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DEVILS SPEAK OF THE WAY IN WHICH SHE'LL MANIFEST

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reblog if you dont have a bra on

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first day of summer

well.... i just checked last years calendar, at this time last year i weighed 153...., right now im 140...., but i can't get the fact that i was 128 in january out of my head ..., my goal for the first day of summer was...115.... and im 140..., well ....

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HELP

i REALLY need to delete this blog, but my email has changed and i cant remember my old password...., but i need to get rid of this shit ASAP. and its not letting me delete it!

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You got fired from the salvo LOL

.......who is this?!

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eating ranch dressing with your hands and the fears of shitting yourself in public..., day in the life... -__-

Ugh, im doing bad. So last night I binged and purged (what else is new) but then I got drunk and ate pretty much a whole thing of ranch dressing with my hands… (WHY!?) ..probably like 800 calories I didn’t need , enjoy or even remember…anyways I got up today (well yesterday now) at like 5pm hungover, and about 5 minutes after waking up I binged and purged again. Then I fell asleep until like 9pm, when I ate an Italian ‘monster sub’ with a ton of mayo, and a full huge bag of chips and dip. …which took me forever to purge, and I don’t even think I got it all up. I spent like an hour over the toilet, drinking pop, and sifting through the bucket of vomit trying to make sure it was ‘all there’ ..ugh..then I drank some vodka. I woke up again at 4am with all kinds of …stomach issues…if you know what I mean, and had to keep running to the bathroom. I worked out for about an hour.., and now my stomach is REALLY weird. I have to go to see my boyfriends friends band in a couple hours, and im afraid im going to like shit myself at the concert or something. God dammit. Isn’t bulimia fun? UGHHHH.

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I'm really proud of you for eating something and trying to keep it down, for what it's worth.

yeah i try when i can, im just hoping someday i can be normal..,

thanks tho <3

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drinking beer..., just ate a small salad with some bread, and some 'light' soup, not even that mad. whatever. no use purging this shit right now. my throat is raw and my face is bloated. just keepin it down...

[sallydead]

Awesome!!! :O

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im drunk whatever

This sounds so retarded/simplistic.. but I wish I could just flop and lay around in a contorted , unflattering pose.. drunk...no double chin, no gut, I just want to be able to party and not be subconsciously controlled by the number on the scale..or even worse..my real world deformed self. … just..like ive said 1,000 times, I don’t want to ‘kill myself’…I do this… so I can live..all i want is to be happy

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you know you're bulimic whennnn..you're thrilled when you get diarrhea at 4am because its like, ...welp atleast that’s out of the way!  

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living the nightmare.

i just can't believe i've gained 15 POUNDS since new years. this is not where i expected to be right now : ( and im not in 'recovery' im just drunk everyday.., and i can hardly keep track of my binging/purging/passing out.., im a total mess.

i remember months ago when i would want to die after gaining 2lbs..., but seriously 15......., i feel like one of those people on 'hoarders' ..only its like...weight hoarders... ..its all just piled up so fast...and i don't even know how to begin to get rid of it. i feel trapped...hopeless.. lethargic..depressed...disgusting...i just want this nightmare to end.

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You're beautiful

thank you : ) <3

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im not leaving the house until im back down to 139. i fucking hate myself right now. im going to be sitting inside rotting for probably the next 4 days. just fucking kill me.

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i honestly want to die right now. thats the only way i can put it. i want to die.

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im fat. but im still going to have fun tonight