…must be funny in the rich man’s world, yeah.
I have many dreams. Some of those dreams require money. Sometimes even big money.
Here’s a simple example: the idea of studying in England came to my mind a few years ago. Maybe five years, or something like that. Most of my friends and, which is the most important thing, my parents were very supportive, they said: “It’s a great idea”. I need to make a remark here: my parents are not rich and they don’t have money to pay for my education in England. I think most parents in Russia can’t do that. England, especially London, is an expensive place to live and study.
Some of my friends said: “You’re crazy. It’s way too expensive”.
Fortunately, I didn’t listen to them.
Who do you think was right? People who said: “Yes, try it!” or people who said: “It’s crazy, it’s too expensive, it’s impossible”?
For me it’s obvious. Even though you can’t do something eventually, you always should try. You have to try. If you don’t try, if you bury your dream, it is tantamount to betrayal. Betrayal of oneself.
Recently I realized three things. First: you will never have enough money. Second: you have to save money, but at the same time you have to spend it. Third: if you have a dream, but you don’t have opportunities to let that dream come true, just do what you can do at the moment and trust your destiny. It will help you. I promise.
Some people always save money. They save it, save it, save it. They don’t travel. They don’t buy what they want to buy. They just save it for a better life. They always say: “We can’t afford this. We can’t afford that. We can’t afford those.” They save money for their children. Their children save money for their children. And their children save money for their children… It’s an endless circle.
They don’t really live their life. They only save money for some mysterious better life. And this "better life" never starts.
I decided a long time ago that I want to live my life, not just exist.
And, yes, of course, I had been saving money for my trip to England. And a close and dearest friend of mine and my family helped me a lot with my trip (that’s what I was talking about – trust your destiny). Because of him, my trip was three weeks long, not only two. And I’m so grateful for that.
I spent a lot of money on my trip. I could have saved that money. But I spent it on my dream. And I don’t regret spending any coin. I regret only wasting eight pounds on a shitty Long-Island in a club (don’t buy cocktails in clubs, alright).
That trip changed a lot in my life. I finally started to love myself after I came back from England. And I think it's worth any money. It’s priceless.
Sometimes I’m very scared. Sometimes I feel like I don’t have ground under my feet. It is fucking scary. I have the best parents, but they’re not oligarchs. My salary is just okay, it’s not very big. I have crazy dreams about studying filmmaking in England. And I have my intuition, my sense of purpose, my diligence and my faith in myself and in destiny.
I was watching an interview of “Preacher” cast (amazing series), and my favorite actor, Joe Gilgun, said in his unique and wonderful manner something like that: “Let’s just go in the flow, and on the move, we’ll understand everything, and everything will be fine”. He was just talking about some game they didn’t understand how to play, but I thought: “Shit. It is so true. It’s just life”.
So, what do I want to say? Just do what you have to do and spend money on what you really want to spend it. Carefully – don't waste money. Spend on what makes you feel better and makes you a better version of you. Believe in yourself. Believe in your dream. And everything will be really fine.
p.s. sorry for any grammar mistakes.
