makes it harder for people to get help.
Their are MAPS who say they are proudly MAPS who consume CP and groom children. But most don't. Sarah wants to live without fear.
It says she is getting off the internet. Sarah has felt guilty having a young Audience while having those thoughts.
Sarah has never had Sexual thoughts about its fans.
She says it has control over its thoughts, that it is not a werewolf (that will come up again later) and that they do not need to be locked away.
Sarah has been manic, drunk, and high, with these thoughts and has never harmed a child.
About the two people mentioned: it said that yes, they are Sarah's sibling and cousin, it told its siblings about them being a MAP and said siblings cut her out. Then told the cousin. Sarah says "my two Ex-best friends" when speaking about them
Ever since that happened Sarah was extremely paranoid about them using the information to "Cancel" it. In a state of paranoia/self harm it posted the Video to expose itself first.
It is sorry for dragging the other people into this, wished it never put their names in the description.
It is Sarah's own personal Decision to step away from Cartoons. When HBO max canceled most of its upcoming cartoons it just solidified Sarah's decisions to no longer pursue that path.
Sarah's plans?: to live a normal life off the internet, get a normal job, get married, have kids ("which i will not assault, of course")
It wants people to see that MAPS are not monsters. They are people just like Sarah, and that they want to be accepted.
"And if you think that all of this is evidence that I was secretly a terrible person the whole time, I found this comment that made me smile. Someone said something along the lines of “I can’t imagine the person who debated the ethics of putting murder in a story is a pedophile.” Because you all know me. You’ve been with me through so much. You have always seen me as a person. All I’m asking is that you continue to see me as a person, not a disgusting monster because of thoughts that I can’t control and do not act on"--another Direct quote taken from the post.
Sarah thankss all the MAPS who have supported them. Asks them to mind there tone so they don't come across as bad. Tells then not to call its fans Bigots.
One last quote:"Thank you. Everyone. For everything. Goodbye"
Wow. That took awhile. I still recommend reading the whole thing if possible but I wanted to offer a slightly simpler (still really long lol) break down of it all.
I hope that was satisfactory.
My thoughts? I'm still collecting myself even now but I think this post is.... well I think there are a lot of problems with it, but first I want to bring up the video "Werewolf" Sarah uploaded not to long after this. This song was apparently done a year ago but was never posted. Proving Sarah knew about this part of itself yet continued to make content for its young fanbase for at *least* a year.
This song, with all the context we have, is obviously about being a "MAP" I will highlight some of these lyrics. Knowing what the subject matter is about makes these feel vary... eh... not great
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I don't like the smell of smoke, oh no
But in this stench I am completely soaked
(Probably has to do with not wanting these feelings but being consumed by them)
I don't wanna be a werewolf
I don't wanna live in this gulf.
-(not wanting to be a "MAP")
The moon keeps rising and falling
But who am I to deny its calling?
When it's quite in my head I think(:)
I would be better off dead
Cause what can I do to stop myself?
Cause when I get like this no methods help.
The moon keeps rising and falling
But who am I to deny *her* calling?
(The usage of "her" in this context really rubs me the wrong way. Not much else to add)
Keep it in. Don't explode
Keep it in. I know. I know
That was some of the lyrics that stood out to me in Werewolf. Just thought it might add onto this whole thing. It's honestly a pretty good song and I really like the sound, but the context surrounding it and knowing the subject matter kinda ruins it for me.
Final thoughts? Well I think the way Sarah brought up how LGBTQ+ were oppressed in the past (and currently, of course) and seen as sexual deviants is a vary, Vary, Manipulative way of farming it. It feels vary " look X group were seen as freaks in the past and now people have started accepting them! We are just the same way now" No. People have vary real reasons to not want "MAPs" to be in their Communities.
Plus the way it tried to frame itself as the victim for its sibling and cousin cutting ties. If someone I knew "came out" to me as a "MAP" I would definitely cut of contact.
That isn't to say I don't feel any sympathy for Sarah at all. But by surrounding itself with other MAPS means this kind of behavior is only going to be enabled more.
Many people have said this better honestly. I will put their comments here (Names blurred, just to be safe) that help summarize how I feel about this whole debacle.
Now. The last thing I want to say--Yes this post is almost over.
Why did I make this? Why did I take screen shots and keep up with the time line? Why did I refresh the pages over and over again? I've never done this kind of thing before so why now? I think I have two main reasons
1: I had a feeling this whole thing would fly under the radar. And it wouldn't make it far outside of Sarah's community. And wouldn't get much coverage so I wanted it to be kept somewhere on the internet
2: it was all I could do. I couldn't stop thinking about all of this since I checked notification in the early morning of September 16th. I couldn't do anything. I felt so helpless so I did the only thing I could do: archive. Archive everything I could. Every notable comment, description change. I was refreshing so much. I didn't want all of this stuff to be swept aside and forgotten. I wanted to feel like I was doing something. Helping. I hope my efforts weren't in vain.
If you made is this far thank you for reading. I may have missed some spots but the bulk of it has been covered.
Thank you to Sarah's community for being so strong. I was never that involved but I can see how much it's work meant to people. I'm wishing you all well. If more notable stuff happens I will post another post but for now I want this topic to rest.
Thank you, and stay strong-Snafu
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P.S: Yes I am aware of the writing that an ex-friend of Sarah's posted on ao3 to prove Sarah isn't a victim. No I will not talk about it here right now since I just spent hours writing and editing this+ I just want to take a break for a bit. But I will make a add-on post about it soon-ish. If I feel up to it. Stay safe.
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