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Eli | 20 | Chicago | Graphic Designer - Painter - future UI Designer | 🍒🌸

[elichaan]

what is this tumblr phase after a 4 year break ??????????

[ot9s]

我是胖胖~

[elichaan]

I have a bestfriend. Her name is Ashley. I love her a lot. We drifted apart over the summer. I was scared of her leaving or just anyone leaving so I caused the drift instead. I made youth group the substitution and support thing. Ever since I did drift away from her, I miss her so much. When I'm at times of relapsing or wanting to throw up, or wanting to starve, i have no one to go to. I love going to Tim. I do. But he's not a girl. He's not that kind of someone who I can call a second sibling. Its Junior year and I come to another problem. I miss her so much. Patti is also her friend too though. I know Patti's going through some stuff right now with Jason and herself. So I let ashley be there for her. Ash doesn't need too much stress having to be worried about 2 people. and so i stopped talking to her and let her be with patti. I didn't interact with them. Who do i have now though? I have a lot of friends. None of them can compare the rank of Ashley though. Not even tim can. I miss her. I'm alone when I want to relapse now. I'm alone when I want to throw up. I'm alone when I want to starve. I'm alone and I don't have anyone to tell anything to anymore. I also care for patti and I dont want anything bad to happen to her since I care too. Best protect others than protect yourself :) 

[you-lost-her-idiot]

[little-girl-whysosad]

depression, b&w, ed blog *may trigger*

[elichaan]

me

[hotmenofkorea]

[elichaan]

Kim Soo Hyun

[damnuglyprincess]

[worthless-depressed]

**Warning - This blog is triggering**

[chickabiddy]

[itsasianfashion]

Cute Sweatshirts from Sheinside: x x x 

[elichaan]

That girl, was me

[blackorwhitefeeling]

[elichaan]

-Seriously feeling like something is controlling me inside.  I just want everything bad inside of me to go away. I don't want to be in the dark anymore. I want all these urges to go away.

[yjayo-blog]

zelo singing aishiteru (i love you).

[mytsukkishine]

*sings incorrect Korean lyrics proudly*

[heyrainbows-blog]

by ddebeau

[you-lost-her-idiot]

[elichaan]

-Memories of bullying. name calling. I can't stop thinking about it. I just want to disappear.

[elichaan]

Hi, there. We spoke once upon a time when you were in the hospital from an overdose. I just wanted to check up on you and see how you are doing.

Thanks for caring. ~

[zebraljoe]

INFINITE (Myungsoo) who will do anything for food ㅡ Part.2 

[the-acid-erosion-of-my-life]