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Didn't know what to draw in particular, then saw @pollypoirate 's recent doodle again and went: "What if spooky instead of cooky oaoaoaoa". And now we're here. Talky is indeed spooky and I want cookie. Oatmeal cookies preferably since I haven't had one in a long time and I remember liking those :<

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Phones are evil :<

I have two pairs of shitty bluetooth earphones, ones for everything and ones for primarily sleeping.

Pair for sleeping has one of the buds literally held by glue, duct tape and dreams so it won't fall apart, internals are perfectly functional though.

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Sometimes I wonder if my entire being could be compressed into a cube. All human bits of my shell stripped away into something that can't be hurt so easily and can fight back if need arises, turned into something eldritch and otherworldly, something free of mortality and struggles of day to day life.

Being able to just turn off emotions on a whim, to choose a shell I want to live in and to be seen as. Being spooky and silly. I like spooky and silly. To have a small cube form to revert to whenever I'll get too overwhelmed.

One can wonder, one can dream. It's weird desire of mine to be that, too bad it's just a silly thought that isn't real to happen. Sad.

I have to learn how to feel comfortably in the shell I've got, cause it's the only one I get. I'll make it feel like home eventually. :]

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Found a tiny moth today and saved it from getting eaten by my cat, it was cute and it sat on my finger while I opened the window. :>

I wanna pet moth for some reason now. :\

tbh if I ever have a fursona thing then it would probably be a moth. :]

Also had different moth flying into my phone screen when I was falling asleep yesterday, it was green and disappeared multiple times when I turned on the light. :>

Doodled this creature that I've remembered again. They're from one of my story things in a post apocalyptic world that I don't wanna yet do anything about. :]

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Smol @pollypoirate doodle. :>

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Life's hard idk... Wanted to do a little vent post. Usually when I do something like this it just goes into notes app. It's nice to sometimes scream into unfeeling cold abyss even though it's never going to be heard :]

Sometimes it's hard... To not focus on dark thoughts on the back of your mind: "Nothing is ever going to get better", "I'm worthless waste of space" or other dark things that squirm inside, making your mood worse and worse until you're just an apathetic husk that just slowly rots because what's the point in even trying anything, nothing would matter in the slightest so there is no point in doing something to take yourself out of that state.

I hate this feeling... This hopelessness. This apathy. This anxiety. This self-loathing. But... It still a part of me... Part I don't like and wish I didn't had those feelings. Yet putting them away into the box and throw said box into farthest and deepest bottom wouldn't work they'll still boil and burst out destroying anything in its path until everything becomes a blob of nothingness.

I dragged myself into that pit, that abyss, that void, because feeling nothing was better than facing existence. I don't know if I ever get to a state of being when I could say: "I'm truly happy" or just happy. Though I've been gathering small stars of joy, little slivers of hope, maybe if I gather enough they could get me somewhere not necessarily a happy place just somewhere. At least I choose to believe that, that there's something to live for even though I can't see it.

Been doing a little bit of writing, need to focus on doing at least a prologue or a chapter of my murder drones au story thing. Need to do more drawing with my graphic tablet, I drew my new profile pic and it turned out cute. Maybe I'll try finally learning how to make chiptune music thing, looking forward to that. There's a lot of other things I wanna do that would be very tedious to explain and also I don't know if I get around to do them. :)

In anyhoo, in anyhaa, in anyhee, in conclusion I don't wanna let the state of things nor the world to bring me down, my existence is my own and I don't owe it to anybody but myself. Tee hee :>

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@pollypoirate ye hath been doodled ehehehe :>

Wanted to draw holding sword and stuff but then came to mind 'what if more slimes?'

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I hate drawing hair... J was a struggle to draw hair to because silly me bad at it but tries anyway.

It's N, V, and J, wanted them to look like they would belong with my ocs design-wise :)

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Ehehehe, finally reached a point when I'm able to draw a thing that is scratching on the back of my mind wanting to be free :)

Had untreated depression and life just sucks for no good reason so I couldn't bring myself to continue making my little murder drones au story-thing... Now I drew these three. Happy. I'm bad at drawing hair and hands.... And feet... [Cough] clothes. Maybe one day there'll be proper art of them.

Screwdriver (She/her)- poor drone who go through shenanigans with three murder drones that wiped almost all worker drones on the planet, she befriends them.

Serial Designation Q (He/They)- Commander of the squad.

Serial Designation E (She/It)- Creature.