master of melanogaster

22, any pronouns, vetmed student. blog for thoughts i have at 2am when my brain decides to wake up randomly and have an existential crisis

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feeling cute...... might delete this app as a symbol of detachment from my old life later

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trying to have a relaxing slow morning while my roommate's alarm keeps going off every 2 minutes

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stranger things au that takes place in communist Poland and 90% of the soundtrack consists of Maanam

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at this point the only things keeping me upright are the power of mental illness and sheer pettiness

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3pm is a great time to do my morning skincare wdym

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pretty this, handsome that, the only compliment i want to hear is "you would be a perfect test subject"

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there is no greater love than that between a human and all the creatures he can't save

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cykl życia to jajo➡️larwa➡️poczwarka➡️imago➡️preparat

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eating a granadilla is the lesbian equivalent of eating a banana

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do you have Manfred autism, Golem Golem autism, Konpopoz autism or Roznakin autism

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it's just me and my favourite movies against the world

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cold mornings, hot porridge, the taste of chlorinated water, late night showers, sore muscles, chilly air in my nose and crunchy leaves under my feet as i run... i thought the world would end if i relapsed, but i only feel truly alive after giving my best. so what if on some days i take it too far? the disorder doesn't matter, I'M ME AGAIN!! IT HAS BEEN YEARS!!

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my gender is actually "ni pies ni wydra, coś na kształt świdra"

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the androgynous urge to move to another city, study something else and ghost everyone is growing

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one more year

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are you really aroace if you've never thirdwheeled aggressively for god knows how long before realising that your two (only) friends are dating and that's why they've been ignoring you so much?