Asya K.

23 | Bpd classics (trauma dumping)

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[salamgifs]

“O God, I love you and I know you love me too. please don’t distance me from you.”

[efil0n]

I can’t seem to find my place in this world or this society and I don’t know my identity. I fear I never happened to create one.

I am a shallow ghost carrying shame with me everywhere always, I am never enough, I will never be enough. And whatever I do, my existence feels wrong. No one really ever cared or will care. If I vanish it will be a relief

I don’t know what I shall keep living for. My plans are infinite but will never become reality

I am always too late

[efil0n]

I don't want to be present, I miss out on moments, I stopped taking pictures. I don't want to be seen. Ever.

But I'll always be the person behind the camera, I'll remain as the memory of the photographer

[efil0n]

I needed this character development but now it's time to move on

[efil0n]

Summer 2024 and my long distance bsf I can talk to while doing nothing at work the whole day 💔

[efil0n]

"Who u learning from in the city when im gone ?"

-A jun2024

[efil0n]

luck will pass by a stationary object,

the path can't reveal itself unless you start walking

[efil0n]

I'll never be able to afford a nice place and furnish it however I want. I'll never live my own life

[efil0n]

There is actually nothing really left for me, is it?

[efil0n]

the empty hole is getting deeper, trip to Belize is coming closer

[efil0n]

It felt like fall at 5pm all the time

[efil0n]

I hope my friends know how much I love and value them, I think about them everyday even if we don't talk anymore and our lives have changed, but I miss them so dearly and I wish only the best for them. They made me feel seen and loved and appreciated and never left out, I will forever miss the short time that we had together and I will always think about it. They're a different type of high that you'll never get to experience again

A. K. E. E. M. A. S. L. A. A.

[efil0n]

as if putting flowers in a vase will soften the grief and a walk by the river will help me forget

a ghost that follows me through the beauty

[efil0n]

If this new plan doesn't work out I'll send myself on a trip to Belize

[efil0n]

What was that very simple thing keeping me alive all those years? big dreams and hopes and quality friends. I miss it all so much. It's probably never coming back

[efil0n]

It's over, it's literally so over

[abu-firas]

“Forgive me when I prostrate while my mind is distracted. Forgive me when I repent and then return to sin, for I have no other refuge than You, O Allah.”