But I would miss you.
I think now might be a good time for me to try and leave this burning building again. Last time, I tried jumping onto cohost and that went bankrupt soon after (unrelated i hope).
But also I dont want to just drop off with no other way to interact with the lovely people and plants and dogs and frogs I've grown quite fond of.
And there are some incredible artists I want to stay in the loop for too... This site is making me ponder it like I'm wielding a cursed ring, "Surely ignoring the signs and enduring the bad will end terribly. But that end can't be too close. Maybe just a few more posts..." But it has to end somewhere and it's best to prepare for it now.
So where the hell can I find all y'all if not here? That isn't rhetorical. Where do you roam o' blessed creatures! Reblogging tumblr posts with everyone is fun, but I can post! I can talk! Life can be different! I am in love with the world and the people I share it with! So why shouldn't I try to interact more directly?
Lately I feel like I want a different relationship with the internet, and to try and "make" more things myself. I can draw (slowly). I can crack jokes. I have interests and insights about the world. And these are things that are commonly shared. Something beautiful is just waiting around another corner. An ecosystem! I want an ecosystem, and one that I am a part of. Is this feeling too alien to manifest?
This is to be my MANIFESTO.
I would love to jump ship to whatever less corporate thingy I can sink my teeth into, or drop it completly with nothing in its place, which is what I usually do.
But I would miss you. Yeah, You. And I mean that. If you're reading this, and it isn't the first time you've seen this blog, then know that you are someone I want to keep in touch with. I guarantee.
And who tf am I then? Who is this stranger to loudly confess these feelings that are otherwise kept hidden? I am some man young of age and big of heart. I have stumbled upon a point in my life where I am tired of whatever you want to call that inexplicable ability of those with authority, to trample on anything too good and different. And I am sick with the joyful ones left being torn away from each other! Too crooked and rotten are the binds that hold us, and how solitary the freedom! I AM IN TEARS. ACTUAL TEARS WRITING THIS. NOW I AM LAUGHING ABOUT THAT.
I cannot stand it! But the alternative is... texting? Personal websites? I don't know how I feel about these options and others of their kind, because I lack experience with them myself. Are you content with texting? Have you channeled your person into a webpage or two, and found community with it?
This is the part of my idea that I cannot sustain myself. This part needs you and your input. What do you like? What corners have you explored? To find answers to these, I must put into action what I preach and message y'all. So be ready for that.
And I could be fully off base here too. Perhaps this is not the time to flee and congregate with glee. Everything said here could be met with complete indifference, and it all may be a massive banner of failure left on my blog with finality. You may see just that here. I will have left before the flame consumes me, failing to stay with those I knew.
I could do that.
But I would miss you.















