night thinking☾day dreaming☀

  what we have here is a dreamer. someone completely out of touch with reality. a pretty young thing, her late twenties. short, redheaded, bad temper.  grown accustomed to being on my own. some say even too accustomed.

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Ross: ¨What are you doing?¨ 

Demelza: ¨Im taking Jeremy to my father´s house and there who knows. ¨

Ross: ¨You're Leaving Me? I came back for you. I choose not go to war.¨ 

Demelza: ¨That is not my consern what you choose. Only what I choose. Why would I choose man who´s heart belongs to another?¨

Ross: ¨You are my wife!¨

Demelza: ¨Raised to the clutter to be a great lady. I will never be such a one. What do I care, I am fierce and proud and steadfast and true and I’ll not settle for second best!¨ 

Ross: ¨Why would you be?¨ 

Demelza: ‘Because you love Elizabeth! Because you will always love Elizabeth! Because you cannot conceal your pain that George now possesses her body and soul! Do you deny it?¨

Ross: ¨I do not deny that I loved her. Long before I set eyes on you, she was my first, perfect, untouchable love.¨ 

Demelza: ¨Whereas I am dull, imperfect, and ordinary.¨

Ross: ¨Not ordinary, but yes, imperfect! Human. Real. What that night with Elizabeth taught me – and God knows there should have been other ways for me to come to my senses, but my arrogance, my idiocy, has been spectacular. All I can say is after that night – because of it – I came to see that if you take an idealized love and bring it down to the level of an imperfect one, it isn’t the imperfect one which suffers. My true, real, and abiding love is not for her. It’s for you. She will never come between us again.¨

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Ross: ¨Believe me, I do not lightly meddle in other people’s affairs. That’s been Demelza’s way and often I’ve chided her for it, but lately I’ve come round to her way of thinking. She would say that if two people love each other, then the obstacles which keep them apart must be substantial, else they lack the courage of their conviction. She would also say that life holds very few things which are genuinely worth having, and if you possess them then nothing else matters. And if you don’t possess them then, everything else is worthless.¨

Caroline: ¨And yet, to gamble on the unknown…?¨

Dwight: ¨Is not all life a gamble, and does the gambler always come off worst? I suspect that those who suffer most are the ones who ignore their heart’s desires and spend the rest of their life regretting it.¨

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Elizabeth: ¨Does Ross know you’re here?” 

Demelza: “Is Ross my keeper?”

Elizabeth: ¨Why have you come?“

Demelza: ¨I tought tell you that I hated you. You marked my faith. You broked my marriage. That I envy you: the passion what you roused that Ross couldn’t stand. That I pity you, because you could never make up your mind. Now i wonder why do it even matter? What you did. What Ross did can’t be undone. You both must live with that. But I need not.¨

Elizabeth: ¨What will you do?¨ 

Demelza: ¨I take my son and go back to my father’s house.¨

Elizabeth: ¨You would leave Ross?” 

Demelza: “I will no longer be ruled by what he did. You’re welcome to him.” 

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Demelza: ¨He did not take, because I did not permit.¨

Ross: ¨How do I know that?¨

Demelza: ¨How do you not? If you trust me not, and I trust you not, then what is the point of the marriage at all?” 

Ross: “I entirely agree. What is the point?”

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Demelza: “Whatever you say, Ross. Go and live with her if you wish,”

Ross: “Demelza! I cannot blame you for your anger, but if you could bide awhile… Have a little patience. This thing will play itself out. Sooner or later.” 

Demelza: “So you just expect me to twiddle my thumbs and wait, until you decide whether or not you want me?”

Ross: “It’s not a question of wanting you! It’s a question of not wanting her!”

Demelza: “Do you not want her?”

Ross: “No! I don’t know…”

Demelza: “I’m not content to be second best,”

Ross: “Why am I here, Demelza? Why do you suppose I’m still here?!”

Demelza: “I don’t know why you’re still here, Ross! Because Elizabeth can’t make up her mind?”

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I begin to realize something about myself… Call it weakness if you will. But I cannot give myself to any man. Except my husband. I am bound to him.

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Ross: ¨Perhaps I would have hoped for some understanding, knowing you as I do.” 

Demelza: “Knowing me to be kind and simple, and giving? Would you like me to throw myself off Hendrawna Cliff, so that you might bury me at your convenience, and marry again at your leisure?”

Ross: “I don’t blame you for your anger, but how does it serve us now?”

Demelza: “How does this serve us?”

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Ross: “I realize that I betrayed your trust,”

Demelza: “Forfiet.”

Ross: “And that your pride is wounded…” 

Demelza: “Pride? My pride? And to think I did always look up to you. Respect you, revere you as my master long before you were my husband. For it did seem to me, unschooled as I was, that you were not like other men. You had a kind of nobility, not of birth but of character. And I was so proud to think that such a man had married me. So now, to discover that you are so much less than other men, and fallen so low because so far. Tis not my pride that is wounded, Ross. Tis my pride in you.”

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Ross: ¨The North Star is not the brightest star in the sky.¨

Demelza: ¨What is?’

Ross: ¨The Dog Star, which is fitting, since I found my star in a dog fight.¨

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Ross: "You are the most stubborn, pig-headed...!"

Demelza: "Oh, I am?!"

Ross: "Where would you be if I hadn't come along?"

Demelza: "Where would you be if I hadn't come along? Drinking and brawling and dodging the noose. You're hateful!"

Ross: "You're infuriating!"

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You think you can do as you please while I always do as you bid me? Well, think again.

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I Wish We Could Stay Like This Forever

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Pray to God I Do Not Lose the Love Of My Life

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The curse of the Poldarks. Once given, our hearts are not easily withdrawn.

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A Mother’s Love For Her Child Surpasses All Other Loves

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It is life’s greatest treasure to love and be loved in return.

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You’ve redeemed me. I am your humble servant. And I love you