my profsāĀ advice/comments on impostor syndrome ā
āiāll tell you how iāve learned to deal with this sort of thing. i didnāt develop a sense of joy in my academic study until i realized that what really matters is the work itself. itās not about trying to impress anybody or trying to earn a specific grade. itās all about loving the work, the reading, the writing, the critical conversation. and i think you do love those things, and you do enjoy your academic work when you can get out of your own way about it. now, where iām at in my career, i have to think about what gets me up in the morning, and thatās not publishing 20 articles a year or seeking external approval. what it is, is writing, reading, and teaching about what I love, my own little academic world that iāve created.ā ā prof c
Ā āi wrote shitty papers in college, and i still got a phd. youāre not supposed to know everything yet! youāre still learning! you know what, write that on a post-it and stick it on your laptop. you donāt have to know it all yet. you donāt have to be perfect.ā ā prof s
āwhile i can assure you that you should not feel like an imposter, i can also confess that the syndrome is common at all levels of academia āĀ so you should not think yourself abnormal to be experiencing it.ā (x)
āiĀ hate to say/write this, but itās sort of true: that you having these impostor-syndrome reactions, these worries about disappointing those you respect ā¦ to me, that sort of signals that you do have traits common to many successful academics! even people who have masses of success behind them ā and, come to think of it, particularly the people who have a lot of cred *and* outside affirmation of it ā suffer from impostor syndrome *if* (and the if is important) they genuinely care about the quality of their work. so: if itās possible to think of these feelings as symptomatic of a characteristic many good academics share, then please do. Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā (ā¦) the important thing is this: how counterproductive it can be for self-sabotaging people to think of themselves as being ābornā to do something. it makes any possibility of missing the mark immediately existential. academic work is something one chooses because one has a strong interest in a certain field of study, an ability to study and produce credible work (as judged by āauthoritiesā in said field), and a social possibility to choose to proceed in that direction. sometimes, i, at least, find it helpful to remind myself of the simple facts of this. Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā (ā¦)Ā i do think itās important to put the activating gesture of entering grad school very firmly in your own hands. you are choosing this. you are choosing it because you want it, others have said that you are capable, and you have the practical possibility of choosing it. this is enough. the work will be enough without the existential heft, and the existential heft will not make the work better.ā ā s
Ā from my lit teacherās wife, an english prof at ucb who graduated from yale āĀ āyesāi feel like this oftenāand so does every person iām close to in academia, and every graduate student ever. the key is to just feel the fear and do it anyway, especially when ādo itā means āwrite.āāĀ
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