foolish, fragile

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[draconisxmalfoy]

Ellen Von Unwerth (Sunday times Style)

[elisavetadaskalova]

[private]

[josephine-blake-blog]

Stop with the crap. You aren’t a burden. Just … forget her. It’s not that hard unless your name’s Isobel and you can’t stop thinking about all the lost opportunities. Don’t do that. Promise me.

[elisavetadaskalova]

I-- [Elisaveta covers her mouth, unable to hold back her tears any longer.]

I don't want to forget her. I can't forget her. She made me so happy. I never thought about my future before her. I was so sure she would be everything for me.

I'll...try, Josie. I'll try, I promise, I just -- [She bites down on her bottom lip hard.] I just need some time. 

[elisavetadaskalova]

[private]

[josephine-blake-blog]

I … I am not going to say what I usually would have told anyone else. Neither will I tell you that it’s going to be alright, that you will get over this and that you are going to find someone else, someone who truly cares about you. Because all of that would most likely be lies. If someone knows that this life isn’t fair then it’s us. But what I can say with sincerity is … that you deserve better than someone who just leaves without taking your feelings in consideration. We both know I am not good at this but, no one deserves to be treated that way. And what you have to do now is get back on your feet and keep going. I am too tired to kick your arse or to drag you along. You gotta do that for yourself. Now.

[elisavetadaskalova]

Nothing's fair for us. I should have remembered that more clearly. I should've remembered what happened to everyone we knew. Isobel with Gabriel, Brandon with Athena, even you, with Julian.  How many times have I seen everything fall apart for people like us? Too many times, and yet...I couldn't help but think that I was the exception. I'll keep going because that's what I've always done. You don't have to worry, Josie. I won't burden you.

[bookshavepores]

[elisavetadaskalova]

[private]

[josephine-blake-blog]

What are you talking about, Eli? You make no sense. Even less than during that one night I got you drunk. Whose ass do I have to kick?

[elisavetadaskalova]

No one's, Josie. Or maybe mine, because I was stupid enough to believe in happy endings. I knew I shouldn't have let myself hope. She had too much to live for than to just stay in Sterling. Do you remember Quinn? She...she did the laundry here. I don't think I realized how hard I fell for her until now. She's gone now, and I knew all along that she couldn't stay, but I wanted it so badly.

[advisor-rodger-deactivated20180]

It’s okay. Do you need a hug?

[elisavetadaskalova]

Oh, um. [She offers him a shaky smile, prepared to say no, even though she knows she needs one.] Yeah. Yeah, I think I do.

[lletstalkaboutmusic]

Visit Original Link

[elisavetadaskalova]

[private]

[josephine-blake-blog]

You don’t look fine. Where have you been all this time? What happened? And don’t give me some bullshit excuse. You know how much I hate liars.

[elisavetadaskalova]

I'm fine, relatively speaking. That much is true. I'm alive. I have food and water and I haven't been beaten for breaking the rules. ...It shouldn't hurt so badly, should it? I expected it from the beginning.

[advisor-rodger-deactivated20180]

Are… you okay?

[elisavetadaskalova]

I--I'm sorry. I thought I closed the door, and...I haven't really been thinking straight lately. There's just been a lot going on, and I've been so up in the clouds and I'm...I'm rambling. I'm sorry. I'm, yes. I'm okay. I'm just...disappointed, I suppose.

[josephine-blake-blog]

[elisavetadaskalova]

Sorry, Josie. I didn't know anyone else was around. I'll...it's okay, don't worry. I'm fine. I'm completely fine.

[josephine-blake-blog]

Who do you miss the most?

I don’t get close to people which means I don’t have to miss them once they leave either.

My family. Eli. Julian. And the way Cian and I used to be.

[elisavetadaskalova]

I suppose that's what happens when you let your heart do the thinking.

[quinnhaley-blog]

I can’t promise just this once, but not too frequently.  I don’t want to stay in Sterling, but.  Eli, I don’t want to leave you here, either.

[elisavetadaskalova]

You don't have to rent me, Quinn. I can come visit you, like I always have. We won't get caught; it's not like the laundry room's the most exciting place to be in Sterling. I don't...I don't want you to leave me either, but you deserve better than someone like me. 

[quinnhaley-blog]

It’s not for me, it’s for both of us.  I want to do this, Eli.  I don’t want us to have to sneak around and I don’t want you to get in trouble.  Please let me do this just this once?

[elisavetadaskalova]

I -- okay. Only this once? I know that Masters can rent slaves whenever they want, but it's not the same for House Employees. I know you don't want to stay here in Sterling, Quinn. I don't want you using up the money you've saved on me.

[quinnhaley-blog]

I…can I rent you?  Not, to rent you, I mean, but it would get us both out of the house for the day.

[elisavetadaskalova]

I...what? Quinn...I can't let you do that for me. We can sneak out again if we have to, but I can't have you spending money on me. 

[daenerystargeryan]

Emma Watson arriving the “Letterman Show” (25.03)

[quinnhaley-blog]

I know, I’m sorry, they changed my schedule and I’ve been in and out of town recently and I…I missed you.

[elisavetadaskalova]

It's okay, Quinn. I know it's not your fault. I, um...I missed you too. A lot.